may 29th
right. the very first thing. I got a phone today. congratulate me. it's time to update my wishlist now. yes so now you can officially tell me that you'll message me. and yeow sheng can send a message to a proper mobile, and not to my house phone!
and maril, thanks for thinking of me. but thinking of me in the warped way!!
this is a song for you :D
Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful
I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I see,
To me you're strange and you're beautiful.
You'd be so perfect with me, but you just can't see,
you turn every head, but you don't see me.
I'll put a spell on you,
you fall asleep
I'll put a spell on you,
and when i wake you, I'll be the first thing you see.
and you'll realise that you love me.
yeah...yeah
sometimes the last thing you want comes in first,
sometimes the first thing you want never comes,
I know the waiting is all you can do,
sometimes,
chorus
yeah...yeah...yeah
yeah
i'm sending this song to you, because gwen made an offhand remark - "this song is a stalker song" and so IMMEDIATELY i thought of you and VIO
the mail goes on a little more. wah lao. like how wonderful. but it's a pretty nice song anyways. it's from the O.C soundtrack. yeah the orange county. haha. remembered moses. lame you know.
and anyway I'll be seeing vio on tuesday. for the last time this holiday anyway. since apparently somebody's going to thailand. hurrmph.
and I should sleep. as in really. but somehow not drowsy yet. or perhaps it's just me trying to stay awake. but you know what? my nose is better. so at least I know the freaking yellow pill is working after all. well usually it does. sleep!
may 28th
not feeling sick anymore. I AM sick. and it sucks. so actually I should really sleep now. but honestly I've slept so much already. but then again, sleeping is what I do best. I don't know what I'd do without sleeping. heh.
and I really believe I have flu. it's so painfully obvious. my arms hurt in this weird way, and so do my fingers, really. and then the back of my throat feels weird too. so flu symptoms.
and mother wants me to sleep like now. NOW when my downloads are doing freakingly well. oh great.
found a place selling clamp X vcd really cheaply! well it's cheap only because she's from singapore too. yeah me and my incredible online buying thing. not really incredible buying, but I do check quite a bit on all these things. you'll never know, someday there's something cool selling that you wanted. and this girl's from singapore, which is nearer. although the other girl wasn't too far off in malaysia...
and I degraded myself last night. I went for dinner with the juniors. and the small juniors at that. gosh couldn't believe it. you know somehow some of them have turned out different from expected. and they should look at themselves 2 years ago.
honestly I think I'm the constant factor and they're all variables. seriously.
and vicky had the ultimate fall last night. she was like screaming her head off (the usual way when she's irritated and laughing at the same time) and then she
1. slipped on a step 2. landed on the chair armrest 3. slipped backwards onto the folded chair 4. pushed too hard 5. the chair unfolded 6. she landed on the chair seat!
WAHAHA. great laugh. and I suddenly realised I knew a lot a lot of people in the vj band. like great. and then I also suddenly realised that the last majestia I went for was AGES AGO! it was when siying was still there! omg that was years ago. now you know how much I boycott vj. then again, I went for an array of band concerts. vj, tj, yuhua, tkg, and and and...nothing else?! ohmy. not that array after all. well the 'array' comes from my silly visits to the botanical gardens aka band fiesta in the gardens, I suppose.
and I need inspiration to deal with the totchi picture. it's not coming. especially with this rotten sickness of mine.
oh and sister found the MONEY!! woot!
I shall stop. otherwise mother may come shooting out and screaming about why I haven't gone to bed. shall take a strepsil before that. no I won't choke to death.
I insist that I will not.
okay I'm talking nonsense. sign that I should sleep.
may 26th
feeling sick. shit. so actually should sleep like NOW. and you know this stupid dreamweaver suddenly started to like slow down, and it's like super annoying.
sister msn-ed. with bad news. she cannot find some money she was supposed to bring over there. great. and I can't find it either. so how. sigh.
let's hope she finds it.
and k lin, jolyn is NO negative externality. she's saved us from listening to overdose of willis. which is wonderful. and meida didn't succeed in her 100m dash. we were like almost there.
anyway he's not stupid lah. I'm sure he knows that we don't like him. and after all the image spoiling and well poisoning we've done today, I think fel is like EEEW why does he exist?!
going for vj concert tomorrow. and I am going to die among a whole bunch of sec 4s. it's so odd. you know somehow they'll always be my sec 2s.
as if time never passed.
but it did, it has. too fast. and I don't even have time to sit down and think about it.
and sometimes I like to sit down and think about what ifs. and sometimes I like to sit down and think about why certain things turned out the way they did. is it a waste of time? I don't know. does it help? I guess not. so therefore a waste of time. but I guess even though it doesn't help whatever that has happened already, I just feel better.
and that's good enough.
I keep doing this. this one liner after a paragraph thing. oh well. let's talk about happier things.
went for pccg today. mae dragged me in. surprise surprise. usually it's the other way around. and we had this terrible econs lecture. yeah as crystal puts it, a badly disguised econs lecture. eew. someone tell me what has singapore's fiscal policies have anything to do with pastoral care and career guidance.
nothing really. absolute skew lines. screwed lines really. and then mae asked me to stay for the leaders' appreciation lunch. well since I needed lunch (because I didn't know that ms k's extra lesson was in actual fact a mini lecture to be done during the paper 8 free slot and not after school), I thought hey why not? and then I remembered that daniel and co. were performing. so, cool, I'd stay.
and then econs pccg ended, and then I was like AH my leg feels useless. then this oh so familiar voice took over the mic from good ole naresh and told the leaders to stay back for the lunch.
who else. VERY INTELLIGENT ONE! oh dear I think I should stop this. getting very very dangerous. in fact I think I know why my radar is like totally not working for ec 2. yeah my radar is very rusty since it has not been in much use after avril graduated, which was like more than half a year ago.
then I thought never mind, I'd train it up again. but it's not working. then I realised why. my radar isn't tracking ec 2. it's tracking VIO. which is,
shit.
not supposed to happen this way. and anyway yes I ended the term with him. not bad huh. started my last day with ec 2, saw a lot of ec 1 in between, and ended my day with VIO. what a great day.
oh and clarence was like telling us life story today. but cool. he reminds me of vicky. as in attitude about vj. oh well. there's a reason why I didn't want to go there at all. and so wanting and clique shouldn't either.
I guess different people have different ideas. I don't care for their top 5 nonsense positions. or their wonderful ccas. like whatever.
and I must go sleep now. doing nonsense already. shall start planning tomorrow. or perhaps mother would be happier if I started clearing tomorrow. but gah so lazy.
everyday so lazy.
may 25th
shouldn't be blogging here. as usual. in fact I should stop blogging altogether because it takes up so much time. but I'll make it short today because I am so super tired.
well first things first,
mjc soccer rocks!
okay, even though I know soccer and myself are total skew lines (well it's skew with vicky too) but bwahaha we won. cool huh? shafiq must be freaking proud of them. don't know if he came today. and should have called avril last night after all. then perhaps could see her today. wasted.
and yap mae was like oooh the place we sitting very strategic, because wenjing was like just there with all the seniors, and then a little further up was her source of water. just needed her mrt guy and the eye candy collection would have been complete.
and ANYWAY, it was so fun. more fun than last year. way more fun. then after that went to eat with vicky wara sj and yuhan. talked to wanting on the phone. after a while, wanting said
you know what? you are like a zookeeper.
I was like huh? why? and she said because I have animals to take care of, aka the other 4 of them with me! ahaha. I immediately thought of vicky and her trombone zoo...
and despite myself trying hard not to strain my throat, I'm still having it a little sore. let's hope it wouldn't be so bad tomorrow. well basically I never really recovered from my stupid little cough. that time I seriously fell ill, but sleeping it off after 2 days left my throat and nose fine, but a cough lingered behind and has been around since.
and I am so busy. well actually I was supposed to just stay home after school on friday. and now because the soccer boys won, we don't have school on friday, but I'm going for the vj concert at night instead. great, right? so I must do a lot of work on friday. and then saturday I thought of just meeting carissa to pass her the book, then maybe call up somebody to study with me there or something. but carissa just msn-ed me, asking me to watch madagascar on saturday! and I am like OK!!! because I really want to watch! and vicky's fine with it too...
must really really start doing work. and stop slacking! I was supposed to complete most of my stats 7 tutorial, and finish my stats 6 assignment. in the end I finished my stats 6 assignment halfway, and stats 7 is empty.
then I thought never mind, after soccer, come home and bathe and then go finish up, since I'd probably be done with all that by 11pm. then I'd sleep at 12. which is fairly reasonable.
but I'm on an adrenaline depression. went too high just now. and now I'm like stoning and completely zoning out. and I want to sleep. I'm feeling burnt out and tired again.
haven't felt it for a long time. yeah that oh so familiar feverish feeling, plus the ache in the throat and feet. ugh so so so band days.
and speaking of band days, I actually owe wanting a sticky chewy choc treat because I took an entry of hers. great. there wasn't any clause on her blog! actually she should owe me too, because she found her way to my blog without telling me! hurrmph. my blog is 'locked' in a sense that unless you happen to stumble upon it, if you're not close to me you wouldn't even know that my blog exists, or that I have one in the first place.
supposed to be short right? so I shall stop here.
and ec 2 didn't go...han was like oei why your eye candies all from band?! and then wara was like UH? really?! then yuhan said yeah...you should have joined!! and I was yeah! but so stupid.
and I shall carry on with my reminiscing another day, because when she said that, I thought about some things on the bus. you know, the usual 'what if I'd joined band' question. like what would or would not have happened.
another day. sleep!
may 23rd
I shouldn't be blogging. in fact I had decided to be a superwoman today. I was to finish 2 math tutorials, my tuition homework (which includes a full paper), my econs essay outline and 2 lit essays in ONE day.
which is obviously impossible. thus I have decided to just do 1 math tutorial, finish my tuition homework sans full paper, and scream that I can't do sampling tutorial, finish my econs essay and do wlt's essay. and thanks to that amazing reduction, I'm left with wlt's essay. and the time now is 1806. and I got home and started work at around 15++h.
which makes that quite a feat. I must be mad. yeah you bet everything is done like halfway and terrible effort and all but GAH I'm tired. you know somehow I can't wait for school to end but yet I'm tired of it too.
and I've cried too much today. I swear I am growing backwards. when I should have cried I missed all my chances and pretended that it didn't hurt. and pretended that nothing mattered. and pretended that all was fine and that since I'm fine you ought to be fine too. but I guess I'm breaking now. it's finally reached the point in my life whereby I'm crying over everything and anything and that even reading a stupid comic would make me cry.
then again, that comic was seriously upsetting.
and you know I look amongst my really really favourite stuffs and I realise that the pattern of the songs isn't the arrangement nor the lyrics, I mean, considering that I listen to anything from opera to heavy metal, but I realised that it's the melodies. and it must be the sort that gets underneath you and makes you cry even if you don't know a single word it's about.
