August 2003

you know I was so busy downloading dir en grey videos (again) that I nearly forgot to blog. I'm so happy! I finally got a copy of the extra file from 5 ugly kingdom, I completed my zangeki no yoru PV, and then I downloaded a really really cute file which is an interview of toshiya and die. Oh and if anyone out there knows this interview and knows what it's talking about could you please mail me @ kamui_naomi@yahoo.co.uk. thanks! but I'm still left with a non deg video, which is the prelude of the making of moonchild! Wee! I can't wait for moonchild to come to Singapore. In fact I'm hoping that it will be faster than any other Japanese movie so far because it has Lee Hom in it! Another heaven took 2 years, Love letter took nearly 5 years, White Out took another 3 years...I hope this is faster. I know it's violent but hey, just make it NC-16 okay?

I'm so excited. In fact I'm like quite high today. I don't know if anybody out there is going to bash me for saying this, but honestly, after I watched my 5 ugly kingdom video, I realised that kyo, in that particular video, looks like morita go, the young punk from V6!! especially with that shoulder length blonde hair that waves outwards and the skinny ribs that show coz kyo didn't button up (or was he so violent that they all came off?)!! gosh! But kyo looks good, in fact very good indeed. Not because he looks like morita okay!! but honestly...haha...I'm just obsessed with kyo...

tomorrow is teacher's day holiday! I can sleep for once...I hope. time to do chem. wish me luck.

just went to lau pa sat with eewei to eat...dim sum only but I'm terribly full now. I don't know exactly why either. Sighs. Maybe it's telling me that I shouldn't eat so much in a day. Gosh I'm getting fatter...haha. I'm suppossed to bathing now but I'm like too lazy to do so...

Ahh...just burped...oops. quite gross right. haha. It's just that the burp made me feel a little better. Maybe I've got too much gas inside my tummy...Haiz. Maybe some gas evoking pills may work...later go see if my mum has anymore. basically they're just antacids. haha. they cause me to burp like some maniac man...

so tired. I've been trying to download more dir en grey. since I've like finished my entire dir en grey mp3 series, next up is to try to download most, is not all, the dir en grey 100MB+++ videos...yah like those live concerts, extras in their VCDs or even the VCD itself. Gosh I'm like super pirated. muahahahax. soon enough I won't be able to handle every video I have, then I can't put them up on my website fast enough then....!!!! That reminds me. I'm still stuck at briefcase number 15. or was it 16? I don't quite remember. anyway I'm far far far away from briefcase number 42. anyone reading this and it doesn't make sense to you go here.
My dir en grey video site

sigh. I seem to enjoy talking crap. anyway everyone out there do check back at my blog next month!! I hope to try a lot a lot of new things that may become permenant features of my blog...wee! I don't believe the amount of energy and time I'm spending on this blog.

speaking of energy...they're COMING! I think they must be the only chinese pop group I support. to hell with the 5566 and the sort. sorry if you take offence. everyone has their own preferences you know...

time to log off. time to watch more of my MOSO KAKUGAI GEKI....gosh it's such an old and wonderful DEG video!!!

I am compatible with plaintive Kaoru!
we're not saying you're grieving... but for this result there's obviously something not quite right, maybe you like it this way, that melodramtic atmosphere, almost romantic really. you and kaoru could drink yourselves into oblivion, reclining to your 3 star hotel, reveling in one another's crestfallen auras. deflecting any light you'll quite willingly lament in the situation and due to your both being so choleric you're irrefutably meant for each other... that's so depressing...
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ahh....couldn't help taking a quiz....KAORU!!!!!! *muacks*

Haiz. so tired. but tomorrow I have an exam...it's so irritating. And eewei is being lame. I don't know why I'm talking to her on the phone and trying to blog. Maybe I have split brains...And I am so tired. Today's band phototaking was so sucky. 3 of my buddies didn't turn up. What did they do? They went for breakfast. So wonderful right? So idiotic man.

Stupid eewei is playing that stupid brandenburg concerto again. So irritating.

