oh my I learnt a LOT about hotarubi today...and I'm pretty much right anyway. about the kamikaze part that is. I was thinking that the song was something regarding world war II and I'm right! yeah! haha. maybe I'm slow, like hotarubi was released in 2001 and that I've taken so long to actually fall for the dear song and analyse it only now. great. and I dismissed it last year as a simple song that was about the poor girl taking her child and killing herself or something like that and then they reunite with the daddy, or something of the sort. you know kyo. but nope it isn't! in fact it's such an intricate song full of double meanings and beautiful poetry that it just makes me scream out here. but I can't. because I'm in the library. damn. I feel like squealing now you know. and I wish yi fang were here. then I can squeal all about hotarubi to her. she would understand. damn. so sad. oooh I've damned twice in 2 lines. sigh. I'm trying to cut down on my damnations but practically failing to do so anyway. carry on trying! yeah! I've cut down on some of my shit and those sort. so goody! yayayayayay...
and I'm really enjoying my dear dir en grey blitz 5 days. and I can blitz about it now. yayyayayayayay! my days 1-5 are doing well! except my day 4 hasn't been moving for a few days now. but I can't help that. lemoned comes on now and then but at least when he comes on the connection is not too bad really. so at least it downloads much every time I log on. and that's really good. and I'm waiting for my day one day one day one.....KYO KYO KYO KYO!!! oh yeah. I've gone totally crazy over that felle. even though he comes crashing out looking like he just survived a fire disaster, it doesn't matter. as long as he sings his mr newsman properly I don't care what he looks like. you know kyo is like this classic example of not looking at people just by their looks? he's so freaking talented that I cannot bear it anymore. why doesn't this happen to me? hahaha. actually I'm not sure whether I want to write such morbid stuffs or not, since it's really pretty disturbing and somehow I can't write disturbing stuff. yeah. I tried, failed. I'm just not that kind of jrock fan. I'm just a fangirl fan. oh yeah. thinking is morbid but doesn't show! haha. I realised that jrock fans look freaking normal and lead pretty normal lives but oh my the stuff they indulge in.
I was supposed to be raving about blitz 5 days right? I'm back to screaming all about it! oh yeah I love that concert so much and I oh so wish that I were part of a knot. they are a bunch of lucky bummers who get to see kyo so CLOSE!! and hear him so near!! oh my goodness I could scream right now. but I'd better not silence is golden in the library. but my dear kyo is platinum okay. I insist. I think I'd better stop typing right now before I rave on and on and on and the the bell will ring and I can't feel the sense of resolution after I log off. then tonight I'll be dying to finish off my blog entry.
that's it! check lyricist_kyo for the hotarubi analysis okay!
me something different, you showed me something pure @ 10:46 AM
27th April
Heart of Chocolate
What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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haha. chocolate? isn't meant to be eaten...? that was ripped from yuting's blog by the way.
I'm not a great mood to blog today. don't ask me why. just not. so don't try. I'm enjoying my dir en grey blitz 5 days by the way, and I'm too tired to blitz about it. and I absolutely love hotarubi. head over heels in love with it. leave the lyrics here.
hotarubi [Light of the fireflies]
only the dusty old photographs,
days pass
they lit the fire
with the pinwheel play with the child, the tears
rocking back and forth in the basket the baby laughs.
aa, goodbye
aa, the night wears on
the divine wind loses its divinity
and disappears into the dark
the light of the fireflies which spring
up on the night of our reunion
I see the image of you in this child you loved,
I'm going to you now, with this child in tow
aa, goodbye
aa, the night comes to a close
only you appear in the midst of the battlefield floating on the water's surface.
the divine wind loses its divinity
and disappears into the dark
the shapes of the lilies blooming
on the night our renuion
the divine wind which lost its divinity
the light of the fireflies and the flower of the lily blooming
on the night of our renuion.
me something different, you showed me something pure @ 9:48 PM
22nd April
sheesh this stupid computer is just so freaking slow. it's infuriating me in fact. gosh. and I am so pissed today with that sicko J ko...I don't think I've ever blabbed about him here but I'm oh so pissed (yeah somehow more pissed than about matt) that it's time to talk about it. no. scream about it.
gosh he's so irritating!!! can't think for himself, making stupid jokes that aren't funny, trying to stall the teacher when really he's being annoying, trying to be a real AP but honestly he's simply a pain in the neck. ARRRGHHH!!! it's killing me. then during chinese class he kept trying to look at our answers when seriously, can't you think for yourself?? and the craziest part is that he just got a freaking loud scolding from the teacher like yesterday and today he's the only one who actually bothered bringing a dictionary and he can't use it? he had the dictionary but got the wrong word. not that everyone can do chinese, true, but not this bad! it's his stupid attitude lah.
okay. cannot say anything further. or I will puke. really. gross!!
