twenty-eighth november
right. yet another 2 days passed. without an entry. actually I'm quite tired, and pretty lazy to update. but just real briefly here.
yesterday I went with a whole bunch of people to recee the route. gosh. we went all over the place and I felt like I was going to become some cripple soon. yeah it's my lousy left foot acting up again. or rather, it's my left ankle. just as lousy as each other.
and then I went to meet my dearest buddy. and ate at the usual place, eating the usual stuff. although I told her I wasn't really hungry since I ate lunch at 1 plus, almost 2, but somehow I managed like hell lot of food. I took my favourite unagi set (wonder where they got their unagis from), which is a decent bowl of rice with unagi slice, a little hill of chasoba (those green tea noodles), a bowl of miso soup, some fried fish bits, and a plate of fruits. after I finished all that minus the fruits, I just had this itchy mouth feeling, and I ordered two more plates of sushi. one ika and the other amaebi. I must be cuckoo.
wait. I am. damn.
and then today went to sing with sister after her exams at chinatown. fought with their new lousy system, aptly called the D.A.M (dumb) machine. I don't know what d.a.m stands for, but it sure is dumb. with a capacity of 10 song selection, and lousy mvs, I didn't know what to say. sister stomped out and got the old catalogue, which actually has the real mvs, instead of those stupid looking ones.
and because I ate my breakfast of 3 little sandwiches at 1030, then I started on my lunch in the karaoke place at nearly 5, I only took a bowl of soya beancurd at about 8. and now I'm freaking hungry. I meant to reply marilyn (yeah I owe her a reply for like DAMN long can), but I'm too lazy now.
oh and diary-x seems to have died. went to see if maril's blog revived, but obviously still dead, because the host itself is dead. ah whatever. I'm so tired.
and hungry!!! WAIL. I told sister at the hawker centre that perhaps I should buy something more filling otherwise I'd complain of hunger later at night. but then I was feeling kinda full and pukey at that point of time, so I just made do with the beancurd. sigh. now I'm regretting. crap.
oh and I sent an email to sakura-crisis to offer my translating services. I don't really know why I did that. but I guess I don't mind. ah it doesn't matter. let's see if they even want me in the first place.
I'm finally not going out tomorrow, but I'm going on camp from wednesday to saturday. yes darlings it's time for CAMP ORION. it's HERE!!! ahaha and I'm in meiying's group. she gave me a call just now. and I think joanne got my email address a little wrong. I'm not receiving it at all. sheesh. shall give meiying a call again tomorrow. the next worst part? my printer has no ink. so I don't really know how I'm going to fill in the indemnity form, because I have a feeling that my parents have to sign it or something. but seriously, I'm eighteen and my parents haven't an iota of objection. oh well. it's their policy.
and I realised just now that stupid me hasn't installed dreamweaver MX as I promised myself, just in case there are some great features in there and thus I need not fight so much with html. but I shouldn't get my hopes up too high, in case it's not that much more wonderful than the version I'm using now. because actually dreamweaver 4.0 is already pretty much user friendly and all. so other than introducing stuff that I need html to do, there's nothing else they can really add to the interface itself.
I'm like rambling on and on. it's past 1 am and I should sleep. but somehow I feel like letting my darling bittorrent run, since it's increasing my ratio like nobody's business tonight. I don't know why either. my files are so old, since I haven't downloaded a single thing after tonberry closed temporarily. and now that tonberry has re-opened for like 4 days, I still haven't added anything new to my collection, and there are still people who want these freakingly old files. like the moi dix mois concert is SO old. and I must burn away a lot of things. I have sufficient gackt stuff to burn away already, and crazily enough, I also have enough alice nine. and that moi dix mois concert MUST be burnt away. it's too freaking big.
and honestly, sleep. yeah. I guess perhaps I might update tomorrow, but hard to say. and then I'm off to camp orion, I'll reappear after the 3rd. with a new layout! yeah, takeo, here I come! I'm so sorry to daisuke, but I will let him make a comeback. I just cannot resist using that picture. he's simply too..AHHH. sleep.
admired daisuke @ 0115
twenty-sixth november
I figured that it'll be too crazy to seriously detail what I've done these couple of days, so I'll just briefly go through. yes, briefly, because I'm pretty sleepy, but I want to play some games and then get in to bed.
right. thursday. paper ended, very happy, passage not too bad, wrote crazily for the essay. in other words, I didn't really know what I was hitting after a while and then I was just glad that it was all over. and that's it.
so this is how it ends.
