December 2005

I realised I haven't updated in a long long while. but you know what? I'm too lazy to. so I guess this is the last time this month, and also this year, that I'm updating. await next year! but don't be too frightened when you visit my blog next year. I understand that the picture of kirito in my next layout is rather frightening. somehow other than kyo who makes it to my top jrocker list without being pretty, kirito makes it up there too. and he's seriously not pretty. barely even visual actually. takeo, on my left, is the prettiest already. and even he is trying to drop that ningyou (doll) image he used to have. so sad, actually. but what to do.

and actually I'm typing a lot a lot these few days, because I'm helping my daaarrrling sister type the detailed summary of the 10pm show on channel u, shiroi kyoto. which is wearing me out slightly, because SO MANY FREAKING THINGS HAPPEN.

but anyway, small update, my mp3 player is working fine now, but nobody knows what the heck went wrong with it. the only viable explanation, from dearest victoria galvez, is that my mp3 player merely decided to pms on me.

but what the heck, because it works now. and it didn't cost me a cent to reboot the system, and my files are still around and all. just that they made me fly down to jurong east on a rainy afternoon. which is bad enough in itself, really.

so there. seeya next year! oh and the main site of this place will be done, so I'll try to reduce the clutter on the top of the entries. heh.

YAY! merry christmas. righto. it's CHRISTMAS! woot! okay I'm not like superbly excited or anything, because I think my excitement was over yesterday. haha. yeah had celebrations in church yesterday with the youth group. cooked some soup, ate loads and laughed more. oh and it was fun giving the bread out! everyone was freaking shocked. and they all had the same few questions, aka 1. is the bread real? 2. can it be eaten? 3. will it ROT?!

gosh. answers are, yes, no, and shouldn't. heh. yeah just shouldn't lah. I'm not really wonderfully sure whether it will breakaway or something like that. I don't know if grace is bringing the remaining 11 pieces which are unvarnished, because those pieces are seriously "I am not sure if they will rot or not". those quite...dubious. AHAHA.

anyway, back to christmas. actually christmas should be everyday for christians, because there shouldn't be a specific date where you celebrate christ's birth. 25th december is the wrong date, anyway. it's just thanks to roman emperor constantine who decided on this date. and then nowadays everyone uses it as an excuse for holidays and hiking prices. quite sad, huh? my mother said that even the duck price in the market has risen. gosh. oh and there aren't going to be newspapers tomorrow. SPH is taking a break. great. whatever.

so on a different note...my mp3 player has gone absolutely cranky on me. so I must make that incredible trip down to jurong east. crappified. but of course, luckily for them, it's directly next to the german school, which means more convienience for myself. at least it's a walkable distance from the mrt station. otherwise I'd have murdered creative. yeah yeah at least it isn't in tuas, right?!

and actually I'm pretty tired. yeah still tired. I slept like 12 hours already. yesterday was terribly tiring. and the days before too. oh I haven't talked about them yet. right. tuesday I went somewhere. but I can't remember where. I know wednesday I went to grace's house to continue the bread. where did I go on tuesday? wail. I suffer from short term memory. then thursday I went for carolling, spent time with vicks and maril (and then later I ran into gwen), then carolling again, then friday I went out with vicks to deal with my mp3 player at funan and bought some stuff. and then yesterday was a whole day in church.

hey what happened on tuesday?! I remember I went out! arghh. oh after reading the previous entry, some memory jolted. went to see bread on BOTH tuesday and wednesday. gosh. and the varnish seriously STINKS. but what to do? I'd better go pack the pillows in now otherwise grace and aileen will come after my life again. heh.

anyway...went a singing at all saints' home today. so tired after that, because my stupid shoes were on their way to killing me. and it cut me so bad that it hurt so much when I bathed. and the swaying was SO FUNNY. we almost collapsed singing 'you yi jian li wu'. well meiying could see the second row, and us in the back row could also see and we just looked at each other and laughed and laughed. well at least it helped us to smile? ahaha.

just heard the radio rip of miyavi's upcoming single due on the 18th of january. power right? the people who manage to get all this stash. and this single is NOT BAD at all. the main track, senor senora senorita is not quite typical miyavi in a sense, but still has a tinge of his style. the second track, gigpig boogie is NO boogie, but oh wth. it's like a slower ARE YOU READY TO ROCK. which means it's GOOD! woot!

okay fine. it's boogie-ish in a way. a little snazzy jazzy. but other than that, no. heh.