right. change topic. change to something a zillion times better. I've finished downloading the dir en grey blitz 5 days day 2 and I'm on my way to day 1, 3, 4 and 5!! yayayayayyaayyay! and I tell you I love that G.D.S. it's the opening song from rettou gekishin where the members come out one by one. wee!!!!! you know the crowd shouting along with the music and the lights sound like they're screaming, "kyo! kyo!" !!! really! and it seriously turns me on. kyo kyo kyo kyo!!!! and then he didn't come out!!! so sickening! you know I saw shinya, then kaoru, totchi, die all came out, then kyo didn't! then I checked the tracklisting and realised that the next one was zan. oh my...he came puking out! woohoo! but he really looked awful on day 1. he looked like he just survived like 2nd degree burns or something. he was like all puky and all and kinda blackish coz I think they smeared something on his body. but whatever. zan is such a cool song. I used to hate it because I thought it spoiled the mood of gauze. well it sorta did, but after listening to so much dir en grey now, it's pretty normal, and in fact not bad at all!
and the day 2, OH THE DAY 2! I'm so excited. can you tell? I'm sure you can. oh my he looks good, sounds good and kyo is absolutely fabulous. he still sounds the same! and the lovely kaoru, die and totchi solos in the different songs are so nostalgic you know. especially the raison detre and cage solos. so touching. oh my...and then I didn't manage to watch much of day 3 but I checked the tracklisting and it starts with deity! oh my it's the ultimate hypnotic song! and I get so mesmerised by it. don't ask me why. it's really good. I watched a bit of it from the macabre tour 2001 and it really got to me. but I didn't download enough of day 3 to get to it. darn.
day 4! and day 5 I didn't really watch yet. but day 4 has mushi and that's all I care for! I never really listened properly to vulgar so I haven't any comments on day 5 yet. tonight I'll be online again and start my downloads again! so exciting!
me something different, you showed me something pure @ 4:21 PM
18th April
yeah the gackt layout is done and I'm so super proud of myself. I got it aligned nicely! but I can't imagine if next time I have some super super big complain and blog a lot and goodness me how much space it will take up. cannot imagine. but anyway that's a worry of june's, which is pretty far away really. and seriously, the more I think about it, the meaningless it gets. why in the world do I keep this blog? is it really for my venting purposes or for people to read? if for the latter, does anybody in this world read it anyway? gosh. I change my layout prettily every month without fail (with exception of my first 3 months of the blog coz I stupidly republished the entire blog without realising the consequences) and for what? really I don't know.
ah never mind. take it as my mad obsession. it's not exactly unhealthy really, but yeah it's mad. I've done june's layout in april. great. like I'm really that kiasu like that. but honestly I'm not that bad really. it's just that when I have time and the mood and the pictures and the inspiration I must get down to doing it. no matter what. yeah. and I'm trying a lot of crazy things. really. and I seriously like my gackt one. oooh it's oh so cool you know?!! goodness me. that has to be the coolest and most awesome picture I have of gackt. and yeah it's my first (yeah FIRST) layout I've ever done on him!! and it's so lovely. but on the other hand, I would have preferred to have more space to blog so that the paragraph doesn't look so crammed, but what the heck. it doesn't matter. it's completed.
2 huge paragraphs on layouts. great. now I must go crazy here before I drive my dear friend up the wall tomorrow if she's unfortunate enough to run straight into me. my dearest dearest dir en grey blitz 5 days day 2 concert is completed!!!!!!! so exciting! I watched a little of the last part. you know I enjoy it when the editors of the video take one of the songs that they've sung quite a number of times and then cut it to pieces and piece the different performance clips into one? they did it for the larc en ciel great cross conclusion in the song snow drop too! and for dir en grey, they've done it for dearest yokan! oh yeah! and I love it when kyo wears that lovely suit of his. he should add in his beautiful pair of sunglasses too!! so nice!! do you realise that there are a lot of exclamation marks in this entry? it's driving me crazy!!!!!!! must calm down. calm down. yeah breathe in and breathe out. again....NOOOOOOO cannot.......must let it out. all out. oh yeah....must let it all out....
oh dear. I've typed so much and I'm not done. yeah regarding deg....YYAYAYAYY!! I'm on my way to finish the rest of the days! especially day 3 and 4! I love their older music you know. really. although I haven't seriously really sat down and listened to vulgar, but I really miss their old ones. that's why I was so bent on getting day 2. it's like their gauze day and all and the non gauze tracks they chose are so lovely, like unknown...despair...a lost and drain away and kasumi....some of my favourite tracks. although I'm pretty disappointed in the fact that they didn't sing stuff like I'll, Jealous or Garden. yeah I know they sang jealous~reverse~ but on the wrong day. they should have had it on the same day...haha. then it'll be like a flashback of osaka jo hall 1999. and I love that concert! I'm absolutely nuts about it. but I'm nuttier over rettou gekishin angya!! kyo looks absolutely fabulous!
okae. I think I'd better stop. really. it's too much. yeah. that's it. finally.