I can't remember where that line comes from. I know it's not my own invention. oh but what the heck. then went home, and came out again to meet jo and mae. we went to the hairdressers. so jo got all caught up in aluminium foil (because she did double highlighting) and then mae got wrapped up in cling wrap because she was re-rebonding her hair. and man did it take a long time.
in the end mae's re-rebonding took SEVEN freaking hours to do, but I abandoned them, because I needed to be back for dinner. in the end I reached home at like 2130 when dinnertime was 1900. like oh great, right?! and I cut my hair too. I suddenly realised on the train that if that reckless (don't know HOW he passed academy) hairdresser had cut the sides a little more, and I allowed him to really snip the fringe, I'd seriously have...miyavi's old hair. not too bad really, but the problem is I think my hair can't take it. I'll die of bad hair days. meev has REBONDED hair, so no problem. I have A LOT of problems.
in any case, we all turned out fine anyway. then friday we met up with meida to sing at kbox. her favourite branch has ceased operations, so we paid cuppage plaza a visit. and guess what? while the lift went up, I realised that there was some restaurant (I think) that was called miyabi! and the font looks like similar! with the word 'ya' and the hiragana of 'miyabi' next to it!! so exciting.
anyway, that was so not the point. we crazy kids went in at 3. or rather, meida and I went in at 3, mae came like 40 minutes later, and jolyn came at like 5 plus, I think. and actually jo had bought a lovely slice of cake, but meida didn't notice it AT ALL.
yeah we all went crazy inside that small little room, singing the DUMBEST songs on earth, and trying to listen to that good-sounding guy singing in the main hall..ahaha. we even sang that stupid 5566 song (joanne and lois would be so damn proud), that hao jiu bu jian. it's a freaking chinese new year song man. and I mean chinese new year, complete with the dong dong qiang pattern. sheesh. and I can't believe I've actually heard that dumb song so many darned times that I actually DO know how to sing it. *smack head*
and then we went for dinner. we meant to go to marche, but the queue was like woohoo. so we ended up at cafe cartel instead. and there was too much food. haha. then we took silly neoprints (gosh haven't done that in AGES) and we...went back to cuppage to sing some more!
we must be nuts, right?
yeah I agree. but I left early because I didn't want to get slaughtered and I had to go out early today, but jo and the rest stayed till midnight, since jo could get transport for the 3 of them. but it was real crazy. then actually jo and I had secretly selected the 'happy birthday' song to sing later and then reveal the cake, but meida noticed it on the list!!! damn!!! but she still didn't notice the little cake! looks like all my hiding of it by buying the soap didn't go to waste. ahaha.
then today I went to calvary baptist church for the TRAIL finale! well the speaker didn't exactly look quite like keanu reeves (as advertised by not very reliable lydia), but not too bad lah. and he's terribly interesting. especially that bunny story. so poor thing.
then I headed for singspiration at church. it was terribly lame. couldn't believe the sunday school transfers actually agreed to let them do this. and I ended up mostly talking to lian sze, because she was asking me to join projectserve, but I don't really know if I want to. not that I can't, but I don't know whether I want to. what a mess.
and anyway that's the end of the 3 days. quite brief, right? so I believe. tomorrow I'm going down with the SPA bunch to recee for the retreat games, and then I'm supposed to meet buddy for dinner. but buddy hasn't replied my message. shall call then! hurrmph! this is no way to treat me!
anyway...I'm off!
admired daisuke @ 2254
twenty-third november
I am back.
but not to go crazy like last night. I don't have that much time to go all cuckoo. not again. must go withdraw all my sanity from the bank. need a lot of sense for tomorrow's exam. and just read the poem set for srjc's prelim paper. it's actually quite cool.
and anyway I've been on my way to churning layouts, and my february one is nearly done. although I believe them all to be slightly slip-shod in a way, I think it's always like that when I learn a new effect. and the saddest part? it's not a new effect at all. I'm just slow. well slow better than not knowing anyway. take it that although I'm not computer illiterate, I'm not exactly computer savvy either. yeah I don't crash my system (and when it does I can save it) but I can't make it any better. quite sad, right?