so now I start my backdating. haha. 17th, saturday. I went for the national piano and violin competition finals. very violent people. vicky was still afraid that the piano keys might fly off or something. especially with the last guy banging so hard that the entire orchestra behind him had to increase the volume so hard that we actually felt the floor shaking. and actually I have a good mind to get that saint-saens piece that they were playing. yeah the triple repetition was a tad too many on the day itself, but it's actually a lovely piano concerto.

but it wasn't too bad, because vicks chose the two-niners who weren't so...foreign? haha. or rather, I went out with people I knew. properly, that is. it was vicks sarah yong (yep she's back) furzanne and peiyee. not too bad. and we laughed pretty hard at burger king. not bad at all.

then after that vicks and I headed to vjc for their annual nssn, or not so silent night. it's their year end thingy meant to allow their new sec 4 appeal cases to perform. and vera was there, without me knowing it. I thought she meant to appeal into tjc. obviously the idea of loke yeo just put her right off.

oh and because we were there so early, we stood around the porch and said hi to a few juniors (including wanting who looked like she was going to kill me because I refused to go for the tjc concert but appeared at vjc), and saw some strange juniors (I didn't even know they were juniors -- they gave me THE strange look and I knew it. one even greeted me. AHAHA). and then just when the sightings were getting funnier, it reached the climax when someone came to me.

it was andrew. AHAHA. he looked 1. out of place, 2. with a 'what am I doing here' face. he was like hey what are you doing here? and I (nearly rolled my eyes) replied with the same question. it was UBER funny, because andrew isn't even on the list of people who I think would appear at such a concert. not that it's an insult to people who don't appreciate it, but different people appreciate different things, and there ARE some who can't appreciate classical/band/ensemble music and I don't blame them.

and anyway he was there to support a student (which included the hawaii fund obviously, because the ticket was 3 bucks more than usual), but I guessed he wasn't going alone. so I asked who he was waiting for. and guess who.

he was waiting for lin yaoqi. OH DEAR. I had that oh-how-nice smile on my face, but I was like seriously, what are the both of you doing here?!! andrew was also like yeah yeah I know...but I guess the two just meant to support their student. at least they were willing to pay. if vicks didn't say that she was paying, I wouldn't even have appeared there in the first place. so actually I'm worse.

and they've changed conductors! well okay I already knew that. majestia this year was mr luk's last concert. apparently he's retiring for good. he's dropped every single band he's taking. and that's pretty sad. and guess who replaced him? it's leonard tan (a miracle worker, according to darling buddy), who is the conductor of srjc's band as well, and...

AHAHAHAHA. I think only maril would start laughing at this. ANYWAY...yeah. and the band sounds pretty decent. I think it's just vicky's batch. can't be that leonard tan takes only 2 months to allow vjc to sound this much better suddenly.

well well well, one clarence tan and another leonard tan. perhaps the tans should go conduct. forget the sias. ahaha.

oops. and then after the concert vicks and I went to the hawker centre next to parkway to have dessert. ate the terrible looking ice kachang, and headed home.

and before I got home buddy called. disturbing call. no details here, but buddy dear, I know you're upset. still upset, that is. and I also know you try freaking hard to look normal even when you're terribly upset/disappointed/cheated. nothing wrong with trying to look the same as usual, but if you can't take it or something you can call me, okay? I know I don't pick up calls too well (just try today, I pressed the freaking wrong button), but call me, okay? just...don't scare me can already. that's all your buddy here asks. we'll go out for dinner someday soon, okay? I've got a $10 voucher for esplanade! AHAHA. details BELOW...

righto. I'll write some letters for my buddy soon enough. haven't written anything for ages. my handwriting must suck. so sorry buddy.

right. the 18th. happy birthday first to my daaaaarrrling sister, and also to cryssie crystal. yeah one turns 23 and the other 18. cool huh? we're all getting old together. hiaks hiaks. oops.

came a little too late for baptismal service (yeah missed joanne), but caught most of it anyway. and that includes the josiah ong chai 'meng' oops, it's supposed to be ong chai heng. AHAHA. youying got his name a little teeny bit wrong there. but it was good for laughs.

and then after service I had to endure lois and joanne screaming about the 5566 concert that they attended the night before. can't believe it. or actually I can. actually I'm surprised that they didn't just go straight for the $148 tickets. they had VIP tickets, I know, but even then...

and then it was breadtalk rehearsal, which was a laugh too. first, candice chose a song she didn't know (again), and then after that she and sam ho realised (for the first time) how oh so high pitched O HOLY NIGHT is. YES my dears, O holy night is like the hardest carol to sing simply because it hits a pretty wide range. but sister came in and saved them with her lower pitched version.