me something different, you showed me something pure @ 10:20 PM
16th April
eh...the gackt layout isn't done, but the picture is! and that basically is the whole point. that's what really takes up a lot of time. anyway the kiyoharu layout is uploaded at http://www.geocities.com/kamui_naomi as usual, and hope you people like it! at least I do and that's all that matters! yay!
gosh there's so much to do this weekend...stupid jason teo and his econs. luckily we got the deadline extended till monday, otherwise I'm so dead. and the tys is so heavy!! gosh! can't wait for the lockers. then the whole class will just dump the tys there and that's it. goody...and not to mention irving who has conveniently dumped us into this horribly deep pool of communism (now I know why they always think that he's communist) and we're like reading something written in 1880 which is all about communism and how it relates to a sort of utopia. great.
arrrghhh!!!!! so irritated. in pretty much of a good mood to blog. not that I'm in a particularly good mood really, but it's a good atmosphere and ambience to start blogging. or rather, complaining.
and I'm not done yet! stupid PE in the last period. gosh my lunch almost all came spilling out! next time must remember to cut down a little on lunch. but I can't help it. it's lunch, a more major meal than breakfast! I can run 1 period after breakfast, but 1 period after lunch? everything's gonna come out sooner or later. and it sucks. but strangely enough I can do sit-ups better in the afternoon than in the morning. almeida asked me where's the logic but honestly I have no idea.
got the project work grouping today. poor poor jolyn. I think she's really hyperventilating. with that J ko in her group, I would too. now the problem is, somebody from my group is gonna get transfered over. and I don't know who it's going to be. pamela!! why did you withdraw...you were fine I thought? I thought wrong. I thought no one would withdraw no more...sigh.
okay okay I guess I've enough already. better go check if my kiyoharu layout is working properly or not. otherwise I have to spend may 1st trying to do a last minute repair. actually I didn't realise that may is hide's anniversary. it didn't hit me really. dammit. otherwise I would have happily done a hide layout. but I was so crazy over kiyoharu then (now still though!) that I just decided that I SHALL do a kiyoharu layout and that's final. sigh. never mind. I shall have a beautiful entry on 2nd may. yeah.
enough! gosh. anyway I shall do my gackt layout real soon and yuting can go see see! yayayayyyay! did I tell you that I've gone crazy over Malice Mizer's Transylvania? okay I shall not carry on. just one line...
drink from me and live forever...
me something different, you showed me something pure @ 9:55 PM
14th April
all right! my gackt layout is done. but I haven't uploaded my kiyoharu one yet...but never mind. the gackt one looks real cool and that's all I really care about.
now it's time to try to hype up myself once again about the dearest Palace of Roses. I've put it aside for too long already. yifang is already like done with the beautiful family tree, while I have finally decided where to put yu~ki, my dearest count, and the galleries are almost finished. oh yeah the pictures are adding up!
finally got my scans of miyabi!!!!! yayayayayayayayay!!! he looks so super cute! can't stand it. why does he look like so so so pretty??!! oh yeah judith thought that hyde was 22 and I couldn't stop laughing. I shall wait for yifang to put up the scans of all my magazine cuttings and then I'll link up the picture of hyde I bought (oh yes BOUGHT) for 2 bucks at misexclusive....so nice!!!!! gosh. only almeida got his age right.
stop babbling now....hahaha.....why am I still in school....
me something different, you showed me something pure @ 5:44 PM
6th April
for my dear friend yuting...presenting to you, darlings miyabi and sakito!! wee!! but they'll go away next month. and dammit I was thinking of doing gackt for june...never mind. change to kyo! muahahahaha. just found LOTS and LOTS of his pictures!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAH..............................................
me something different, you showed me something pure @ 8:10 PM
4th April
wee! new layout up! finally. got down to doing it. now I realise that I'm a little behind time. I've just uploaded the april layout and I only have may. must do june soon. think girl think! who should be there? gackt? takeo? toshiya?
KYO? muahahahahahaha
me something different, you showed me something pure @ 6:56 PM
3rd April
gosh I'm actually in school on a saturday morning typing away here because of a miscommunication problem. great. but never mind I'm here already so just do something. I do hope later there'll be something to do. otherwise I really come for nothing wearing a super hot MJC uniform...
speaking of uniforms. damn the uniform is oh so HOT inside because it seems like air can't go through the pores at all, or if there ARE any pores to begin with anyway. I'm sitting in the lovely air-con library and still sweating. is that shit or what. shit right. great. and the new timetable isn't out yet...I'm dying to know who my tutors are. if I get some horrid one then I'll cry. hope I'll get back the same few. or at least the ones I don't mind.
not quite in the mood to blog today really. go check my baka.dk. I haven't been there for a long long time already. seriously. I think there's loads to read through now. look at the past entry's date. it's been so so long...and I still love mushi by the way.
DIR EN GREY ROCKS!
me something different, you showed me something pure @ 11:23 AM