oh who cares. KEEP SANITY! ahahaha I'm losing it soon because after tomorrow I'm FREE FREE FREE! no more false freedom. this is for real. so what, we're freedom fighters? AHAHA bad pun on miyavi's only political song. can't believe it. I think he must have gone to make friends with kirito or something. kirito has some political songs here and there. including the elusive God bless XmeXXXX. heh. only after reading centigrade-j's take on it did I realise it was meant to be God bless America. and oh it's a dig at them.
never underestimate jrockers. besides ryuichi's lousy love songs and gackt's repetitive dakishimetes, there's good lyrics out there too. or at least love the language. and of course there's always miyavi for good humour. it's so nonsensical that it's funny. kyo has so much kanji it's cool. and hyde can write in ENGLISH! woot!
anyway...I didn't mean to rant on about jrockers. I've just downloaded nearly 2 albums worth of ali project (yes the wonderful bunch who brought to you the avenger soundtrack). listening to one now. it's kinda boring. very typical ali project type of songs, but....not quite anime styled. good for sleeping. then again, I sleep with any type of music, except hiphop I guess.
*squawk* I must go sleep. shall complete my kazu layout the next time online, and shall make a tora one! WOOT! I just love tora. I think I don't really love alice nine as a whole, just tora !!!!! and saga!! and hiroto!
okay my bias is felt. so I believe. nao is better looking NOW, but shou is still...ugh. his eyes are...his eyes don't talk. I think that's the problem. he looks like a fake, a mannequin. no emotion. eww.
oh whatever. wish me luck for tomorrow's paper. oops I just told mae that I don't believe in luck. ahahaha. oh whatever. seriously I don't care anymore. I shall go sleep NOW!!
admired daisuke @ 2245
twenty-second november
I realise that I'm beginning to have nothing to blog about.
perhaps this is why I lose my thing for blogging. either I have too many things to write, such that I end up being overly lazy to type them all out because it would be terribly tedious, or that I have nothing to write. so much so that I end up crapping an entire paragraph like this about how come I can lose my thing for blogging now and then. but of course it comes back anyway. so what's the difference, right? why bother asking anyway?
I realised that I'm very tired. I'm very tired of waiting. then again, I shouldn't be. it's supposed to be good that I have time, that I can quickly take in as much info now. but I'm really tired. can it come faster? yes I know it's tuesday night and the damn exam is on thursday morning. but perhaps you may never understand the agony.
okay fine it's not really agonising. I'm just being hyperbole. no wrong. I'm being bored. bumming at the computer. I have suddenly realised that some of my ideas for a layout cannot work. and that is terribly tragic. it is true then, that the mind is not very good at looking at things. not only must you write them out to see the loopholes -- pictures must be drawn out to realise that the plan doesn't work.
shit. I think I've read too much of all the whatever notes on 1984 and the handmaid's tale. and sometimes I wonder why I even do that. does it help? eva was commenting that the tutorials seem useless, because they're organised by the texts we do, and not by the themes.
but it sounds sad also, that for utopian literature we only memorise themes. that oh this theme and this theme and spout our quotations. then again, I practice it. so stop slapping your own face and shooting your own foot.
and actually there are some days when I wonder if my insistence on the paper being thematic is just my laziness at work. so that I don't start ploughing through the book and memorising it like shakespeare.
what I need is perspective.
ugh.
but then again, seriously, what you don't know won't kill you.
okay let's change the topic before I go crazy on you. again, that is. oh well. perhaps I should revert to old style. talk about what everyone is talking about. like what I want to do after the A's.
you know the problem? I already feel it's after the A's. my plans are on the verge of execution. in fact they seem to be executing already. the layouts are coming, the pictures are downloading, I am no longer trapped in my house. the calender dates after the 24th are beginning to have notes squiggled in. activities are beginning to take shape, they are on their way to me.
but they hit a barrier. because I still have ONE paper.
and I think I'm really gone case. I am not talking normally. I'm like talking in circles, about the exact same thing, and not making a lot of sense. no I don't write clever things here. this place isn't my shot to fame. and honestly I've lost my concept of having a blog. there is no longer a reason. I've lost so much rationality (if there is such a word) over the years.
and actually I shouldn't be like blogging all this shit. I should be telling you about what happened these few days, who I met these couple days and what I did. I should be talking about my plans for the holidays, I should be getting all excited over my latest pictures, videos and such. I should be talking about my layouts, talking about jrock, complaining about how paper 4 is sucky.
I guess when the screw decides to come out, there's no stopping. when it decides to push its way out and fall on the floor to be found later, it has to happen.
inevitable.