I know what that is. that's catharsis.
yes that's it. oh well. and I'm convinced by myself today that I truly think too much. and think way way out and way too far out. I don't know how to stop it. it's killing me slowly but I don't know what on earth to do about it. it's going to curb me forever you know, thinking so much and so far ahead and all the worst things in the world. worst case scenario should hire me. I am so darned sure.
and you know somehow I wonder (I am ALWAYS wondering like this) what if lydia found this place. perhaps then she'll realise how screwed I really am, and then she'll understand why I break inside. and then perhaps she'll realise that I'm not some unfortunate child abandoned and abused, neither am I an unloved masochistic nut, and I'm not an angsty violent sadistic idiot either. I'm just this strangely miserable asshole who's made her own life difficult for nothing.
I think too much. but I can't not think. too extreme. when's the line in between? where does it exist? I don't know. I can't find it. if I could I would have done something about my incredible thinking. and you know what's the worst part about all my crazy madhat thinking? it's become so part of my system and part of the way I talk and process that I do it so fast. so fast that I didn't know I was thinking about ALL THAT CRAP. until I write it down, that is.
lydia asked me what I was thinking about. honestly I was thinking about a lot of things at the same time. I had her question there, the answer there, as well as the answer I really wanted to tell her, plus the memories she triggered by asking that question. and she asked what I was thinking about. what on earth...
it's like impossible to tell her. because the moment I start on one thought I'll lose the rest. and then when I lose the rest I'd carry on expounding on that very thought I had and then another explosion of memories and stuff like that would appear all over again.
you know sometimes I don't want to kill myself. I've realised over the years that throwing yourself over the parapet isn't fun. well joyce and I used to think about it when we were in primary school. we'd look over the 2nd floor (so loser right) in primary three and wonder what would happen if we threw ourselves down. would we die? would we survive? would people cry for us? what would happen after that? would we be caught?
and I guess when we grew up more we realised that suicide didn't work out anyway, and so we wondered what it was like to faint. stupid things we think about when you're primary 5, watched too much tv and have absolutely nothing to do while waiting for parents to pick us up after school.
and now I have an entirely new idea. 9 years after thinking about suicide, 7 years after thinking about fainting spells, here I am, thinking in 2005, how to get rid of red pills in my life. I know a way. I should go bang my head REAL hard and forget everything. I know what's wrong in my life. it's the memories. I realised it. I remember too much. I need to erase. but cannot. I need to forget, but impossible. it's like this horrible curse that remains there and I don't seem to forget what I should.
and of course, that results in having myself forget what I ought to remember because there's no space. then of course you would tell me NONSENSE the human brain doesn't work that way. we prioritise. we write down stuff. then we'll remember. after a long long time, we'll forget.
sorry darlings, mine doesn't work that way. thanks.
so tired. feel like doing my new toshiya layout now. in fact I feel like deleting the moonchild one, especially since it's so ugly, and replacing it with the toshiya one I want to do. the picture is simply fantastic.
now I remember what I wanted to talk about. how could I actually let it slip my mind. went to ailing's place this morning. daddy was asking last night,
"you going to whose place? anling (press button)?"
I was so going to kill my daddy. NO dad, AIling, not ANling. who on earth would name their children press button?! good heavens. and we had such fun there. I was expecting like team 3 kids, like joel, liang ze, lydia, angie, tingyu, kayan, yaoqi, derrick, gel, amanda. but noooooo it was funnier than that.
today we had yihan aka turtle, mingsen, meiying, joelle, ruth, charissa, angie, lyd, dengzheng, liangze. well we gathered because it was ailing's birthday yesterday, and then mine on 11th, dz's on 17th. actually there's still tingyu on 12th, and yaoqi's on 3rd. but oh well. too many!
and it was SO funny. minx plus turtle is total DISASTER. seriously. even lydia gave up. angela was like why did you even try??!! and we played cool games! take six! ruth and turtle the COWS. gosh kurseth should learn this game man. all about COWS. and it's exciting in a crazy way, well provided you've got crazy people (like them) with you!
typo was funnier! especially minx with his jaundiz, and lydia's armpita!!! so lame!! talk about desperacy.
but all good things must come to an end. and so we were like all packing up at 2 plus 3 and I headed home to become superwoman. sigh.
oh (must write this one) then after we blew the candles, lydia suddenly said let's call yaoqi and wish him happy birthday too! and so minx dialled his number, put the phone on speakerphone and placed it on the coffeetable.
then yq picked up the phone, and minx was like arlow? yaoqi ah? you...wait ah! then he silently counted 1,2,3 and we started screaming the happy birthday song into the phone!!
and guess what? yq was actually in the LIBRARY and we sang SO loudly that the librarian came to SCOLD him!! ahahahahahahah!!!!
okay that wasn't supposed to be funny, isn't it?
but it is!! it's hilarious. then we dared not call tingyu, in case something like that happens. yq never mind lah, ah geok, don't want...
AND I ought to be doing wlt's essay! but I'm feeling so tired and stretched. and it's YIKES it's nearly 10 and I intend to get it done before 11. as in like well before 11...so I have like 45 minutes left. argh. wlt was like supposed to go through outlines for this passage's essay, but it turned into some strange tutorial. I mean this is interesting and that's cool too but sometimes it's hard to put it into the damn essay. or is it just that I'm lousy?
perhaps both.
sister's going away tomorrow. so fast. but she'll be back like 3 weeks later! gosh. looks like I'll be sleeping early this holiday? I don't know. don't like it when my sister goes away. well I guess we are this weird pair of sisters who refuse to get our own room. not that we have no choice, it's just that we chose to sleep in the same room, and insisted that the beds be next to each other.
quite fun huh? so I'll miss dear sister. it's like she's going to hiroshima all over again. well sorta. she's going to tokyo this time though. and for a very different purpose.
and mother is forcing me to get a handphone. I've been pretty successful, haven't I? first mother forces me to get an atm card, then forces me to get a handphone.
but they're all so ugly really.
well never mind now, FINISH THE DAMN ESSAY!
I need to help sister when she comes home, so better finish the stupid thing. ARGH. I might decide to continue blogging later. although I think these couple of entries have been way too long. and I write my entries like the way the unseen passage of brave new world is written,
unsystematically.
superbly non systematic. agendas don't help, by the way. I realised. in fact agendas make it longer, because at least when I have no agendas stated at the beginning I don't remember certain things and thus shortening the entry by a lot. well at least a lot more that you'd think.
you know I think I'll miss a lot of people over the holidays. I'd miss sister, if daddy's going away again I'd miss him, I'd miss maril, I'd start missing avril all over again, I'd miss the very intelligent one, I'd miss ec 2.
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
maril come join my econs class then I wouldn't miss you? kidding.
gah I'm beginning to waste time. ACK! it's 2201 now. MUST get moving. shove your ass you terrible procastinator...
may 21st
perhaps the people who have seen the pictures below are wondering why on earth I suddenly put a picture post. weeeeellll...the picture post was something I wanted to do like ages ago, to put up some really nicee pictures I saved not very long ago, but it turned into this memory lane thing.
well when I get left alone at home (and it was going to rain), I watch stuffs. and because my 1995 heavenly live at budoukan finished downloading, I decided to watch it. and then I spotted the 1998 light my laruku fire vcd at the top of the shelf. and so I watched that too. and that I thought about how all these jrocker idiots looked like then (gawsh some were absolute disasters) and what they look like now (some turned into absolute disasters) and it was funny. and I had pictures from both past and present.
except mana. well he's never changed. or actually he has. the type of clothes he wears now are different already. I know the anti-mana bunch is like growing by the day, but hey he's cool after all. at least his clothes are lovely. you know his clothes are like what I call prom dresses...
right. visited some site just now (forgot to take the address down) and got some nice toshiya pictures! haven't added to my totchi gallery for some time. oops that also means that I must reupdate my toshiya gallery pages. darn.
I believe this post wasn't meant to be like super jrock post. but it's turned into that anyway. listening to sugizo's version of tonight. and it's so funny!!! still funny, that is. sorry to sugi fans, but when you allow sugi to take over ryuichi and sing an accoustic version, I can't help but laugh.
in fact sis and I came up with a stupid story! it's like luna sea came together in a studio to practice for their upcoming album, and then ryuichi needed to pee and he left for the toilet. then sugizo said hey let's do an accoustic for tonight!! and though apprehensive, they let him do it! and that's how it became like that! and then suddenly from the toilet came this bloodcurdling scream:
URUSAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHAHAHHAHAHHAHAA it was so copied from the ah beng version of elmo song we had. the urusai part, that is.
and I think I should get off. my eyes are beginning to hurt a little. or maybe it's from much toshiya. and fighting with iframes. oh guess what?
I WON THE WAR AGAINST IFRAMES!
yay! so now my layouts won't be so ugly anymore.
and I shall stop here before the crapping goes on. then it wouldn't stop until dinner and by that time my eyes would have both dropped out.
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now that my eyes are back in the socket, I'm back here once more. read wanting's locked blog. my poor dear junior. a little bit from it.
i have always been wondering,
did i make the right choice to join band?