I don't know what else to type anymore. Oh I found the script for scrollbar colours! So fun! I'm going to add it on to my next layout! Ooohh! So fun! I shall do it now. byeeeeee.....

I think I'm beginning to relive my childhood. This little doll has driven my whole class mad, inclusive of myself! Haha...didn't really expect myself to go really gaga over it but it's just so cute. I said I would put a picture up right? Here it is:

It's just so cute!! I can't stand it. I keep combing and combing her hair. In fact, she's sitting on my table, ready to study math with me! perhaps I might be a little more cheerful doing a math today thanks to her. Gosh I really must be going bonkers. My friend said I lost it. Then again, when did I have a proper screw anyway?

Going to do my math homework. Meanwhile, it's time to hear dead bach again...

can't wait for september 1st when I finally put up my next layout. In fact I have an inspiration for my next one already. Am I too fast? Perhaps. I don't quite care.

But first I have to get over MEP prelims...I've been listening to so much Brandenburg Concerto until my sister is so damn bloody sick of it and she thinks it sounds the same throughout. well in that certain sense it does, since it repeats the whole main theme cycle 7 times..okay. it does sound bad after all.

Haiz. And guess what the wonderful school has done? they happily put the band photo taking session on teacher's day celebration, when everyone else gets to go home early, I have to stay another one and a half hours to take one lousy photo. So SICK! arrgh...not that I don't want to take the photo but the irritating part is that I have to stay back for so long when I was suppossed to happily study with my friend. Now she has to wait so long for me and so poor thing man....

tomorrow I'm gonna collect that voodoo doll..haha no lah it's just the TKGS doll that I bought. It's quite cute really. Maybe tomorrow I'll post the picture of it here. It has rebonded hair! I don't believe this. But it beats the original doll hair which was like, an explosion??!! gosh....

Anyway I'd better stop here because I'm boring my friend who's waiting on the phone line, listening to boring decomposed bach and his concerto...

I'm supposed to be going home now but I decided to wait with my friend. I forgot that there's no more biology remedial anymore...then I told my mother that I'm going...so now I'm stuck in school, typing away at this lousy computer. But anyway I can't use the one at home at this hour so I might as well blog here now.

In fact I've wasted my time by typing utter rubbish in the above paragraph. So sad. I just had the last informal chem practical session of my life in secondary school. Not bad huh. Did I tell you that I really really hate chem prac? I think I did. I don't really remember. I hate chem as much as I love diru. So simple. haha.

Actually I'm really tired but I've promised to study while waiting for my friend to type out her music composition. In fact it reminds me that I've forgotten to add her address to my list of blog links. Hahax. Perhaps I should go now. She's typing in the other lab. ARRGH....so tired...

found a free image hosting site! or so I believe. it works. at least for now. i hope! it'd better. I'm sick of going to places that tell me that I need to pay for this and for that which are such basic nice things to do. so sickening. anyway i think it may work after all and that i the cheapskate will not have to pay. Good. Very good indeed.

stupid frailart.net says I must pay to host my images! I was so proud of myself after doing next month's layout and then this must happen. I don't have money okay. This is crap. Utter crap. Is it this difficult to have your own layout, not one of Blogger's ugly ones and most certainly other people's works that you have to credit? This is utter shit. I'm off to find further hosting sites. so there.

Sick and tired of studying but I have to...Adibah and I promised ourselves to pass our prelims properly and not like some shit passing through...and I want to pass well anyway. I finally got my Bach Brandenburg Concerto No. 2 2nd Movement after all...it took so long.

Sigh. Who started all this studying business? It's making me tired. It made me cry just now. Gosh. Anything that makes me break down and cry sucks. Trust me on that one. And now I can barely find anything on that dead guy named Bach. Gosh sometimes it makes me wonder why I chose to take Music Elective. Is it really an A1 subject? Perhaps it needs more time to prove itself...

You know sometimes I wish that I'd finished school and whooshed off to working or something, or maybe that I grow younger every year and then I don't have to go through all this shit. Sometimes I wonder how life would have been different without band, without triple science, without MEP, without a math, without my buddy eewei and adibah and carissa and vicky and lots more people...what will happen to all of us when we grow up? Since we're such childish bummers now...sweet sixteen...sweet my foot...ants will be all over my toes first. Okay that's lame.