I am making lesser sense than ever.
if it is of any comfort, I'd like to talk a little about layouts.
I'm redoing the december one. so I shall stop my excitement over the fact that I'm using the picture in which takeo and kohta try to kill each other. my december layout will just see takeo. end of story. I haven't exactly completed it though. but that's no matter. it will be done soon enough. as soon as I'm done blogging, I'll complete it. the january 2006 one will NOT feature kangta as I've exclaimed so much, due to mental screwups. my idea didn't work. thus we will have double bill of pierrot, as january will feature kirito. or rather, january features kirito. why I chose kirito is not a valid question. or at least I don't have a proper answer. wrong. I don't have an answer.
I am hoping that somehow or another my tora layout will happen in february. the present one that I worked at a couple of nights ago is not working, so I have decided to discard it, like the takeoXkohta one. and I hope that my kazu layout will work out.
but of course, we must wait. time. rome wasn't built in a day, and neither do my layouts. well some do, many don't.
I shall complete the layout then.
but before I sign off, just wanted to mention it here. I met yiyi at the airport yesterday. she just finished. and I was thinking about her some days ago. she seems more tired. but oh well. after not seeing her for nearly two years. I guess I'm happy enough that she remembers me, for all my memory of her is worth.
do I sound sad case? more like gone case.
case closed.
admired daisuke @ 2355
nineteenth november
I'm here because I'm beginning to feel a little cuckoo. seriously. I'm a little on the borderline of going crazy and at the edge of boredom. oh and I'm really on the brink of screaming soon enough.
oh whatever. basically I need a...what do you call it? I need to let it out. I am what you call "very tired". tired mentally. I am so sick and tired. it's only saturday!!! ARGH. my last paper is on thursday, and that's like freaking faraway. in the mean time, it's boring me half to death reading about utopia. I mean utopia can be interesting and all, but the problem is that everything is...like that. then how?
tomorrow I'm supposed to meet meida jo and mae to dig out quotes and stuff like that from 1984 and handmaid's tale. but somehow I feel it's the wrong way to go. paper 4 is thematic, not a book study. knowing the book from back to front isn't really going to help, is it? if the very fine question of why should we study utopian literature should come out, are the books of that much use? would all the quotes on telescreens, perspective and whatnots apply? I don't really know.
so it all boils down to this.
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and actually I'm having a headache from looking at this bloody screen for so long. I think I shall go for SPA. but I must return on time again. which is...sian. but I think it is better than caging me here. caging myself, actually. it's irritating. but I'm so lazy actually. and I'm supposed to do my part in pulling the relevant quotes out as well.
OMG I just read yuting's blog and JAC SUE is in that STUPID star search programme STAR IDOL on channel 8. yeah darlings it's every wednesday at 8pm and MAN she looks like...I don't know. I didn't recognise her on the show (and I watched this week's episode) and when I followed the link on ting's blog she looks...
well if you STARE very very very carefully she looks like the old jac sue we all know, but just give me that face and I wouldn't know her for nuts. I swear it's the makeup. what's with the polytechnic phenomena? put so much makeup for what? got people to see you? well some think so.
or maybe it's just me, because I think makeup is an absolute waste of time. and isn't it sad to hear that some husbands have never seen their wives without makeup just because the wife is afraid that the husband will get a fright of his life like OMG WHY YOU SO UGLY without makeup.
eh I think I'm really cuckoo. my singlish/singaporean side is coming out like anything.
oh and speaking of singaporean. yesterday's lit exam featured a singaporean writer. I nearly hanged myself. after two years, he's back to HAUNT me.
phillip jeyeratnam.
YES the author of the oh-so-famous o level text Abraham's Promise appeared in my A LEVEL exam paper! AHHH!!! I was like SHIT. but it doesn't affect anything. other than initial shock and horror as to why the old folks on the other side would want to pick a book/story by a local author. it's never happened before, apparently. gosh. but I did it all the same.
and I thought I'd never see that name again.
and you know what? I was thinking hor, I should have done part b of the question. well basically there were two questions for that section of the exam. either a) write a critical commentary (which is the usual thing we do) or b) write the passage from another character's point of view in the style of the author and point out difficulties faced and what insights you gained from the author's style.
haha. maybe we should have just memorised some ulu part of abraham's promise and dumped it inside. sure hit. why? because the text they gave us is written so similarly to abraham's promise! AHH!! I'm serious. go check it (if the book is actually still in the house). I was like WAHAHA. but obviously, trying to stay safe, I did part a. I've already done a lot of suicidal things for A levels. don't make it worse.