Sec1:
i was choosing
between Softball and Band.
i ended up in band.
nvm.
in fact, i do not have much memories of band
when i was just a sec1 kid.
all that i remembered,
was that band was still as good as it was.
Sec2:
i really wanna to express that
sec2 band life was
the best
and
the one with the most fun
in whole of my band life.
i really enjoyed band in that year.
with all the crappins' with seniors.
as u noe, we don realli get to joke
with the presnece of **u noe, u noe hu**.
with shiqi as the bl,
our section can be quite serious at times.
with zy and vicky
as the sl and siao snr,
band times were the most enjoyable daes
in my life.
with the concert and performances
at esplanade,
their batch filled my life with
more and more laughters
as the daes went by.
i really want to say,
they made my felt as if
band is my life,
and i really missed them.
Sec3:
Band wasn't as fun as we thought,
as the years passed by,
with different seniors leading the band.
all i wanna say,
i din get to enjoy band that much,
as compared to the times in band
in year2003.
the seniors made me,
to prefer tkgpB than tkgssb.
that's one sad thing.
they arent as nice as we thot,
when we were all 14.
i really wanna to express,
i hated band for some while,
all because of them.
Sec4:
Band was ridiculous.
We let her down.
i knew that some ppl
were veri happy
as they hoped that
the band would fall in our hands.
but think again,
we are ur jnrs,
those that were under ur hands
and teachings.
if we din do well,
yesh, it was our fault.
but there's no way u can deny,
it wasnt ur fault too.
u din guide us well.
u let our attitude to go astray.
the times before that event,
u despised our playings.
and now, yesh,
ur wish came true.
think abt it,
is this wad u realli wanted?
if so, i felt sad for u.
for the reason
that u're selfish
and nothing else.
if not, why ur actions and thots
doesnt go in the same way?
all i can say:
prolly i've made the wrong choice
when i was in Sec1.
gosh I nearly cried after reading all that. it sounded so familiar. and thanks daarling for saying we were nice kids. but you know somehow we all go through the same phases, batch after batch, and we don't even know why it happens.
it's like when I was in sec 1, band seemed perfectly fine. great time to pluck tougeh. in fact carissa was like the perfect partner. then in sec 2 syf came and band was still lovely. the sec 4s treated us like shit now and then but still fine. in fact shiqi and I with the sec 3s said we'll make a fine batch next year.
then sec 3 came and the seniors sucked. totally disappointed us. so much for saying that we'd make a lovely section the next year. they changed. and they sucked. really badly. and the ones most hurt were shiqi and I. the rest just hated them. we didn't hate the seniors. we were just utterly hurt and upset and absolutely disappointed. we didn't why they were like that. we didn't understand. we became so bitter. we told ourselves, we'll make it without them, we'll be the leading batch next year for syf, and we'll be better sec 4s than they ever were.
well the ending is different for us though. but I know we were obviously worse sounding than the seniors, and some seniors didn't think we'd get the gold anyway. but we did. but you think we did make it after all? I really don't know.
and you know in sec 4, I really really had like nearly nothing else in my stupid head but the question of why I joined band in the first place. and then when I think of it now, I think nothing. there's no regret, there's no slapping of myself, but neither is there like wonderful enthusiasm, or perfect joy. it was something that perhaps I shouldn't have done, but yet again, glad that I did.
and then sometimes I think once more, why on earth am I thinking about this now? that was like so long ago. but I guess I still live on memories. I still enjoy thinking back, looking back on my life and laughing at silly silly things I do. and then sometimes I'd shock myself, by realising that some of the crazy and stupid and silly things are resurfacing. that I'm still the same. just maybe in a slightly different way.
let's see. what do I still do. I guess I'm still a stalker. and a good radar. been doing that since like secondary school. I started being a good radar first. because of all the ma'ams. must greet them you see. so I looked out for them so much. needed radars, longsightedness and peripheral vision. if you're far enough, walk the other way. if not, better greet them.
and then of course I developed a very good radar for eewei, especially since I needed to pass her letters. and I think the stalking began. I started to memorise timetables pretty well. as well as schedules. and really a lot of other stuff, that I either shouldn't know, or shouldn't remember. I remember I used to scare eewei a lot with the amount of info I knew about her that she didn't tell me at all. and of course, the amount I remembered of whatever she told me.
then again, I'm such a grapevine. I seem to know the oddest things. and then I don't know current world affairs. how ironic. and then I came to jc and started my stalking without myself realising. yeah duh my dear victim avril. and my radar was so freaking good man. I could sense her presence. so freaky.
I AM freaky. I've always known.
and then I stalked ec 1 for some time. but I was too busy stalking avril anyway. and now that there's no more avril in school, and that I'm not that hung up over ec 1 anymore, what's next? in fact you know something? ec 1 doesn't strike me anymore. I don't like stop and look anymore. I don't try stealing glances anymore. I guess it's over. wahaha. but he's still got great lashes and pretty hands and nails anyway. *wishes he and his gf well*
you know everytime I talk about avril here she'll sign in??!!! this is like the nth time it's happened!!! which reminds me of last night. oh I should talk about last night, right? after my stalking story.
so what's next? obviously ec 2 (which takes another 1 hour session with yuhan to begin digging once more), don't ask me what's it about him okay? and no mae, his bag is ugly. or then again, I'm biased. I don't like ripcurl. so there. and no lah his bag not nice. and even yuhan can understand his prettiness. mae is just...lousy lah. haiyah. hahaha
and of course the smart boy. if he were educated in the arts it would have been perfect. but then again, nobody's perfect, and somehow I'm glad that he isn't anyway. otherwise I'll probably just die.
okay okay enough enough. this is ruining my image. oh and speaking of image, kayjal is my latest anti-hunk friend. lovely. simply lovely.
last night. last night went for NYJC piano ensemble concert. cool! all duets! but before that, had dinner with vicks and then met jiaying before going. and then we were somehow talking and talking about shera, then about jocelyn, and then at the paya lebar mrt station bus stop, we spotted joce alight from a 135 and we were like oh my gosh that was SO....brrrr.
and we found our way there! and stupid nanyang doesn't switch lights on!!!! sister said that they don't, most probably because residents nearby complained of the strong bright stadium lights. oh man we were like where are we going...
and it went well! yeah some trips here and there but I thought it was cool, considering that my piano skills are bleagh already and that I cannot seem to play anything (besides my exam pieces) which are higher than grade 5. which is sad for the grade 8 holder. but who cares.
and some of the pieces were really nice. I thought the mother goose suite one was nice. especially the little miss ugly face one. I think it had something to do with the japanese traditional scale tune thing. as usual. I have this thing for the japanese pentatonic scale. and for the chinese one too. so cheena, me. just being munjen. =)
and the extra little performances were nice too. the violinist was not bad, for a chinese teacher! ahaha. salut d'amour. brings back weird memories. not really bad, but not fantastic either. so they're weird memories. yeah, of entertainer. haven't seen her for ages. don't want to see her either.
but the teachers' choir a bit weird. and therefore the encore was worse. and the worst part? the emcees! I couldn't believe it. they were so horrible. I'm fine if you want to come up with a lame script, or that you can't remember all your lines and thus require index cards. but good heavens they were reading from the freaking thing without emotion!! I was so going to kill them. soon. and the guy was worse. and py says that he had more experience. goodness.
and yuting was like so nervous. and her toes were shaking. so funny that girl. and it seemed that everyone else was there for py and I was like the only one who was there to see and support yuting. and then we end up complaining about co. so funny. py came to both of us asking about the concert, and then ting was like oh ah we're complaining about co. py gave that oh that's like skew lines look. we all burst out laughing.
oh man. talk about yuting. and she signed in!!! very cold. very very cold. why does this always happen?! so freakish.
and then vicks py and I went to macs to eat. talked for some times then we realised that we'd better be moving, because otherwise vicky would be reaching home real late. which she did actually. she reached home at like midnight.
and the time now is 2331. and I guess it's time to sleep. I must do work tomorrow. there's actually quite a bit to do really. so must do. there's loads of math, both school and tuition, loads of econs which michelle will NOT finish (I guarantee you that), and rehana. I ought to do. oh no there's still wlt's assignment! the 'damn you' assignment! oh no I'm so dead. monday I am so going to stay home and do all this shit.
and what was so funny about the 'damn you'? I still don't know. perhaps because it rings familiar bells in me. I used to say that. a lot. like gah damn you lah. you know, the way I say don't be such an idiot and idiot lah you. and I nearly started a you stupid or you stupid?!
I am mean after all. but I don't mean to be mean.
well at least most of the time I don't mean to be mean. I don't know why people in mjc take it so seriously. they are like so seriously hurt. the first few times it seems fine. then after a couple of times they are like hey that's really bad of you and they MEAN it! and I just cannot believe it.
aileen said she misses secondary school. you know something? so do I.
a lot.
just reading my mail.
"Always end the name of your child with a vowel, so that
when you yell the name will carry." --Bill Cosby
sister and I were just talking the other day about how nice it is to call victoria when you are angry with her. it carries.
and I have a really lovely picture to use for september! and it will be toshiya again! and then you know now I'm thinking, september, with prelims and blah, would I blog? and then I think again, when I'm stressed I do all the wrong things, like talk a lot on the phone, stone too much, sleep way too much. and therefore blog too much. I did that last year too. terrible. so layouts wouldn't go to waste, would they? or actually they might. because even if I blog, nobody reads! but then again, not everybody who reads is in the jc system!
