"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 10:33 PM 23rd March

oh yeah baby it's me legs again. gosh they hurt from running around in that measly pasir ris park. sheesh. you know that's the part I really hate about orientation. it's not so much the dancing or the cheering or the lame campfire or even the seriously wet and wild part, but the running around from place to place without rest and without breaks in between days of running! I feel like crying. it's amazing race tomorrow and we are running around 4 little towns of singapore and sheesh it sucks. even though roy happily tells all of us and cheats the second intake that it'll be better than today because tomorrow we can take public transport to the different towns, instead of walking like what we did this morning, it's gonna be bad. real bad. I mean, if for first orientation he said put 5 bucks into your ez-link card, and this time he says 10 bucks. tells you a lot about how much we're running about isn't it?! what shit man.

I'm listening to the ost of hack//sign now. it's nice! yayayayayayay! I haven't tried the witch hunter robin ones yet. no time. downloading the oh-so- perverse sixth day commercial which I am waiting to watch...hahaha. oh yeah so perverse. what's wrong with me. this is what happens when I'm almost brain dead and feeling dead tired and my legs are dead. sheesh I'm morbid. dead dead dead. everything's dying!!! hElP! going mad already. symptoms to show that I should stop blogging before anyone (if there are people in the first place) reading my blog will wonder if they should do my parents a good deed and send me to the one and only mental institute in singapore which coincidentally (or was it meant to be...?), is very near my place! yayayayayay! I shall spend my last years there. at least sounds better than spending them beside carissa in some lousy NKF kidney dialysis centre.

okay stop talking shit. oh yeah did I tell you? I'm in alhena. oh yeah the house I used to HATE so much. talk to me about retribution. okay okay stop stop stop. no can't stop! these 2 guys in my orientation group actually went to count how many 'okay's aloysious said in his little briefing. it was 58 times in 10 minutes! ohmy!!!! that's 5.8 okays per minute! and it sounds bad. he really said it a lot of times but never bothered to count. really man. don't they have anything else better to do? oh yeah they do. they need to do such silly things to entertain the much more mature girls in their group. oh yeah. oh don't sound so noble.

STOP BLOGGING. NOW. yeah yeah I'll stop...

"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 10:25 PM 19th March

is it mean of me to send yuting the final PV? especially when I got it before the release date. I don't know. sigh. it's pretty sad that it leaked (and I mean LEAK) so fast before release date. it just released 2 days ago and I got the PV like a week ago. and some earlier still. in fact I was happily waiting for it to come out on the 17th when a thread on baka.dk appeared and said that it can be also happily downloaded through bitTorrent, my latest pet at bunko.theppn.net. gosh. I should go there after my blog entry and see if there's anything new. what a pirate I am.

my holiday's ending. I just kinda realised. I've been slacking so much that I'm lost. not quite really. I'm not lost. I just don't like to face the reality that I'm in JC and that my holidays after this march hols will be like SHIT and in fact not really considered holidays anymore. in fact I wonder why I make my may template so pretty for. exam time! how to blog! but never mind I like to see kiyoharu's face! haha! that's all I care for.

in fact the pirate here is downloading the instrumental version of X Japan's ballads. it sounds okay. well at least for now. a bit boring but I really don't have the mood all the time to listen to toshi on ballads. it's fine when he screams the real rock ones like kurenai or something but not the ballads. haiz. I'm pretty depressed right. somehow there's this depression state about me today. don't ask me why.

it's time to log off blogger. nitez~

"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 12:30 AM 17th March

nice slacker day again today. it feels good to have a holiday. a real one that is. I finally got my bitTorrent installed properly! yayayayay! in fact I'm overloading myself. it's winmx, slsk, and bitTorrent at the same time. I must be crazy. and on top of all that craziness, I've nearly finished my may 2004 layout! woohoo! and you thought I couldn't get and crazier huh.

oh yeah pple reading this, I'm starting a new site which is an mp3 and small mpeg files rotation site aptly called Rotation Table which is at http://www.freewebs.com/kamuinaomi. it's not open at the moment because they wouldn't let me upload anything within 7 days of registration, which is real shitty because I've already done up the site and all ready to upload and they say I can't. well the only thing that they allowed was my index page and that's all you'll see there. so maybe you people can wait and watch for my official opening! yayayayayay! I've taken to typing that haven't I?! well I shall not type further. nothing much to type in the first place. haha like real.