I shall continue later. my headache is BACK.
okay I am back. after some hours. and actually I don't have anything much more to say. just that I've gone absolutely nuts over alice nine. I think my layouts schedule must change again. in accordance to my gallery folders, these are my after A level plans for the world wide web:
1. A GALLERY SITE! WOOT! so that I don't lose everything...
2. layouts layouts layouts. featuring: kangta he jun xiang yomi tora saga miyavi kyo kazu daisuke
3. clear up my archives. what a mess
4. redo my main pages. what a BIGGER mess.
5. livejournal icons! 100x100 it is! hurrmph!
WOOHOO! await the changes! and I'm so going to learn how to do blending properly!!! yeah I can't do it. as in I get what on earth to do, but some things don't exactly happen. and I'll install the macromedia MX package! then I'll figure it out, finish my final battles with photoshop, then I'll get these two thingies burnt out for gwen. goody? I suppose.
I have like 9 months worth of layout people up there. I have a great idea for the kangta one already (duh that's due for next january), and then I have an idea for miyavi, but I don't want him to appear so soon. and I have inspiration for the kazu one as well. the tora one is coming along, but I think I'll use the picture with tora AND hiroto. hiroto IS cute, but just not my type of jrocker. not quite right. hiroto should go be a gothic and lolita bible model, don't be a jrocker. no offence to hiroto fans, but he...aiyah. never mind.
I feel like playing with photoshop. this...itch. ARGHHH!!! I shall supply my want. I shall try some...blending? YAY!
admired daisuke @ 2313
sixteenth november
I am still alive.
after 6 essays, an mcq, a drq and a case study, I live on.
WOOT! and A's are almost done. take note, almost. which is really shitty, actually. because my last two papers are in a sense, un-studyable, if you get my meaning. paper 8 is an unseen paper, so whatever comes out, whether I've read it before or not doesn't make a difference. really it doesn't. it's all skills, and more skills. and then paper 4 is half unseen, and the essay is thematic. if it were on the books like paper 1, then I'd have to study really hard, because we have four books. but then, this is based on a theme, utopian writings. so just blab. somehow. just cross your fingers and hope VERY VERY hard that something idiotic like "why do we study utopian literature" doesn't come out. since cambridge has gone absolutely bonkers this year, there's a good chance something assholic as that can come out.
ANYWAY, besides the stupid A's. no I think I must rant more. ARGH. idiots who are in the physics econs maths combi SHUT UP despite having finished your lousy A levels today. can't stand it. they were like WOOT in the hall. thanks a lot. weekhee had a great idea. she looked at the crushed piece of paper she had in her hand and said
this is when THIS comes in useful
WAHAHAHA. all of us were like OH YAY let's throw. but of course, we're good kids, we're nice kids, we don't throw paper. it's such a waste.
okay. now to my favourite topic. I'm so freaking sorry to those who have to endure this time and again but it's my JROCK time again. I am so sorry. just that I must let it out.
I've just fallen for ALICE NINE.
yeah that new generation bunch. yes they are under PS company (so they're miyavi's juniors), and they're a pretty tall bunch. ranging from 166cm to 182cm, I guess finally some taller people are coming out. okay fine miya is 186, happy?
but actually I'm quite biased, because honestly speaking I don't like the vocalist. shou. suddenly reminds me of moonchild. OOPS. his eyes are overly fixated. kinda fake, and looks act cute. and then the voice that comes out of him is oh my gosh HUH?! well he sounds like a...lousy gackt imitation. if you made gackt sing until his voice is about to crack and minus all the vibrato, I think you kinda get shou's voice.
it's bearable, but...OKAY I just don't like him. I just like tora. heh. he's not pretty really, but he's got that cool look and that sharp angled features that just makes me faint. fuu~~
okay let out already. NEXT. finally got the kagerou expect rush photoshoot! WOOT! although it is WAY worse quality than the alice nine expect rush photoshoot, I don't quite care. daisuke's doggie was cute, got to see kazu, yuana is crap (I don't fancy yuana either) and and and shizumi is...I don't know! shizumi is usually this weirdo guy of the band, who doesn't really do very much visual. he's got like proper cropped guy's hair, at most some dreadlocks extensions, even wears glasses sometimes, but this photoshoot took me by surprise. when I get the screenshots done I'll show you why. he's just too pretty. it doesn't seem right. I'm so sorry to shizumi for saying this but seriously...