and then after that sister and I decided to support the PArts performance at esplanade, since we were going to eat dinner there with daddy and mummy included. but in the end the performance was cancelled because it was raining when they tried to set up, which was really sad. there were so many people I meant to support.

but we went for dinner all the same. yeah we introduced dear daddy to ichiban boshi, and spent a bomb there because we ate so freaking much. buddy wait till I tell you what the heck was on the receipt. it was INCREDIBLE. oh and I dragged sister to the movie memorabilia shop there too. we got kinda stuck there for a while. heh. and I couldn't find the kagen no tsuki flyer! wail. but they had the NANA one though...wonder if they have moonchild...ahaha

and because of the KABOOM we spent, we could redeem the ARTY BEAR!!!! and boy is it so CUTE!!!!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!

I have decided that I will make a picspam of ALL my bears (or at least as many as possible), with all their 'origins' and little stories. AHHHH!!! I don't know if buddy remembers arty bear. I was wailing about it some time back. heh. and it IS SO CUTE. but they ran out of the brownish ones, so we got a whitish coloured one. but WHO CARES. it's cute anyway.

oh and the arty bear comes along with that 10 bucks voucher, so go spend 80 bucks with visa at the esplanade and you can get it. heh. I'm like advertising for esplanade or something. await my picspam!

and...that's pretty much it. today was just singing and stoning and my painful feet. haha. and offbeat swaying. tomorrow I should be seeing bread, unless grace suddenly says no. ah well. just so long as we get everything done by the 24th. and gervais was screaming about whether it will rot. I say here: NO IT WILL NOT.

after being like absolutely DEAD for 3 days, I decided to erm, resurrect? ahaha.

as promised below, I went a singing and a toasting. literally. and yesterday I did a lot of a toasting, a spreading, and unfortunately, much a sniffing. I think my nose is on its way to destruction. it's smelled PVA glue (which is this ugh sort of white glue) and some varnish. which is...UGH.

so today we went on a break. but not much better anyway, because I went a singing AGAIN and kinda a dancing. yeah they added choreography to the carols. yes I'm going carolling. but I'm missing the one at east coast park because it's my darling sister's birthday. and anyway there's breadtalk practice in the afternoon, and since I've decided to go for breadtalk, which is what my youth group has called their christmas celebrations, I must go for the practice, right? if not for the breadtalk prac I would find myself at the park, because they're performing between 4-5pm, and so I can get out in time. but the earlier practice...well.

oh and there's no gel on sunday either. AHAHA. she's totally gone case today. she must have eaten something wrong. very wrong. she seemed like she'd gone under some lydia-torture to turn out like this. JUST like lydia. haha.

but carolling practice was REALLY funny. especially the 'pu shi huan teng', which is the chinese version of 'joy to the world'. yeah the chinese version is really HARD. their vocabulary is just simply...powerful. they've translated the original very well, but that also means that they've used pretty difficult phrases, and shortened some phrases to fit into the choruses. and idiot minx, whose chinese obviously failed, decided to make it easier for himself to memorise by turning the ENTIRE song's lyrics into only 'pu shi huan teng'!!! GRAH. and when we sang that uber simplified version to lydia, she nearly died laughing, and crashed at the mirror. terrible you know. I don't really know how the church is still standing with BOTH lydia and minx in the same building at the same time. it's just...mind boggling. oh and how EH can continue standing too.

in any case everybody loves 'the gift goes on', and so do I. and it's the first time I've ever heard the song. and I think it's our most complex choreo. heh. yeah actually it isn't too hard, but it's just that coordinating the whole bunch of us who hear different rhythms, it's not as easy as it seems.

listening to SILVER ASH. ahaha. yes silver ash, the now defunct group, which is hailed as china's first visual band. yes my dears, china DID (and actually does have many more underground ones) have a visual rock band, which means there's a bunch of PREETY boys forming bands in there. heh.

One whom all girls fall head over heels for, one who can sing soulful rock ballads, one who can stare into the camera for a split second, then look away dejectedly, as if he’s just been ditched by a girl he love most.

People will excuse the MV for not having a concept, because they would be too pre-occupied with every little thing the vocalist does in the MV.

now you know why some PVs are simply worth the download, while some are just...well. and that's also why I insist (especially to mae and meida) that a music video doesn't exactly need a concept, or a story. WHO CARES?! so long as there's eye candy. hurrmph.

and alright, I guess that's like all I can say now, because it's getting late. it wasn't late just now, but after talking so much to my mother and sister and being interrupted, it's late.

righto. back from camp. again. and I think God is trying to tell me something through these past weeks.