Finally found some notes to get me by dear dead bach. So sorry but after an overdose of bach I don't exactly enjoy listening to him anymore, or for that matter, anything about him anymore. In fact I'm still wondering why my teacher hasn't covered a thing about this movement. Then now I have to my own sort of research. And it doesn't help to note that my exam's this coming saturday...counting down man. But it's so sad. Prelims over, then block periods, then suddenly O levels, then holidays...then eewei will go...haiz. when I find a proper buddy something always happens. Go to the wrong school, go to the wrong class, go somewhere else I don't want to go or I can't go. And it always occurs when I'm graduating. Or streaming. Sheesh.

They're right. Life IS like a vacuum cleaner. It sucks alright. Sorry for the long pour out.

Did I tell you I was tired? Gosh I am so sick of studying stupid A math I feel like ripping it all up! Sheesh! It sucks it sucks it sucks...and for the stupid test tomorrow I had nearly 3 hrs of math tuition. What's the world coming to? Is it time to attend math school? I think Ms Yeo should atttend Assumption Maths School ( no offence to Assumption English) but honestly Ms Yeo is a total joke...and I AM SO TIRED...

1 more week to my digusting prelims and what am I doing here? crapping. tomorrow the band committee will come out and I am so ready for bad shocks. hahax...in fact I'm hoping that somebody gets a real bad shock tomorrow. I shan't say in case that person clicks my blog suddenly. I wanna go hear, and see shocks, but I think she's gonna announce it real late tomorrow and I probably can't go. So sad right.

Oh and I just downloaded some more lovely Toshiya pics...so lovely lovely....from Kasumi's time...I'm so excited! I've decided to throw my kaoru layout idea aside and work on my next totchi one! I am so bias....hahax....

I think I shall just stop here. So much for being tired right? It seems to me that I have actually crapped quite a lot. I found that without band there really isn't so much to crap about anymore. So sad. hahaha....

sighs. I'm sitting in the computer lab now doing spasticated surveys. I haven't blogged for the past 3-4 days and I'm itching really...sigh. So brain dead today. I feel like dying liao...and I still have to stay back for lessons later...

great. my friend next to me has a faulty spacebar. how lousy can school computers get? Gosh. And the computer 2 seats down let out a farting sound. hahax...so funny.

I'm tired. and really really brain dead. I think I'll just post this for now. Maybe I might be able to log on tonight somehow...

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just bored and tired and took a look at my junior's blog. haha....mr krabs....

Ah....the new committee is finally out. Gosh it's terrible....well not all of it. I think the best are the two top ones! Go Simeng! Go Jaslyn! I support you guys...well at the very least the ones who have some sort of hope are right at the top...that's all I really care for. An unfitting uniform QM and terror SLs with unconfirmed head librarian, gosh the worst part is yet to come. Haiz. So tired. And there's cross-country tomorrow. Gosh it sucks!!!!!

stupid chinese O levels...how could I get an A2? And my mother was so terribly happy. well you couldn't quite blame her since her chinese is so atrocious. but it's just so dissappointing. and my oral was distinction! my sister got merit for oral but got her A1...no fair. but anyway it's finally over and I'm so tired of studying chinese for nothing this whole term. AARGGH...

My comp's fixed! obviously, since I usually blog from home...hahax....and I'm a happy girl...better log off soon, lots and lots of homework to do...gosh life sucks.

Finally downloaded that stupid patch to help my poor dear computer at home. That techie didn't get to send it properly to my friend. Never mind. I got it anyway...gosh I have so many things to do when I get home...I need to fix the damn comp, I need to eat and bathe and meet my friend at 4 when I reach home at 3, I need to call a hell lotta people too...ARRRGH.

This really sux. did I tell you that already??

Stupid internet got problem because some idiot in Microsoft decided to go against Bill Gates. Great man. But never mind, at least the poor technician was pretty nice although I think he got quite freaked out at the programs I had...Anyway I'm still quite pissed and I have better things to do than to fix such idiotic problems conjured up by a genius. Damn it. Depriving me of more quality time with totchi. and that is so sad. hahax...