I think too much. I shall go sleep. like NOW. entry like freaking long lah.
may 20th
PICTURE POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this is hyde, say...more than 10 years AGO!!! well this is circa 1993,94.
this picture is taken around 1999, but he kinda looks like that now anyway...
tetsu, around 1995 or so. don't ask me what happened now. he looks AWFUL!!!! ugh.
this picture of inoran is like erm...1993?? oh dear so long ago.
inoran again! yes I am VERY sure. YES it's the same felle. anyway this is pretty recent. 200x.
mana the cute girl
mana the sex bomb
and mana the....MAN?! yeah yeah mana is man.
woot. kaoru in....2000? I suppose.
kyo!!!!! osaka jo hall 1999!!! yeah the stupid one with the turtle shell on his back.
kyo again, blitz 5 days (2004), can't remember which day it was. I think it's day 1. kyo can be sexeh too okay!
what's over there?? huh toshiya?? anyway this IS old, erm about 1999 too.
when toshiya decided to change his gender back. I think this picture is like 2002 or so. cool huh? roses for me???
stylish people. dir en grey! woot! that's (from left) kaoru, die, kyo, toshiya, shinya. this is from myaku, which makes it 2000.
still stylish. very. dir en grey again, nope you didn't see wrongly. from left, die, kyo, shinya, kaoru, toshiya. this is from kasumi, so...2003.
dir en grey for the LAST time! live...somewhere. macabre tour I strongly believe. that horrid striped shirt of kyo's...
anyway, from top left clockwise, kaoru, kyo, die, toshiya, shinya, toshiya, kyo, die, kaoru.
and....I must go bathe now and meet vicky for the piano ensemble concert! woot!
may 18th
"stalker, YOU!"
you have any idea how many times maril said that to me today? or at least some variant of it. ah well what to do. I seemingly enjoy it really. see how much detail I remember (and therefore seem to know magically). it takes observation and memory daaaarlings.
and and don't make me think so much about what sort of feelings I have about him okay? it's easier to live without eating so many red pills. gah as usual because I don't know the answer or I know the answer but don't like to think/talk about it so I shan't.
I have a sudden urge to google his name again.
aiyah see lah, all your fault.
and I still think that this is the funniest:
moral of the story? don't be so nice. wait get written about your silliness online. wahaha.
oh and talked quite a bit to my dear dear junior aka yuhan today. so funny. she asked about ec 1. and she thought that he was one of those pretty cool guys and was asking if he was that sort and if he were a flirt and I just couldn't stop laughing.
then she stared at me (since I laughed so freaking loudly) and said, "huh he the jie mei (sister sister) kind ah?!" and then I explained the entire 1.5 guys in a301 thing and she was like uhhhh....
but he was so nice. well either that or he can't stand being alone. yuhan said that since they both stay around the same area, he walked her home. so either he's nice, can't be alone, or he's just got too much time to spare. either way it's nice lah.
or maybe it's me. maybe I'm just jealous. wahaha.
and then I went to help meida fold her cranes (yeah she's forgotten how to fold them) and then I quickly scrammed back to yuhan because I wasn't done asking her...
so I plonked back onto the canteen bench and I was like, "eh your trombone section ah ah ah" and she looked at me and said, "uh [ec 2's name] ah?" I was like oh-shock-and-horror face and she was like OMG really ah....
like roll eyes. yes my dear dear junior. and anyway apparently he's freaking quiet and squeaky clean. and she thinks that because he doesn't speak a single profanity and doesn't even scold people stupid means he's terribly uncool!
victoria please SAVE OUR JUNIOR. her mind is...
ARGH. what nonsense??! you tell me where to find someone, never mind male or female, who doesn't speak a single word of vulgarities (at least not in public lah) and can't utter stupid??
nobody....there's like close to zero...and the probability of a GUY like that is really really really close to ZERO.
and stupid (ah you see!) yuhan said that he's too quiet for me. not my type. ah wonderful.
oh and maril, according to our favourite website aka dictionary.com,
eye candy
n. Informal
Someone or something that is visually attractive or pleasing to look at.
(and actually the 3rd definition says that it's supposed to be slang for soft porn but let's not go there...)
and it was first used in the year 1984 (ooh our favourite year too), in conjunction with nose candy, which is erm cocaine. that's according to someone else's favourite site, aka www.etymonline.com.
oh and I want to say this. I don't even know why I am so amused by it. we went through the unseen passage of brave new world during lit 4 today, then he said, "oh pass up within 3 working days which is...oooh so long ah, monday!" and then we said, "no 'cher monday holiday!" and he let out a
"damn you!"
and thus we settled for tuesday. and that damn you made me laugh until lecture was done.
in fact I'm still laughing. and I don't know why.
funny meh? not really. but it makes me laugh.
what an amusing day. told you, wednesday is my favourite day of the week. smile!
time to sleep. in the end I didn't do my literature at all. in fact I don't feel like doing it at all. shakespeare for paper 8 is just shitty. not that it's super hard to understand, just super hard to like pick out the points that rehana would want and all.
UGH. lalaland time. say bye to avril. AW that's sad.
and sista wants me to wake up at 0630h with her!
moan and double moan.
may 16th
I had to blog today. especially after the rather dramatic eldds committee elections today. haiz. never had such difficult election in my whole life. then again, in my whole life, I think I only had what, 2 elections?! and some other so-called elections were so biased and sabotage games anyway. this is like the first time I took it so so so seriously. in fact so seriously that I turned in a blank vote.
and then later when we counted, mae and I realised that even if we had both supported fuad, daniel would still win. gah crap. oh well. we felt so disappointed for fuad. you know if that daniel hadn't run for president...but then again we'd get stuck at drama head. sigh. makes no difference.
and forget the issue about sherry. I still don't know what a vice president can do. well other than take the shit with the president. then again, because all the committees before this were quite crappily chosen and run, we don't have much example to go by. and much less instruction. ah well.
ANYWAY....I failed 2.4km run again. sigh. meida was like aiyoh why all the running running one...gah it's true. shuttle run, 2.4 run, sigh. short or long distance doesn't matter after all. still fail. stupid running. and I failed to reach a 'd' (mind you I PASSED okay) by like 30s. GREAT. I'm beginning to hate this so much that I'm not annoyed anymore. it's come to the point where it doesn't matter anymore. even if I have to retake and go through all the shit I don't care anymore. I'm too tired to bother.
speaking of tired, mae was like so pissed and tired today. but I guess the pressures of being like practically the committee all by herself and schoolwork and blah blah blah is just taking its toll. and it sounded vaguely familiar...I know I shouldn't start wailing about my stupid band days all over again so I shan't. it's time to stop screaming about my stupid band days. it's over. it was fun, it was idiotic, it was madness, it was good. so let it be.
and speaking of BAND, eewei had this wonderful revelation for me on saturday. she told me that the oh so amazing miracle working conductor of that that ORCHID PARK sec school is...
clarence.
oh MAN! I was like HUH and I didn't want to believe it so I asked, "but what has clarence got to do with orchid park?!" and she was like ARGH he's their conductor. yeah yeah that incredible gwh band OUT OF NOWHERE. you know this entire syf thing has completely boiled down, calmed down, since it's been quite a long while and with the hoo haa of the jc syf it really kinda died.
but the mention of ORCHID PARK sec is like oh WOW not them again...and actually I forgot to ask wei if clarence thinks they deserved that gwh. wei is like NO they didn't, but I'm thinking now, what about clarence.
and now I'm thinking about what orchid park sec band is thinking too. because of the cop in 2003, wei said that the conductor quit, and nobody wanted the school, so clarence decided to take them. and then they get gwh. but I really wonder what they think. I mean, what would YOU think if your conductor is...gay?
I guess the guys better stay a little further away. especially since 'clara' is back at single status.
AHAHAHA.
it's too late to do picture post. do another day. and I should go get that mana and teddy bear picture. the teddy bear is DAMN cute even if you think mana isn't.
no daaarling kurseth, not all who crossdress are homosexual. that's totally untrue. look at those macho beefy guys who are completely metrosexual when they walk past you. notice their hands and their friend next time. they might be holding hands. so they're probably gay.
and according to my friend, the 'highest' level of lesbianism is when both sides are feminine (so the butch thing is abolished) and still sexually interested in each other.
so think again. crossdressers mightn't be homos.
so sad huh, this world.
may 14th
well technically it's may the 15th now, because it's like oooh past midnight but wth.
visited some blogs and decided to blog here myself. couldn't help it. wanted to blog anyway.
awoken too early by a thunderstorm which cleared like nobody's business at 8am. now that was terrible. I set my alarm for 10 plus...8am?! but anyway I got up. then went to do the usual stuff.
and thus I shall turn my september layout into something never before. I shall make it look like some stupid livejournal thing. perhaps I should include a title, my mood and what I'm listening to right? that would make it superbly like livejournal. well anything beats diaryland. don't ask me what I have against diaryland. just don't like it.
anyway, here's the picture for september. nothing spectacular. it's SO plain that I want to add on to it. but I don't know what else to add on. so how? anyone with some form of suggestion tell me.
and then I realised OHHHH it's SO late (well because I finished downloading the papapapapuffy and watched) and I had to prepare lunch all by myself.
take note. I was NOT a home economics student. and me and cooking are absolute SKEW LINES. and here's the story of my oh so disastrous lunch.
since I couldn't cook anything else other than maggi mee, I went searching for maggi mee. I found it, opened the packet, got the mee and seasoning out all into a bowl. I was about to add the hot water, when I realised something. I had forgotten that the microwave wasn't working. so I thought HAIYAH no problemo I will USE the stove. and I CAN use the stove!
yeah right.
anyway I filled half the pot with water and let it boil. then after boiling I put all the stuff in (eewei erupted at this point). and then the WHOLE thing went frothing and frothing and I got so scared that I turned the gas off. but when I turned it off the stupid thing wouldn't cook. so I turned it on again. then it started to froth all over again!!! so I was so scared I turned it off!! and then I cracked the egg in and covered the pot. phew.
and that's not the end...
so I decided that while the egg and noodles cook and simmer, I shall go change. so I got changed, packed my stuff blah blah blah and then I thought yay time to eat. in fact I needed to eat REAL fast because I was REALLY running late. and so I opened the pot and poured the stuff out. but the problem was that there was way too much water inside and thus when I poured it out it all OVERFLOWED!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!
therefore I had fat and diluted maggi mee, overcooked egg and flooded kitchen tabletop. oh MAN.