"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 9:35 PM 15th March

thought I would feel better today but it seems I don't. muscle aches again! now it's not so much my feet or legs, but it's my arms. my left arm in particular. must be those stupid balloons. haha the balloon hat festival was really hilarious. it was a great miracle that carissa and I actually appeared and a greater miracle that the juniors actually put on those silly hats (well I donned one myself in the end) and played kiddy songs which were like all disney? hahahahahaha...it was really funny. not a wasted trip at all. I was still deciding whether to go home and sleep after the crazy overnight hike or to go. I glad I went. I even took a stupid clip of them shaking their butts. so sad right, for them to end up like this. I should have videoed the first and second trombonists and they can compare how straight and nervously they were standing and see how much the thirds move. and I used to be a third! what did I do to get these sort of juniors??!! tell me!!

oooh I'm going crazy trying to download stuff. apparently bit torrent is supposed to be faster but honestly it doesn't seem so for me. so sickening. the final PV (which has leaked so badly by the way) by dir en grey is taking ages. it's 17% done and has 5 more hours to go. what shit is that? my darling kotodama PV which is like 20MB bigger took 3 hours in total. I've been downloading since I don't know what time and 5 hours is certainly too much. this is bad. I thought that since I already have my oh so lovely soulseek, and it certainly is a good investment, I would invest in bit torrent. it has let me down slightly for now. but the problem is many good and rare files go through bit torrent so not much choice right. sigh this is saddening.

got to go to school tomorrow. stamping time! oh my it's 175000 copies. that's really a lot. even though it cuts down to 11666 copies per person, that's a lot of things to stamp. and it won't be the last assignment, trust me. especially for people like me who's confirmed staying there. this sounds bad. but we get fun and CIP hours out of it so console yourself. or rather, myself.

19%. get on with it dammit. why is it so slow!! I shall try soothing myself (if that is possible) with Dix Infernal. it's supposed to be good. but then again, anything from mana should sound good. at least either grand, creepy or just groundbreaking and feet sweeping. whatever. it's good. let's go baby.

"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 11:06 PM 11th March

muahaha it's the second last day of school! great. so excited about slacking days. absolutely. but the stupid computer at home is freaking me out. will it work for once? can you imagine the stupid school comps are actually better than mine??!! that's absolutely absurd! okay stop ranting.

haiz. just downloaded the hitomi no jyuunin (I think!) PV and it's like...so silly. I think laruku has lost all sense of inspiration already. stupid PVs. can't they think of anything new? rewind the tape and see them for like 3 seconds. great. oh well I'm so tired now and it's terribly cold in the library...yeah mainly because it's raining cats and dogs out there and I'm awaiting my doom in math tutorial. haha.

whatever. another day.

"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 2:31 PM 8th March

I know what's wrong with my damned computer. it doesn't like me. but never mind, the vcd player doesn't like my sis either! she was trying to watch her original LOTR extended version vcd yesterday and it didn't work! haha...I'm so mean right.

so tired. almost got cheated last night. gosh nearly ripped of 74 bucks. and that's a lot. don't really wanna talk about it now. so never mind.

I'm just blogging for fun really. I'm actually at baka.dk and I'm going back there...

"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 9:43 AM 4th March

there's something wrong with my computer. and I don't know what it is. all I know is that I'm getting very very annoyed with the fact that the cpu never seems to stop work and that the silly cursor gets stuck now and then. and it's only stuck when I'm online. it wasn't like that before I went online. and I don't think it's because I just burnt a cd. anyway it's making me feel kinda pissed and grouchy. but at least not violent like sis last night. gosh if she realises this today and if she's not in a great mood, the comp is going to suffer again.

paper 4 class watched a bit more of bowling for columbine today. gosh it's freaking shocking but now I'm reading some criticism thingies on it and it seems that the documentary is a little fake. oh well I'm downloading it now, and actually I spotted the file that's cut out from the original documentary. it's the part where they show the so-called history of america. it's really amusing honestly and it was cute. and the makers of that oh-so-not-funny and brutal south park is from littleton. great. explains a lot, doesn't it?