Man the new layout is so nice! In fact I'm pretty proud of it. It didn't take me long to do it but it did take me long to decide which picture to choose and which side to put it and all that. Ah....sexy toshiya....

I can't help it...I must change my blog layout NOW!! I've created the new toshiya one already and I'm dying to use it! And since this diru one isn't really nice actually, I think I shall just change it! And I have really really gone gaga over toshiya these days....poor kyo...forgotten...sorry...

Yikes! I've been staring at totchi and mORE totchi and everytime I see his name on a search engine result, a diru page, a jrock page I would just click or stare or read etc...I'm going crazy! In fact I 'm typing this blog entry at such incredible speed that I amaze myself! Oh dear what have I come to? An ultimate totchi fan??!!

My stupid left ankle is going crazy...nonono it's driving me crazy again. It's sickening to note that I have to run like 2.4 km under 18 minutes (which I barely passed really) and then go window shopping today. The window shopping part was fun, but the running was bad. It's such a sucky thing really. I don't understand all these fitness tests. What makes them think that these tests are a real test of our health level? I passed everything. Does that mean I'm fit enough for their standards? I mean seriously not everybody is that fit.

Look at the poor people of the showbiz world. Some are so skinny they can barely make it past the blood level to donate blood. That's really sad. And some, like shinya, look as if he's gonna be blown away if the wind's strong enough. In fact if he really does get blown away I wouldn't be surprised.

Anyway I've been thinking about my new layout...yesh, that's real fast. I only change my layout once every month, that's when it archives, and I've decided on totchi!! Yesh sexy little (rather tall actually) toshiya...cxXX....catch him in erm...22 more days? Hahax. it's too early. far too early...but I must churn it out before my exams, otherwise I won't have time to do him...

Oh and lots and lots of thanks to my dear table partner for adobe photoshop 7.0! I've been coveting it for a very very long time. Gosh I sound outdated. Wait. I am. But now I can enhance Toshiya!! Oh my! I think I've forgotten kyo for a little while....*guilty face*...

Studied like the whole night, cracking my brains over A math. Sucks. Looking at Toshiya again. Funny, somehow I'm just so attracted to him...maybe the next layout shall be totchi again. But that's unfair. Then again, why should I be fair? In fact I'm so mean to dir en grey by making them my layout but nameless and faceless. So sad right?

I don't know...somehow there are such few nice big pictures of Toshiya while the rest seem to have lovely ones except our dear reticent shinya. I just decided to blog since I'm free now and ready to go to bed but had this urge to see lovely totchi so erm yah...sounds gross man but what to do. Why the heck do I love bishounen? Even though totchi is turning 29 this year (gosh so old) but he looks 29 minus 10 still...hahax.

Yikes!! The bitch of dir en grey is a guy....but who cares. If toshiya wasn't bitchy I wouldn't give a damn about him.

Haha I've been uploading and downloading and advertising my site at the same time. I intend to build a beautiful media database, starting with my whole bunch of MPEGs. It's a long process but I don't really care. Visit it here.

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Lovely. Simply lovely. Did I tell you I love Dir en grey?

sigh. I was reading the little war that is still ongoing between my juniors. It's quite hilarious after a while, especially since they seem to be bombing each other online without really knowing what in the world they are saying. First they got the identity of the blogger wrong, therefore insulting the wrong person, then more and more people got to know about these things and more and more comments are put up everyday. It's quite a drama, but it isn't too pleasant to know that those are your juniors, the ones you put in quite some effort to try to discipline over the past months, and that they have come to this stage where they believe so strongly in their freedom of speech that it has gone too far. There is no reason to scream fuck at your senior just because she told you to shut up so as to avoid scolding. Hey she's doing you good. This is ridiculous, in fact it has never happened. So much for the advancement in technology. I think it sucks. And the dumbest thing is--why in the world are MY juniors posting horrid comments on my friend's junior's blog? Why don't they try posting on MINE instead. See what will happen to them.