enough. there must be something else to talk about. oh yeah. sister and I scanned through the sony christmas catalogue, because she was trying to show me these two cutee little speakers that I should buy. but then again, I don't really know if I should. well you see, while I was studying, I unplugged my computer speakers to connect to my mp3 player so that I wouldn't have to stick the earplugs into my ears for so long. however (damn I've written this word a lot of times today), this means that my computer has no speakers while I'm using and it is so tedious to put it back. but the thing is...well, they're terribly cute (although the passive speakers are cuteR), and not too expensive, but I don't know if I'd seriously use them. well you see, I was thinking of getting some good quality earphones which may be able to blast properly. but then again, the sound quality I get would probably resemble the laptop quality.
oh wail. that was a huge paragraph. I'm going to toggle my december layout to fit proper paragraphs. yeah it's going to go back to the old old old layout style where I have this humongous picture on the top and then my words are all at the bottom. so you don't have to keep seeing takeo and kohta try to kill each other. but daisuke must see. right?
ahaha. and january 2006 will see a similar layout, but kangta will be on the right, and I'll slice off a little on the left. oh crap I'm turning this into another layout talk.
I don't talk much about anything proper, do I? I just rant on and complain like shit about school, about A levels, really, and then go on and on about jrock and somehow or another get a paragraph in about my potential layouts. great.
one more thing to wail. I guess I saw ec2 for the last time this year. ah well. I refused to take the 81 because it was raining. I did that yesterday because of him. but today it was raining, and then it advanced to pouring, so I didn't want to take that bus. I'd be soaked if I did.
oh silly me. A LEVELS YOU IDIOT. oh and shitty me hasn't seen vio ever since the A's started. which perhaps may be worse. should I see him during the 6 day break? I don't know. I don't fancy doing work. wrong. I HATE doing work. and I don't like HIS work. grah.
sleep! it's terribly late. stop the false freedom.
oh and I found this really stupid song by tommy february 6. yeah that nutcase girl from the brilliant green. I think. it's really stupid, but I thought it cute somehow. it's called
Choose me or DIE
sounds sinister? I'll incorporate it into a layout. and I was eyeing a tora layout to go with that..hiak.
ENOUGH. SLEEP. NOW.
aiyee I wrote so much!!
oh I downloaded SOULSEEK again. HEHHEH...
admired daisuke @ 0120
twelfth november
just in case you all thought I'd died.
I haven't fully resurrected the way I mean to, but I'm here because I thought of screaming.
yeah bloody cambridge is all out for our lives. the math was bad, apparently geog was gross and the gp was...
unexpected is an understatement.
so while I'm wiping my sweat, I'm hoping they don't come up with more pure madness on my literature, and I'm all prepared for madhat econs.
or rather, I'm prepared for them to ask madhat questions. whether I'm prepared to answer those things remain questionable.
in the mean time, I'm still trying to live normally and trying not to fall asleep on the sloman textbook.
and I'm killing my handphone by playing pinball whenever I'm sleepy (that's a lot) and my mp3 player is perpetually running. oh and so is my bittorrent.
I'm downloading alice 9 now that I've finished the laruku download. loads to show meida and mae after the damn A's.
damn damn damn.
Death Warrant
the end will soon come
Death Warrant
Just a little longer... I can hear it.
oh oh why does gyakujoutannou keloid milk suddenly apply?!
wail. and double wail.
study.
admired daisuke @ 2059
seventh november
tomorrow it starts.
the war begins.
yes it's A LEVELS!!!
I'm happy. why?
it's finally here, means it's gonna be finally over.
VERY GOOD.
after that I'll resurrect.
like yuting, with the website back, and plentymore layouts.
till then,
await the 24th...
admire daisuke if you wanna. I would if I were you.
heh.
admired daisuke @ 2103
second november
I am so tired.
of nothing actually. I don't study that much. and actually all I do is to do maths. so if math doesn't get an A, I should go look for a good window to throw myself out of.
no lah, actually all I'm really scared of is econs. somehow or another I think that I'll end up doing all macro questions because I realised that my micro is only enough to do mcq. and I was reading through the package that mae bought for all of us. grah it looks terrible. I think they have this feeling that oil and globalisation is going to come out. ugh. and worse still, they think that labour market will come out for drq. that's like the ultimate weapon against myself. so I should go study labour market, no? shucks I hate that topic.
anyway I'm getting sleepy again. although I slept a little more this time round. always want to sleep early but either I don't go to bed early in the end, or I just can't sleep. sometimes I wonder if my inability to sleep is more than habit.
oh sucky. I can't wait for the damned exams to fly away. once it starts, it'll go very fast. yeah I'm waiting for it to start. just START. and finish.
but must finish well.