I think I spent more time cleaning up than eating.
in fact, I did.
but I was still not late. but today was like the strangest street e I've ever had. no personnel very odd lah. we like didn't really know what to do. and lydia didn't tell me I was going to be like the only girl! luckily kayan came along later. it was like super weird. and not to mention that they were all sitting in a row outside tampines bk at the pavillion on the steps like some gansters or something because there wasn't space in bk. sheesh.
and then after street e I realised there was way too much time before meeting eewei and so I decided to hop down to esplanade to waste time before meeting her.
spent like 40 minutes in the esplanade library, then went to the rooftop terrace. stoned there and listened to the performance for a while, then I went down to check the library clock. ah 1730 already. I was like walking super fast back to the usual spot. and ah wonderful the girl was LATE.
and she told me to be early.
never mind. and we ended up at ichiban boshi again. and eating the SAME thing again. can't believe myself. but oh well. and we laughed at all the gay idiots we know. or at least the effeminate. and we saw so many gays today! goodness.
and then after I was done with my stupid life, we went a walking. and there's shop in esplanade that sells like movie flyers and that sort of thing. and the owner framed up all the flyers he got from japan, and one caught my eye. it's the one for kagen no tsuki (last quarter)!!!!! AH! I see hyde and my nose goes.
and there's a really really nice shop in raffles city which sells glass. never mind the price. they look simply fabulous. they're entirely blown. the colours are absolutely lovely too. there was a maroon and purple one which was AH! I WANT! kind of thing. and the green one was nice too. you know the colour like trapped within the smooth glass...so beautiful. ah.
oh and speaking of glass. the new installation art piece at the main area of the esplanade is fantabulous too. it's glass jigsaw pieces hanging from the ceiling. eewei said that they're all hanging at different lengths. she saw them hanging them up. and the artist was like super fussy. because he didn't want the glass to get scratched and all that. and he calculated the angles and lengths right and all that so must get it straight. otherwise he no happy. and I was like gosh he's not an artist, he's a physics student!!! and we couldn't stop laughing.
but it's really lovely. there are two lights that shine through the pieces and it's mesmerising. should have brought camera along. or rather, should have brought camera AND batteries along. camera battery flat again.
anyway, we ended up at raffles city foodcourt for dessert, and my dear buddy started on HER life story. oh and she's not an idiot anymore, I must change my nickname. she's a SAD CASE! seriously she is. silly girl she is. ha but I like the part where daniel purposely came to sit between her and gtc. that was GOOD! ahahahhaha. had a real good laugh. she's such a dodo.
and then come home, here I am. visited blogs, including joel's. and there's PICTURES! yeah including ec 2 and yuhan! and yeah vicks she looks really nice in the blazer and all. eh but my ec 2 always kena blocked. damn. never mind.
and since we're at pictures, check this out.
miyavi has CHAPTEH (is that how you spell it?!) hair! sheesh! it's multicoloured! and now we shall go kick his head around.
and I shall go sleep. the time is terrible.
may 13th
yes daaarlings it's
friday the thirteenth
yeah yeah and so? nothing loh...just...an observation. ahaha.
ANYWAY...aftere the few days of no updating, it's time to continue MY saga. but first, I have a few things I MUST say before I forget for like the 5th day in a row. or was it more. gah whatever.
first thing. I meant to say that the melvin chen, the glasses gangster from '15' looks horribly like willard. ahaha. weekhee and crys agree too! crys was like AH you never know...and I was like roll eyes and yeah right. and you know I haven't seen willard at the bus stop for like AGES. yeah floppy hair buddy has been MIA for quite a long while. and then I told crys after we watched '15' that he looks like the gangster, and the next day, I saw him at the bus stop in the morning!
brrrrr. very cold...
second thing. that day we mentioned some stuff about androgynous people. wlt's class. for the life of me I cannot remember why. but then when he talked about it (like metrosexuals are like somewhere in between, but closer to male, and you know I know of people on the extremes), kur was like looking at me and said aha you like these people!
actually come to think about it, jrockers aren't exactly androgynous really. androgynous means that they look neither really male not really female, or they possess both male and female features.
look at those kids. they look 100% FEMALE.
ahahahahahaha. well at least many of those I bother about look either 100% female or 100% male. hey they do okay...
in fact I feel like doing a picture post. really I do. I'll warn you when it comes. then kur and meida can skip scrolling down while yuting will take her time. ahahaha. note the difference in reaction. I mean seriously if sufi thinks that the kids in good charlotte seem pretty because of eyeliner overdose (sounds taufik-ish), try these kids. smile.
yikes I just decided to click on the ivle link to ivy quek's lecture and SHEESH she sounds like she's trying to act cute. and it's disgusting. absolutely.
backtracking.
11th: my birthday. nothing great really. turn 18. sheesh sounds old. legal? no point. not that I care for it. got some nice stuff. and money. heh. and went out for dinner with mother. wanted to go out with the usual bunch after el but it ended late so I had to go meet mother already. otherwise I'd have dinner at 8.
oh and amin pissed me off more than ever. let me tell you what happened. he's bloody annoying. trust me on it.
mae told me there are 4 candidates running for president, and I was like huh who else? she told me there's still gay guy (I really really don't know what's his name) and...amin. and I was thinking oh man he's not going to get any votes. because I don't think anybody in el is THAT dumb as not to realise how irritating he is.
and he's super disgusting. he seems to enjoy like negative attention. he reminds me somehow of matthew. and that really sucks. there's something in RI air. I know there is. it's like he'll just suddenly say f words randomly, pretend to be super anti social, try to act beng, look down on others, give others this really patronising face, and worst of all, he has this admiration for akrab. whether he truly admires that jerk or not is another matter altogether. but it's sad to aspire to be like a jerk. oh so sorry nobody's gonna like you. and by the way, nobody likes you already.
and the thing is that after el was done, maril asked to see all the people running for elections. and so obviously he stayed back. and you know usually I thought that after the short briefing he'd probably saunter off like nothing happened and like he doesn't know any of us. I mean, that usually happens. and that's supposed to happen.
but no....he doesn't want to go...he knows fuad and daniel ALWAYS goes out with mae and I and so he wanted to come along! like oh WOW! and because it was getting late, daniel decided to accompany sherry for dinner and maril had to go home, it was just fuad mae and me. and then as if 3 were too few to go out together, he came along and acted so freaking chummy with fuad (oh man poor boy) and I was like thinking SHEESH get off the boy and NO we're not going out today. and we didn't, anyway. mae had to salvage her lit essay and me to mother for dinner.
UGH.
and I ended my birthday with vicky. the torrents of complaints, really. ahaha. poor child. so much for her one day of leave from entertaining me. come one man, entertaining me never stops. always on call. ahaha.
12th: it rained in the morning! yay! so we didn't need to run 2.4 yet. then actually they thought that they'd take this chance to let those who failed some station or other to retake, but guess what. practically an entire army of people needed to retake the test. ahahahahaha. so they decided against it too, since there were a whole bunch of year 1s taking it at the same time.
and apparently jaslyn is from PL primary too! oh dear. and I actually don't remember her at all. I shall go dig the yearbook out. really I shall.
the day went on...had extra lit lesson, then we hopped down to white sands. supposed to do work. did mouth work, as usual.
tuition. yeah that boy again. ha I was telling vicks about him the last time. well it goes like this. we were doing keynesian mcqs during tuition, and k lin said to just finish it, and then count how many you don't know or not sure of. and then hopefully the number of mistakes you have tallies, or better still, falls short of the number you don't know.
so we did that. most of us had like at least 7-12 questions that we didn't really know. and when it came to him, he was like oh I only don't know ONE. ah like wonderful lah. so OKAY k lin wrote out all the answers on the board, and we marked it ourselves. then she went round to ask how many we DID get wrong. and then the usual numbers went round. and then when it came to him, he got SIX wrong. it was supposed to be one or none right? six. and guess what the cjc guy sitting next to him said?? (I wanted to applaud him)
(with a roll-eyes-face) "brag."
WAH I am so freaking proud of the cjc guy. I am so proud of him. I mean seriously willis sim is annoying because he's such a brag freak and I cannot stand him. jolyn was saying uh yeah he a bit weird lah, kinda freak. but I was like whatever, I don't like him. and he's damn extra. and I think he was pretty extra with mae and meida. the way the two describe like a bit hmmm....
and ANYWAY. yeah he was like extra again on thursday. and I think meida and mae pitied him and decided to sit front row with him, although there were 3 lovely seats right at the back and we could very well reserve the front row for kifa and the cj boy. he had that 'pity me!' face can?! ugh.
and ahaha during the break k lin came in with a slice of strawberry cake. now I know why their initial sign up form has a field that says date of birth. like ah NOW we know...
and yesterday I wrote the date 12th may and I was like thinking back about syf. yeah the lovely 'seeing shadows'. when we memorised all the lines back to front. when we travelled all the way to chinese high. when we had fun. when when when...a lot of things happened.
like you know now I've known avril for a year, and her oreos have turned 1 too. I don't think I can eat them anymore. ahaha. I really don't want to try. and it doesn't help that they're shrek oreos, so the insides are green, like fungi? so I wouldn't know if they're fungi infested or not. ahaha.
you know I'm beginning to feel like vril's on a different continent. like she belongs elsewhere. just like eewei. we're like friends talking from two different planets. not in a sense that we can't get along sort of thing, but just that although we click like nobody's business, the world we live in and face, the problems, the nonsense, the stress, the fun is totally different. eewei's already on a different planet. long ago. in fact somehow she's always been on a different planet. and vril's going to become like that soon.
good? bad? I don't know. oh well.
today: nothing much lah. just that the band played for us this morning. and yes yes spotted people. so now I know, ec 1 plays 1st horn (or actually I already knew that last year), and ec 2 is first trombone. oh great. like thinking back....he sits where shiqi used to sit. and she put yuhan 2nd probably because there were 3 firsts already. oh oh well.
and then on wednesday night vicks and I were discussing like what if I'd joined the band, like how different it might have been, because she favours all tkgians over anybody else...well I guess I wouldn't have been bl (not that I want to) but perhaps joel wouldn't have been sl, you know what I mean?
then again, I'm dispensible. mj got gold. so wth.