I don't know. after a geraldine/buddy's neighbour imitation, a tone deaf girlie, and now a sleepwalker, I don't know what to say.

but I guess beyond the tolerance part, there were loads to tolerate with me. and loads of new people to do so! ahaha. after yet another wild camp with charite, and her latest buddy chelsea, sharing the room with aileen and grace, still laughing at gervais and marcus, finding a new victim! norman! two cute sisters angeline and emily, as silly as ever sarah ho and youying, still bulliable ulu and EVERYBODY else.

I guess this retreat's been pretty much the best. oh and we added on to charite's list of AHEM guys. looks like it can't quite stop at 565. ahaha. and I learnt today that gervais can get the younger girls to move it! not bad! there's hope for my sister's perfomance coordination yet.

24th, I'm due for CA127's wonderful finale at sentosa. yeah so I'm supposed to end up singing at sentosa with like goodness many many people. problem? 24th, I'm also due in church to play the carols for dear candice and sam ho, and then carol to ourselves at the void deck!

time to bathe and sleep. need to go a singing and a toasting at EH and grace's house respectively. ah we'll see about the 24th thing tomorrow. so tired.

right. let's start from morning. woke up at crazy hour again (I think my mother will get angry one of these days) and received this message:

so sorry that yesterday I was singing all out of tune. I was damn worst at singing. and those songs that I don't know, I shouldn't sing. I think if there's an outing, ask me for shopping or dinner instead.

well perhaps. I wouldn't be surprised. I left it as my msn nick for like goodness knows how long. and I guess after she knew that my blog existed, she went on a hunt for it. sometimes I wish she'd channel her energy elsewhere, and stop like memorising dates and things and stop remembering bad things that people say. it isn't constructive, isn't good for herself, and it just doesn't help.

oh and she might like to stop apologising. and she ever says sorry for saying sorry, I think I will flip. okay perhaps it's just me, because I really hate it when people apologise. especially when they apologise just to get out of a sticky situation, then people will say, aiyah she said sorry already mah, don't blame her. that's BESIDES the point. sometimes people say sorry not because they're really sorry, but it's just good manners to say it.

but stash that away. tomorrow's my church camp and thus I'll be missing in action for a few days. it's till tuesday, and then after that we're going to get the stuff for christmas. heh. aileen's great idea. and this year we're storming grace's house. at least the celebrations aren't at her house...although actually that would have been great, then we'd just camp at her place and leave everything there, without lugging all the stuff, like I did last year. heh.

and since I didn't get to rant about NANA last night, I will right here. NANA -the movie-, is a japanese movie released on 3rd september this year, based on a bestselling comic by the same title. I can't remember the author's name anymore, but you can find it easily anyway. summary:

nana Komatsu (Aoi Miyazaki) journeys to Tokyo to be with her boyfriend. A stroke of luck finds her sitting on the train next to NANA Osaki (Mika Nakashima), a budding rock vocalist. Although they part at Tokyo Station, their paths cross once more as they compete for the same apartment. They decide to move in together and despite their differences, introspective NANA and outgoing nana become firm friends. NANA finds a new bassist and reforms her old band, Black Stones. Unfortunately, nana finds that the course of true love does not always run smoothly. nana receives some good news, however, when she wins a pair of tickets to see her favorite band, the hit sensation TRAPNEST, in concert and invites NANA along. NANA has reservations about seeing the band play live and it is now that nana discovers the secrets of her friend's past - NANA's unresolved feelings towards TRAPNEST's guitarist, Ren, her ex-boyfriend and ex-BLACK STONES bassist. The curtain goes up on the TRAPNEST concert and Ren steps onto the stage. NANA sits below in the front row of the audience. Her eyes fill with tears as memories come flooding back. Will NANA and Ren be reunited...?