ARGH. I'm tired of it. am I considered burning out? but I didn't do anything! perhaps that's why. I'm burning myself on the fact that I've barely done anything.
oh crap. I don't even know why I'm so depressed tonight.
so let's lighten the mood. I got my star wars miyavi pictures! yeah it's miyavi skywalker. damn lame, actually. somehow I want to get myself a scanner and scan some stuff in. I think that's how jrock_scans community works. you take so much stuff to the point where you want to give back some. or maybe it's just this self gratifying thing. that you want to be part of the bunch that provides, then people can't stop thanking you. oh whatever. it's just like seeding torrents. it's so lovely to be a seeder and watch your ratio rocket.
okay I depressed my entry again, didn't I? maybe I should stop being so philosophical or bothered about life like this. wait people say I'm a POSER. AHAHA. that word is just so funny. we used to insult the acs people as posers. looks like some smart aleck RI boy is giving it back! he's just as bad! goes to sing karaoke and then come to school and pretend to be some high class GP teacher...SAME DIFFERENCE.
POSER. POSEUR. also same difference.
and for more laughs:
he calls himself BAE-miyavi!! AHAHAHAHAH
eh meev, wrong season, no? it's supposed to be winter, not autumn right? Yon-sama??? AHAHAHAHAHAHA
yeah that was miyavi's attempt at being bae yong joon. did I spell that right? whatever. it's a good laugh anyway. he looks stupidly odd, really. but who cares. can't remember which mag that was from. just amusing anyway. perhaps I should incorporate that for my lj icon. yeah goondoo me doesn't have an icon. what on earth you want me to do with a hundred pixels?!
oh announcement, announcement. owing to the fact that I am too tired of iframes, I shall modify my december layout once more such that it doesn't require iframes. because you see, ambitious me wanted to make double iframes for that layout. but since I have only 6 silly days to do it, I have decided against it. I hate fighting with html. I think the only thing that hasn't proved much of a problem is photoshop. it's pretty cooperative. even stupid bittorrent can give me problems. and I haven't fixed winmx yet. ah never mind.
oooh found out that zetsubou ni sayonara is written by kazu! ooooh so proud of him! ahaha the song is really nice. a little machiavellism-ish but heck. nothing new, right?
I meant to stash one more picture here but I can't remember which one I meant to stash anymore. oh I REMEMBER NOW!
and....what's totchi trying to prove? ahahahaha now sister THIS one looks more like transvestite! anyway, due to poor lighting he looks a little dark and purplish. here's what he actually wore. it's the macabre tour concert.
okie that was like picture overload today, no? I suppose I ought to sleep. got 5 hours (yeah sabrina called) of econs tuition tomorrow to go through. oh must remember my bk coupons!
admired daisuke @ 0000
first november
right. daisuke on my left! woot! I just love this guy. he's got one of the prettiest faces in jrock yet, and his silly self goes to cover it up and nearly destroys it all. just like yomi. so silly. and I'm listening to him sing too! daisuke doesn't have a stellar voice (but at least it's wayyy better than miyavi), but he has a terrifically unique voice.
gosh I sounded like a kagerou advert.
anyway...I got more scans! and I've just requested for my august 2005 shoxx scans. I hope they'll go through and somebody out there will respond! they have july, they have october, but no august! so sad. and I want those star wars pictures badly. wail.
I need to sleep soon, so I'll end off here. just wanted to make sure that this layout goes up smoothly and that I hope this time there won't be so many problems because I've given up fighting with iframes. at least for this month, because I don't have the time to do it up so nicely. sorry daarling daisuke. so all I could do at the very least was to make a really beautiful picture.
oh and I think somewhere next year KAZU from kagerou too must make an appearance. he's just too classic. he's not the dollish pretty, not lolita pretty, not exactly exquisite pretty, but GOSH he has that real elegance. miyavi rubbish ah! ahaha yuting will kill me.
so there. await the end of a levels. then the website will be up proper, the archives will be mended, and a whole SLEW of new layouts await!
admired daisuke @ 0016