I don't know what else I want to say anymore. I thought I had a lot. I guess I lose them as the days go by. and then I remember something I meant to say like days ago.
tomorrow: going for street e, then going to eat with eewei. yeah the two aliens are going to meet once more.
and there's something wrong with yuting's msn. it keeps signing in and out and it's annoying me. but probably annoying HER more than myself.
I think listening to amethyst is depressing me. or perhaps it's the hormonal imbalance. ah whatever.
actually I was thinking of talking about how girlish girlish I'm becoming as well as do a picture post. but I don't have time nor energy nor mood. in fact I shall just end off with me and my layouts. again.
yeah I have a new inspiration. *ting* it shall be tetsu (my s&m picture) with lyrics from all dead. and I don't know why I didn't take the hyde version. still don't know why. but it doesn't matter. hyde's just here, on my right!
so whether september is tetsu or hydeXgackt, I will decide later. during june I must go get the iFrame code thingy and force it to work. gwen I want the code!!! because since I'm beginning to like the fixed background image thingy MORE and MORE, I must learn iFrames or the entries are going to turn out ugly. and similar looking. and that's sad. and the shinny picture is NICE! very sExY.
okay that's it. my eyes will close soon. amethyst not helping. and the saddest part? that means I must stop the downloading (which is doing SO well!)!!!! AHHHH!!! I hate this. it always gets better users at this horrible hour but I need to sleep. then when I'm on at weird hours there's nobody. hurrmph.
okay okay. sleep. next time I must come and plan burning of cds. computer running out of space again. ah this issues goes on like forever man...
oh and I MUST revamp my site. it's ughly. and I must open bleeding berry. cannot take all the time and rush to get it done and not reopen. stupid right?
may 10th
okay I will runnnnnn through today as fast as I can. first things first. some AHEM freudian slips.
"...was a great tutorial with all of you. good that all of you ask difficult questions. gives me a high answering them"
- wlt, regarding the extra tutorial yesteday
kur: norvin you're a COW!
norv: yeah that's good, then I can give milk to
everybody...
I am SO sorry. had to put those in. ahaha. yeah so I realised I missed out some parts of my stupid memory yesterday. I don't know why. so much so that I stopped at GP and went on and on about '15' that I actually did not mention lousy napfa and extra wlt.
oh wow.
so now it's backtracking time. AGAIN. now I know why joel calls his blog the daily backtrack. it's freaking true.
okay not really. it's just my lousy memory and my stupid brain which gets stuck at something, feel too much about it and forget to mention the rest.
so. napfa. nothing much really. just that I passed every other freaking thing except shuttle run. and I am pissed. because to pass is 12.1s, and mine?
12.2s
TMD I was irritated. and it was my last station! okay maybe that's why I failed. but it's because of stupid napfa which is why my entire body is aching. I overused stuff that I never really used before. my shoulders hurt (from pull ups), legs from standing broad jump and shuttle run AND sit and reach, stomach from sit ups...argh. yes yes lucky idiots my friends who went overseas to continue their studies and NO NAPFA. although most of them ran away because of chinese...
and and and I must talk about this. gosh it's bloody true that girls bear grudges. but I guess I shall let this out once and for all. the stupid indian pe teacher (not trying to be racist ah, just that I don't know his name and he happens to be indian), was such an idiot. first of all, he said that pull ups shall have no feet support. whoever heard of that? we even practised with the damn feet support!!! good heavens. I was irritated. but it seemed like doing without the support was fine, people could still make it. so ah well.
then it came to my turn, and guess what. without the stupid support, my old old shoes had ZERO friction with the damn polished hall floor and they SLIPPED AND SLIPPED!!! and he was like uh you're like doing it wrong...NO YOU ASSHOLE it's my shoes. now I haven't been angry in a long time. but when you blame my technique (although I know it's seriously not very good) and don't realise the freaking issue is the shoes and that we have NEVER, I repeat, NEVER done pull ups WITHOUT the support,
I am terribly incensed.
ARGH. stupid pe teacher. okay that would be the last time I'd talk about it like that. yeah basically bleep out for yourself some poor vocabulary. thanks.
and then it ended late (ah well not quite their fault) and then we had extra lit tutorial, which by some miracle or other, I had failed to know about until during pe itself. like oh wow, right? extra lit 4 tutorial and I could miss that. WOW.
but yes we had an interesting time, funny questions posed more to get us into his better books (he was quite pissed about missing that tutorial for nothing) and he got high. AHAHA. that sounded so freaking wrong. and we had like a 1 hour tutorial with him. woot!
so now, today. other than the aches. actually nothing major happened today. just one thing. which I have actually decided to LOCK. yeah click on the link down there and download. it's a locked zipped text file, so you'll have to ask me for the password. it's about school so if you're lazy (I know vicky is...ahaha) you can skip it. probably wouldn't know (and wouldn't care) 2 shits about it.
so there. said my piece.
may 9th
right. let's recap on 7th and 8th. this is gonna be looooooooooooooooooooooooooong....so be warned...
7th: had breakfast with lydia! meant to eat in burger king (for the air con really) but since we couldn't decide for nuts we settled for this malay coffeshop instead. yeah we sat there for like the next 2 hours or so talking and talking. haven't seen her for some time. in fact this year I've barely gone to EH at all. I know they don't really call me these days because they sincerely believe I'm busy. only lydia knows that I'm lazy. okay angela can GUESS that I'm lazy. but then again, being lazy means that there's something to do but then you don't really want to pick yourself up to do it. so I'm still 'busy'.
and then I met vicky. but it was still too early to meet wanting (especially since wanting said she was going to be late) and so I hopped over to her house. played with her hamsters, laughed at her mother and heard that that that cover of hitomi no jyunin by that that that sly! oh MAN that must have been the air-iest version ever...yeah yeah he can reach (I wonder if he can reach live...) those notes but it's so airy!! more airy than my stupid trombone. ahahahahha.
and so after all that jazz about choosing something for that galvez to wear, we got out of the house at like 1320, and reached the mrt station at 1330, which was like the time we were supposed to meet wanting at orchard. like oh great right. and wanting gave vicks a call at bugis. hehheh. well we were...almost there. almost there. heh.
and then I dragged them around and we looked at lots of things but I only bought 2 things out of the trip anyway. oh and we ate like a lot. macs for lunch, swensens for dessert and old chang kee for tea. wahahaha. we were such piggos. who cares.
and then I was thinking aiyah taka has takopachi...but never mind. the next time I go to bugis I will buy that anyway. and I must find if there's an old chang kee at bugis. hurrmph.
8th: happy mother's day! happy birthday to mummy too! wahaha. so fun right. mother's birthday is mother's day. you know if one day I become a mother (which sounds quite far off) I might have my birthday on mother's day too...so cool right. ahahaha. cheap thrill.
anyway, went all the way to jcc to have dinner with my family for my mum. and we finished the last session of pdl! woot! cool way of having mother's day. only daddy wasn't too happy. he couldn't get to play his golf because he awoke to the sounds of pitter patter. wahaha. it's time he stopped playing so much. and anyway daddy's flown off again...ah well.
and then we came back and had...DURIAN CAKE! thanks to sister. she bought a lovely 15cm durian cake (which cost her 31.50) and she got so many candles! well we were supposed to merge mother's and my birthdays together, so my sister got 5 big candles and 8 small ones, so that we can use the 5 big and 1 small for my mother, then remove 4 big ones and put the other 7 there for me. like oh great.
oh and (sorry for backtracking...) you know what? when I went to vicky's house, vicky's mother asked if she were eating lunch at home. vicks said no, because she was eating with her junior. then the mother pointed at me on the bed and asked
"eh that one not your junior ah??"
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! so for the rest of the day I became vicky's junior!!! and she was like only 1 month 1 day okay!!! and wanting and I just couldn't stop laughing.
and then on the way to collect the cake with sister after pdl my sister was saying
"aiyah you know my friends ask me how old my sister is, and then I think think think, I know my sister is in J2, but to tell them she's 18 sounds weird leh..."
and I was like muahahahaha...oh well. I guess so. to tell my friends that my sister is turning 23 this year sounds old too. whenever I tell my friends how old my elder sister is, they'll have this wah so old already ah reaction. but you know I guess between sisters we never feel that time passed much. time DID pass, but never as much as we think.
enough of the memories and blah. onto today. sheesh it's long. okay not as long as I thought it would be. I guess after 2 days my account of the 7th gets really short. today!
today was a shit and no shit day. started with some shit. econs test in the morning. but looks like I might get some decent marks. perhaps above 5 for once. sucks right, my marks. sheesh. and then sat outside the lt with maril and mae to wait for the j1s to appear to sign up for committee elections. great.
then gobbled nuggets and ran to class. started the day with econs lecture (by a grouchy michelle) and then lit, slack time to do math assignment, boring econs tutorial, sad lunch, and finally GP! yay!
well you see, first we got a lovely spot for TWO periods in the ava room (aka AIRCON room), then we watched 15!
so cool. well at first it was reeeeallly funny. we watched the short one, by the way. it started off like the anti drug advert (which according to lydia, is directed by royston tan too), with royston talking and rambling in the front. and then it went on with the 2 boys going to take part in some lousy school singing competition and they wanted to sing some gang songs to scare the principal and the whole school really.
and then later they had this scene of melvin chen blabbering a whole string of don't-know-what (and you don't want to know what) and then a bunch of words flashed on the screen after he was done:
guiness world record! boy said vulgarities in FIVE different languages in 5 seconds!!
okay that wasn't quite supposed to be funny but it still was! there were a few awwww parts, like the part where they were on the merry go round, and they talked about their rubbish futures, and then the part where vynn bought melvin a cake, then when shaun needed a hug (aahaha so gay). and there were funny parts, like when they were practising their gangster songs in hokkien, the way they tried to outdo each other in insults, the guiness world record part, praying to gods to allow them to cheat for the math test and the gang fight made to look like a video game and the stupid facial mask vynn stole from 7-11...
but the saddest thing was some of the stuff they said. I won't put the chinese version here (too lazy, as usual) so here are some erm translations (or remnants of my memory of the subtitles):
there is no such thing as eternal friendship or enemies. just enjoy the friendship for as long as it lasts.