RIGHT. why on earth am I raving about it. because it's nakashima mika!!!!! and I downloaded the full maxi single that I spotted at hmv. man is it GOOD. but I think the later tracks, which are not by hyde, sound better. but her voice is simply powerful anyway. which is THE POINT. and she's acting pretty well as NANA, as the trailers go. I'm hoping to get a subbed version of it. there's a copy available out at mybittorrent.com, but I don't know if it's subbed. let's go check how stinkingly expensive the dvd is. I know it's getting released very soon, so maybe...wait ah...

apparently there's nothing released so far, just a couple of suspiciously cheap books. well, the novel based on the movie, paperback 222page 18cm, costs only 680yen (S$10.20), and the photobook for the movie, 100page 30cm, costs only 1200yen (S$18). suspicious? VERY. but whatever. that's on amazon japan. the two together, plus shipping blah blah blah can't cost more than $40. which is like super maxed out already. and that's freaking ridiculously cheap. although true that the novel is in japanese, without translations, is cheaper, but 10 bucks? hmm. and a photobook of decent size less than 20? this is crazy. even if the whole damn thing were in black and white it wouldn't cost this little. and even if you turned the sing dollar values into US dollar values, the book price would have been justified, but the photobook still disgustingly cheap.

but anyhow, I'll lay my hands on the movie someday. let's see if mis-sxclusive has anything wonderful for me. must go down someday. with the blast that alice nine's creating, something good may come out. heh. but then, I've kinda lost interest in their photos already, because I know where they get them all from!!! AHAHA. they're all actually either magazine shoots, or screencaps, which I attain easily. mag shoots come from beloved lj community jrock_scans, and screencaps are done by yours truly, so long as I get my hands on a decent looking file, which I've been able to for some time now.

and now, the long awaited PV of kusatta umi de oborekaketeiru boku wo sukuttekureta kimi is finally released! and I've gotten it. haha. I'm a terrible pirate.

and now after lunch (and dinner too), I shall continue on a hiatus status for a while, since I'm going for church camp, and then we're doing christmas, then I'm doing the CA127 carolling, and then it's REALLY christmas, and...aiyoh.

although I think it is terribly evil to laugh at people who are tone deaf, sometimes I guess I choose to cry. well you see I went a singing with two new friends. it was supposed to be one. the third one is absolutely tone deaf. and the other day mummy was saying that it isn't possible for someone to be completely tone deaf.

but of course, I have other friends who aren't perfect either. either they can't catch key, can't change key, can't tell that they're not quite in tune/in pitch, but sometimes those can be forgiven. and usually, they KNOW it themselves that they don't exactly hit notes really well, so they tend to either sing a little softer when they're not sure, or they're able to follow the correct pitch when the rest of us join in at the correct pitch later.

1. she's tone deaf. we forgive.
2. she doesn't know the song at all, she insist on singing. we 
also forgive, because this is how we learn new songs. by
singing along with our friends.
3. she is unable to countdown to the initial line (despite help
from the dots/symbols/bar thing), we also try to forgive. not
everybody is accurate.
4. she doesn't follow highlighting properly. we also forgive,
because sometimes we also don't follow quite right, 
especially when we don't really know the song.

after forgiving so much, you wonder why I'm still so...ah well. you see huh, she is tone deaf, I really try to forgive. she doesn't know the song and tries to sing, but the problem is, she tries to sing it like she KNOWS the freaking song! so she sings happily and loudly, until she realises she either 1. cannot read the words, or 2. really cannot catch any melody (but she's tone deaf anyway).

she cannot countdown properly never mind. the craziest part is she seems to enjoy starting a split second after we start singing. and it's amazing how she manages it nearly every single line. and then she doesn't follow highlighting. and it's so extreme, that she happily sings the line when it is NOT highlighted yet, and then when she's done with her own strange melody, the line begins, and thus the highlighting begins. what she's done is to sing her own melody with the line which hasn't even started yet, and when the line DOES start, she doesn't sing.

call me evil if you want. I just wanted to let it all out. it's true that I'm not a perfect singer, and that I have out of tune songs, out of range songs, and poor pitching and a disgusting tendency to go sharp. FINE. but...

oh and also...if you attempt to sing louder in hope that she can follow your key, forget it. why? because she'll sing even louder!!!!!! and then you can forget about even hearing yourself. to the point where my dear other friend was like "actually I don't know whether she knows the song or not, because it seems that regardless of song, they're all out of tune and out of sync anyway".

I thought I'll be nice. but do you think I'm being nice this way? that I go out with her all the same, bring her to sing kbox when I jolly well know she's freaking tone deaf, and then bitch online?