I'm just ranting on and on. just feeling more and more down. don't ask me why. perhaps it's because there's no one online to talk to me. I don't know. it's only 11 minutes past 9 and I'm feeling real bored. after finishing a mad hat of literature assignments one after another there doesn't seem to be anything to do. I'm like online everyday like there's no tomorrow or something and bumming around. the term's going to end soon. and I'll be more bored. congratulate me.

but then again, it'll be the last time I'll be this bored. I think from next term onwards it's time to do work again. yeah like when the tutorials first started and we were going crazy trying to complete all the tutorials on time and juggle the answerless assignments too. sheesh. plus all the lit assignments which will come my way once more and other things...I don't really think anything else has this much work to do as math and lit. econs has nothing much, gp essays are written in school, chinese can forget it (haha) and yeah. that's it. I don't take anything else. yay! still don't understand why people want to take 4As.

this entry is really long. and I'm not done yet. my cpu has finally quietened down at last and I'm feeling a little better. I just burnt 43 files worth nearly 700MB earlier on and I'm proud of myself. but I think the ones that really take up a lot a lot of space are actually my pictures. sigh. where can I put them? nowhere, basically. I was thinking of getting diskettes to store them all. or actually once my site is done I'll dump ALL my pictures on the gallery parts no matter how bad I think they look (and amazingly I still keep them) so that they'll all be online. yeah. then I don't have to worry about them. after all I'm pretty nice in the fact that I've decided to leave all the pictures alone...leave the stupid labels on.

but I'm pissed about the labels too. so what if you were the one who painstakingly scanned it in? you're not the one taking the photos, neither are you the artiste being photographed! labelling is unethical. it's better to say like what magazine you got it from or something like that. that's what I call real credits. unless it's some like fanart that you've drawn yourself and you label it with your signature or the site name then I wouldn't be so pissed anymore. it's your own work so I can't complain. but some of these people just label so HUGELY on the picture and spoiling the entire thing just because they took their money and bought those mags and scanned them in. you think I don't? wah lao.

arrgh. I'm tired of rambling on and on to myself and offending everyone. write another day.

"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 9:22 PM 2nd March

so proud of myself. I finished all the essays that were due these 2 weeks. but now I realise that I still have to do my chinese. and I thought I could go to bed! it seems that I am fated to never go to bed before 11. and that is so sad. I'm so tired today you know. it's so sickening. and I'm not getting results! arrgh! how many years has kiyoharu been in the music scene? so many years right? hasn't he like taken ANY pictures before? they are like the hardest thing to find in the whole wide world!

gosh I just ranted a whole lot of things above. and I did it very quickly. shows my anger. but seriously man. even the kagrra kotodama PV isn't working well for me. I have everything else that they want to offer me, but I've just suddenly decided to invest my time in downloading a much bigger and better version of it but it simply doesn't seem to want to download! and my oukaranman is like stuck? but I don't blame it because honestly, it's pretty new. but then again, I got my urei! and urei is such a nice song! *gush* okay enough of my mood swings. this is going nowhere. nowhere at all.

tomorrow is wednesday. sheesh lecture day. chinese first thing in the morning. darn.

"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 10:34 PM 1st March

9 thumbprints in a day. I've never done that until today. does it take that much to make an ATM card? sheesh. let's hope I don't overspend or something. you know I have that amazing tendency...

I'm so tired and I have a splitting headache. but I still have to do irving's assignment. why? because I decided to stay in MJC! great. so anti-climax right. oh whatever. from tomorrow onwards I must bring my camera, so that I can take pictures since I think some people will leave.

and I'm still kiyoharu crazy!! I shall do the next layout on him! it's march and it's m for march and M FOR MANA...

"At least until this dream goes away..." @ 5:42 PM