don't think about the pain, then you won't feel it so much anymore.
a few kind phrases from you doesn't mean that I will change overnight.
even though we know from the beginning that there is no future, we continue.
you know suddenly I thought of 36 moons. ahaha. although that stupid story is fairytale-ish and entirely fabricated, it's a little yakuza-ish, the short film. ah well.
yeah GP is hard to live on, especially when clarence teaches you!! AHH!!
and I am so supposed to do lit. it's due on wednesday. I feel like telling myself AIYAH do tomorrow....but I'm so sian nowwwww....moan. I should do at least some form of outline, right? so that I don't scream myself out tomorrow. sigh.
finally decided on the layout for august! yay! got the picture. right here: august 2005 yay and double yay! it's....shinya chan! so sorry to those who thought about moonchild....ahaha
may 7th
no time to say much. just that it was cool today. bought shirt (or rather, I chose it and then vicky paid) and wallet. not bad. and laughed a lot. ate a lot too.
got the song from tiina! THANKIES! yayayayay! the song IS very nice...and the STUPID matsseuu was singing the other part too loudly....the actual melody comes from the bottom...which was hyde. ARGH. never mind.
having dinner out tomorrow. because of mother, obviously. ahaha. and anyway I am tired. my foot is painful. as usual. and so I shall sing to julia ni heartbreak and then SLEEP...
elaborate on the above paragraphs the next time.
may 6th
all that happened (to me) today is sports day. which is ARGH as well. so nearly this ENTIRE freaking entry will be all about sports day.
first of all, it started not too badly. went for lunch with meida mae and shiyun at macs. not bad. walked back, and it started to rain! yay! we thought it might be cancelled. then mr foo announced that NO we adjourn to the hall first.
so we went there, we had the prize giving (which was like prizes to the same few people) and then the cheerleading. ah well as usual the cheerleading is AHEM uncoordinated and unpractised. not really their fault. I guess it was like last time, when there wasn't much time and much experience in the group to practice and take time out and blah. but anyway it was more like a dance competition than a cheerleading competition.
and this stupid bunch of guys seated behind us (I feel like labelling them but NEVER MIND) and they were like freaking horny. they were like commenting on how good it was that the cheerleaders' skirts were freaking short, and they decided that our famous butt shaking anthony was a gigolo type, and that the callisto girls had poor dressing because they were wearing school skirts (which were basically longer than the other cheerleader skirts).
now you know why the j1s SHOULD lengthen their skirts. I'm not asking for super long skirts. but at least make them longer so that these idiot guys don't get a chance, especially since they don't deserve it. at least the assholes behind spoke up. what about those who don't say anything and look decent? argh the girls don't realise that in making their skirts short to make guys notice it turns the girls into SLUTS. sad huh?
and ANYWAY...after that the stupid track meet resumed and nothing much really happened. or at least nothing worth mentioning happened. heh.
and then at the end mae shiyun and I were at the field, trying to look for mrt guy (which shiyun and I still conclude that he IS ugly). shiyun said she recognises him already. I don't. I recognise his best friend. but the SHOES are very recognisable. so shiyun said find the shoes, and look for the uglier one. bingo. ahahaha so mean of us.
and then they didn't want to release us (ARGH) and we were moaning (especially shiyun) and then I was like can we get OFF the track and into the crowd and like move toward the exit...so we did and we landed ourselves in the callisto territory and aha sbs guy aka ec 2 was there. not bad right? but of course we were more anxious about getting out (I was hot and sticky and hungry) and so we made our way out.
and then at the bus stop I said my byebyes to mae and shiyun and mae was like argh you get to see ec 2 and take the freaking bus with him and I was like eh heh. and I was seriously considering taking the 81 anyway...well the weather was okay and it was getting late...why not? but in the end he didn't board it. but I did. why?
because wlt boarded it. ahahahahaha. I am such a freaking stalker. but since it WAS getting late (good heavens 7pm!) and I had absolutely NO business at kovan (although I'm 99% sure he was alighting there...), so I got off at the usual stop and went home. great, right?
oh whatever. I should stop being such a stalker. I exhibit ultimate stalker behaviour. I have a habit of remembering what bus you take, when's your lunch, when's your PE, guessing which bus you take, guessing where you stay by which way you walk after alighting etc...the list goes on. I AM SUCH A FREAKING STALKER. like made to be one. ahahahahahaha.
oh and you know I felt the weird feeling on may 2nd. I was thinking aiyah the date VERY familiar, but it isn't anyone's birthday (or at least not the birthday of one close to me)...so what is it???!!
it's hide's death anniversary. sigh. I'm such a goondoo right?! 2nd may. it will be his 7th death anniversary this year. haiz. wasted.
ANYWAY...(even though I'm still wondering where on earth ec 2 went...did he take 53??!!) I should get off now and SLEEP...full programme tomorrow and I am VERY sleepy today because my deah sista came home last night when I was about to sleep and we talked till 2 plus. ARGH. but the the the winmx is still queueing....HOW??! I really want that file. even though the girl said she'll send it to me anyways but I so want that song...
WAIL still no new messages. gah and I continue my search for shinya pictures. still in two minds about august 2005 after all. ARGH.
I've been saying a lot of ARGH lately. bad habit. ah well. stop ARGH-ing. going out tomorrow. should go try standing outside vicky's house tomorrow. ahahaha that'll be fun. xinyi SHOULD have climbed in and told vicky to draw her stupid tablecloth. wahahaha. then that'll be funny! ahahaha.
and I should stop babbling. but I can't. because I don't know what else to do. and the stupid felle NOT WORKING! ARGH! so now I have to await the email...and I so want to listen to it. the hyde ripped version is STUPID lah...it's so short and the stupid matsseuu san is annoying!!
but I'm gonna watch it. now. it's fine with the video. in fact,
IT'S HILARIOUS.
so there.
may 5th
what kept me away so long?! I shall fill you in now. ahaha. as if you wanted to know. I don't quite care yeah?
didn't blog on 3rd because deah sista needed the computer. oh well couldn't blame her. and she finishes her exams TODAY!!! ARGH. never mind. been suaned by her all these years already. especially during her post a's...ARGH. that's what sisters are for, right?!
and yesterday, I actually went home early! yes making history...I took a freaking green form. gah had a splitting headache which was like on off on off and so freaking annoying that I couldn't help but go home. and when I was waiting in the general office for meida to help me get the freaking form signed, mae was actually in the sick bay...I almost wanted to admit myself there. should have. it seems like mr wee's lecture was good. DAMN.
and I missed it. DAMN DAMN DAMN. that's all I wanted to stay for really. that and GP. but I couldn't last. I got home at near 12, changed and fell asleep. like the dead. and then I awoke at 4 plus, drank some stuff, talked to mama and sista and then went back to sleep at 5 plus. then I awoke once more at 9 plus, called mae and vicky, ate dinner, took a bath, talked to mama more, and slept again at 11 plus.
I am the queen of sleeping. seriously.
that's what I do best. sleep. yayayayay! I should be type C, right? sleep everything away. but actually I use sleep not so much to clear my brain (I'm pretty fuddled after waking up) but more to erm runaway...hee
and then today I'm like perfectly fine lah. wah lao. it should have been the other way around. today kinda sucked. in a way. it wasn't real bad but ARGH missed mr wee's lecture. you know crys should just start the c.yeo fanclub and I the wlt fanclub. ARGH.
and then after school I boarded the bus with wee khee after school (the poor girl ran for the bus but missed it anyway), but on the bus minnie and her friend (I've seen her before...somewhere) were there and I talked to them all the way home, yeah leaving poor wee khee behind all alone (sorry deah, feeling bad. seriously.), and then when I was alighting suddenly this guy appeared in front of me, but I was trying to say byebye to wk and my mind so confused.
well it was kifa. and then he thought by my look I didn't recognise him or something but later my brain kinda gained connection and I was like OH kifa. erm hehheh hi. forgot. he lives in aljunied. never seen him on the bus before.
and it's time to bathe. then econs tuition I go. and you know what? I've changed my layout for august. I decided against shinya. unless I suddenly find a nicee picture of the boy. so hard. otherwise it's gonna be gacko again...although actually I'm quite tempted to put the moon child picture but then it'll be hyde again, like 3 months later. then again, three months later, WHO CARES?!
there's gackt in it anyway. then I can put either orenji no taiyou, or better still, arittake no ai de! ahahaha! one awwwww song and another ahahahahahaaha song! and I love arittake no ai de PV! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA! especially the
"dame, dame..." (no, no... in japanese)
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA. it's a must watch. and I watched the stupid hyde and ken on matthew's best hit TV video again. you know it's that type of video where you don't need to really understand what's going on but it's so bloody slapstick and stupid and they are so LAME that you can't help laughing ANYWAY.
oh and I am very insulted. what's wrong with science humour?! huh,huh, HUH?! but I didn't want to tell her. hurrmph. no mood to argue during math lecture. so unbecoming. HURRMPH.
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loser surveys again...
1. What is the geekiest part of your music collection?
uh....when I find it, it will be mavis fan's xiao mo nu (little witch) CD....
2. What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?
Usually liquid. water, milo, milk, whatever.
3. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
okay I seldom do this but...Grave of the Fireflies! AHH!!!
4. If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
nono..no plastic surgery. bad bad....
5. Do you have a completely irrational fear?
yeah. glass items. I cannot walk through the shop area with too much glass. I have a full video of me somehow crashing into some part of the freaking shelf and the entire thing goes crashing and fragmenting and shattering and and and..
6. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment?
eh...when I start to crinkle my clothes. heh.
7. Are you a pyromaniac?
I have pyro-phobia, daarlings...I FEAR fiyah....
8. Do you have too many love interests?
eh....no I don't think so...
9. Do you know anyone famous?
nah...
10. Describe your bed: single bed, 2 metres long, 3 pillows, hell lot of stuffed toys, wooden frame.
11. Spontaneous or planned?
I always plan. and then nothing goes as planned. heh.
12. Who should play you in a movie about your life?
who should play is a bad question. it should be who I want. ahaha. I don't know...
13. Do you know how to play poker?
I used to. raymond taught me. gah he teaches me all the wrong things.
14. What do you carry with you at all times?
wallet, organiser, mp3 player, umbrella. ahahaha sounds like a weird combination.
15. What do you miss most about being little?
erm...less hours in school and practically no homework. oh and As in my report book. I don't see it no more.
16. Are you happy with your given name?
eh...okay lah...it's quite unique, just that either people don't remember it or can't pronounce it for their lives are worth.
17. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?
noooooooooooooo........
18. What color is your bedroom?
it's ah some sort of white. I can't remember anymore though...
19. What was the last song you were listening to?
laruku. in the air. yeah.
20. Have you ever been in a play?
is syf backstage counted??
21. Have you ever been in love?
nah....waiting...waiting....
22. Do you talk a lot?
I have a great potential to. just depends on who you are.
23. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
yeah. I guess. ahaha. I confuse myself sometimes and I falter but usually I'm pretty confident about myself.
24. Do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
not really...I guess actually they're pretty pitiful...
25. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
ah definite NO. so the next question is why don't I try. not that I haven't. just not part of me. I'm mean, I'm sarcastic, I'm evil, I'm an asshole. LIVE WITH IT.
26. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends?
what boyfriend?! find me one and I'll tell you.
27. What is your ideal marriage location?
eh...at home? I quite lazy.
28. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
hiak hiak. horn? wahahahahaha...
29. Favorite fabric?
fake fur. don't kill the animals. but I LURVE furry stuffs.
30. Something you love and hate?
wah very difficult. could fill this in for someone else though...
31. What kind of bedding do you use?
gah childish pattern stuffs. but freaking cute.
32. Do you tell your friends about your sex life?
sex life? what sex life?!
33. What's the one language you want to learn?
Japanese. when I have the time I will. like after a's...
34. How do you eat an apple?
eat it. like that. skin on, core remains. BITE LAH.
35. What do you order at a bar?
me no go bar. bad bad...
36. Have you ever pierced your body parts?
let's put it this way. I don't HAVE the guts.
37. Do you have tattoos?
OUCH! NO! so ugly...
38. What's one of the funniest things you've ever done?
uhhh..I do this all the time. like bang my head, trip over chair, answer stupidly, yeah they're all funny. I entertain quite a bit sometimes, you know...
39. Do you drive stick?
no....auto PLEASE....
40. What's one trait you hate in a person?
uhhhh people who brag a lot. like someone I just saw just now. it's like they're trying to tell you that they're better than you and they did a lot of wonderful stuffs in less time than you did and blah. ARGH. oh and people like entertainer. I shall not elaborate.
41. What kind of watch(es) do you wear?
silver dress watches. small please. and analog. I cannot read digital (unlike vicky deah)
42. Most frivolous purchase?
accessories. I swear they are. and I am going to buy more on saturday because I somehow feel that I always wear the same ones. ARGH. luckily I have no earholes otherwise AE is going to INCREASE greatly.
43. Do you consider yourself materialistic?
not quite. yeah I do like to buy stuff but I'm not crazy like OH I must have some shoe some bag some whatever. I'm pretty simple really. I use things until they really wear out and seldom buy new stuffs.
44. What do you cook the best?
uhhh cook is NOT the right word. especially since the precioussss microwave is NOT WORKING. but other than that, I suppose it's maggi mee. heh. instant noodle generation mah....
may 2nd
I am going to attempt blogging while laruku is playing rather loudly in the background and I'm talking to vicky online.
oh gosh it's hard. anyway, the syf syndrome quote is from joel's blog. forgot to credit it. heh. and pulled out something else from an earlier entry:
Ms Sia's impending day of judgement
(ie. YOU, don't play)
bwahahahaha. now THAT is funny. the oh so familiar YOU! don't play! and then I was reminded of those days when she formed the 'new' section called 'trompet'. which was really horrible. but it's really funny when you think about it now. well it was trompet because she wanted to scold trumpet, but somehow she always subconsciously believes it's the trombones' fault, and it just comes out as trom-pet. ahhahhahhaa. whatever.
but it was funny. so silly. those days. how glad I am to be not in band. PHEW.
anyway I'm procastinating AGAIN here...oh so procastinating. and mother is sick. so I'd better wake up tomorrow. darn. and I must go iron my uniform later. and I must go do econs later. DARN and double darn. OHMY! still have tuition homework. man. triple darn.
supposed to get off at 2200h with vickee. like how am I supposed to do that. well I shall. otherwise it will be triple darn TOMORROW. and that's worse. and there's lit test tomorrow! oh no...
carrying on my search for lolita shinya pictures!
may 1st
right. it's may the first and I'm back with a spankin' new layout! yayayayayay! and it's super super happy second anniversary to my blog! and you know what's the best part (or rather, the most coincidental thing)? this is the 22nd layout I've done, so it's saved as 22 may 2005 sit with hyde! 22, 2nd aniversary...ring any bells?!!! okay I'm a little off my rocker. as usual.
we-e-elll.....let's see what's happened these couple of days. yes after the 27th of april I didn't write a single freaking thing. and that was wednesday, when I paid maril and gwen a visit. so if you've read that, carry on here! yeah I AM crazy. just today.
so, what happened on all the days after that? that's like ooooh 3 days! okay. day by day.
thursday 28th: stayed back with mae. wrote another letter to eewei (gosh it just doesn't stop man). went for high tea (lunch at 3 plus 4 isn't quite lunch, is it?) at white sands, and talked and talked and talked. then we met shaline and almeida and we all went down for econs tuition together. so fun right? the meridians are taking over the damn tuition centre! yeah baby, the F class. heh. and you know sometimes I do understand why kayjal can't stand that guy...ARGH.
friday 29th: CIP cancelled, because the happy happy lodge had something else going on there. didn't want to go home, so almeida and I went kbox! wahahaha. sang some dumb songs, sang some unknown songs, tried some weird songs, sang too much jay, too much stefanie, too much FIR and bleagh. 4.5 hours. my eyes were totally crossed.
then at night so many people were online! or at least the people I like talking to online. avril maril and vicky were all online at the same time! woot! and then maril asked me what time I was turning in, I told her who's online and she was like heh so not turning in real early I suppose....like duh. but fun! and going out with vickee on saturday! I insist!
saturday 30th: went to do CIP at happy happy lodge, nice place! with nice people too. I think I'm going back next next friday. the christian old man was cute man. wonder where he got his cap from though...and then after that went to munch at macs with clara and crystal. odd bunch, the three of us (just odd lah). and then on the way there spotted lydia and shyi dong and AHHH forgot to take the brochure for lydiaaa.....so paiseh. she was like AH YOU HORRIBLE GIRL and I was like heh I eat a fry ah...because they were in burger king and the whole tray of fries were...yum. and I got myself fries and coke at macs anyway.
sunday, today: went to church, oh so excited to hear their plan. and everything went well anyway. but the card was kinda ugly. ah well. and we learnt about service today. heh. xinying was like good girls! applying already! ahahahhaha. well. thank God for tricia...at least she made it seem, um, better. not so exclusive. now we await 21st may and see what happens...and that message to ian was AHEM never mind...I think he ran away really fast. I saw him in the morning. and then and then don't know where he went. so we had to 'wrap' jonathan instead of him. after all the message confirmed our decision to wrap jonny instead...
and came home to watch ICE AGE!!! GAH such a cute show. luckily I didn't watch it in the cinema. I would have laughed the entire cinema down. okay depends on who I watch it with. if it was like the time carr vicks and I watched shark tale, I think the cinema will be no more. we nearly laughed cineleisure down the last time...
but it's so cuteeee....and and and the mammoth is freaking furry...I wanna hug too! wee! okay I am totally off my rocker. completely. but that's a good start to the month, no?
Band hasn't been pleasant. The tension is so palpable, you can cut it with a knife. There's so much anger, so much depression, so much fatigue, so much exasperation... I don't know what to think any more. It's not healthy, I've never agreed with it, but I have no choice, eh?
I insist, though, that, for the sake of esprit de corps, let's wear a (tired) smile. Grin and bear it, and maybe we'll be seeing more of that in later days.
stinkingly familiar? daarrrlings, tis the SYF SYNDROME. bwahahahaha. vicky and I have diagnosed it. and I have firmly concluded that vicks has it. quite bad in fact. and I believe yuhan is suffering from it. in fact she made the funniest comment in my life.
I went to say hi, and she moaned to me. she said that she was chosen to play for syf.
like oh MAN duh!!
ng yuhan, tkgs trombone SL and in MJCSSB with the SAME conductor and you think you wouldn't be in syf??!! are you NUTS?! if she could she'll rope me in, I swear she would. well perhaps not. because she has a trombone overpopulation. gah whatever. she still can't get over the fact that I didn't join band. like whatever. like I care.
(Tarot Cards ~ F.I.R a total of 22 cards, it epitomises all of mankind passed down through hundreds of generations from egypt and india till now the hanged man represents sacrifice the female priest is intelligence and the moon is our subconscious dreams oh the tarot cards which point the way and solve the mysteries believers are unwilling to let them expose the truth it prophesies different futures but cannot change the bleak future how frustrating, tarot cards should I take another card would you rather take charge of your own life or allow fate to arrange a total of 22 cards, it epitomises all of mankind passed down through hundreds of generations from egypt and india till now the magician creates a new start the sun represents strength and the fate cycles continue oh the tarot cards which point the way and solve the mysteries believers are unwilling to let them expose the truth it prophesies different futures but cannot change the bleak future how frustrating, tarot cards should I take another card would you rather take charge of your own life or allow fate to arrange)
sang that on friday. cool song. the lyrics a bit AHEM but oh well. people always have this thing about tarot cards. reminded me of kindaichi though...
and I think that's all I'll write. I'll go grab some iframe codes and I shall leave you with daarrling hyde on my right and my july 2005 picture!!
I am so freaking proud of the picture. really.