I don't know. sometimes I think we're not being nice. we're just humouring her. you know the chinese words, fu1 yan3? yeah somehow or another I think that's what we're all doing.

oh and I realised one more thing today. whenever she asks me some strange off-topic/zero relation question, my answer is usually another question: does it matter? basically she always asks questions about things that simply don't matter. I won't attempt to list, and I won't talk further.

just that I meant to go gaga over NANA -the movie-, which is terribly late (I'm like 3 months behind), but nonetheless something to gaga about. but now I don't feel like it anymore. it's getting late. I should sleep. rest my ears, rest my mind. somehow.

edit: must scream here. the making of kagerou's latest single, kusatta umi de oborekaketeiru boku wo sukuttekureta kimi (yeah bloody long name I know), has been released, even before the PV is out. but the release is official, anyway. but that's not the point. the PV was filmed when daisuke looked exactly like this:

well well well. another update. today I have the urge to blog, but then I don't have that much time. I'm pretty tired, and I want to sleep soon, especially since I'm going out AGAIN tomorrow. so I'll literally chop chop finish fast.

right. today nothing much, the only 'highlight' was that I went out with my buddy. this time it was to make up for our previous outing, which was quite a disaster. it was a last minute arrangement, and both of us didn't seem to be in our best shape/mood and aiyah it just didn't turn out right. today was alright. or so I believe. heh.

oh and because she was late (making flashcards for somebody), I stuck around hmv and listened to some lovely things. first, I discovered that amuro namie has come out with yet another new single, and the c/w is very nice! or at least I prefer it to the actual track itself. it's called violet sauce. no I don't prefer it just because of the colour mentioned, but I think it's a pretty cool song with a very heavy and terribly loud beat. but then again, that could very well be due to the annoyingly loud headphones which had a volume control which WASN'T working. which was crap, anyway.

then I saw the nana single again. didn't care much for it the last time, but I picked it up again and I read the back damn carefully and realised...

I nearly killed myself. HOW DID I MISS THAT?! and the craziest part? the first song, which is the theme song of the movie itself, is written by HYDE!!!!! AHHHHH!!!! and I listened to it and MAN it is so laruku. ahaha. like duh. but BESIDES that. I think this is like perfect combo for almeida. ahaha. well with the singer for WILL, the ending song for 'searching for my polestar', singing a song by HYDE, the beautiful vampire in 'moonchild', I guess...stuff works.

I guess I didn't recognise nakashima mika under all that garish makeup. and I mean garish. should go get those pictures where miyavi cosplays nana. or at least that's what the person who posted those pictures thought. and I have similar opinion.

okay, I was supposed to chop chop, right? so before I end, I'll just crap out here that I'm singing AGAIN tomorrow, and this time I'm going to the toa payoh. oh yes that's like THE kbox that vio loves to frequent. will I see him there? I know the more I think about it, the more I wouldn't. but I just can't help linking the two facts together. ARGH.

bleah. leave you kiddies with a song. a lovely song sung by andy hui and han hong. spotted the album at hmv, but it wasn't for listening. GREAT. but anyway here it is.

(our long relationship -- andy hui and han hong

you agreed, you'd watch the sunset with me
you agreed, but you broke your promise
all the wonderful things you promised me
have faded as time goes by

you agreed, we'd never break up
what we've agreed upon -- who should we blame?
thank you, for the happiness you gave me
I want to feel little by little, day by day

is it that my courage has become less
or that time is just trying to humour us
all the grandeur of our relationship have turned to smoke overnight
the immense passion we felt before have vanished
we can only hold on to the pain and live the rest of our lives

how do I forget, forget the promises made during our love
how do I forget, forget your adorable face
how do I give up, give up on our long relationship
by letting my tears flow as I look toward eternity?

how do I give up, give up on our long relationship)

don't call me a doll @ 0002

realised I forgot to tweak my html. damn. never mind. just that I got tagged by marilyn, so here's the whatever it is.

Rules of the game:
1. post 5 weird/random stuff abt yourself.
~~2. at the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to do this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!~~ (I'm too lazy)

1. everybody knows this. I just love PRETTY boys
2. I have irrational fears of heat and knives, and possess a love-hate relationship with glass/crystal
3. I hate livejournal
4. I'm a complete slowpoke. eating, sleeping, bathing, anything.
5. I've a craving for fastfood suddenly. don't ask why

anyway...that aside, I've replied maril's mail! woot! after like nearly two months, something has finally gone back to the sender.

and actually I haven't much to type. just that this is like my first day at home bumming. I've been out so much. last wednesday to saturday was my camp, sunday I went to church, monday I went to be a games marshall, tuesday again, thanks a lot to dear ulu for bumming with me in that lovely part of woodlands, and then going to church, and then going for samuel's grandma's wake. and finally today.

plooey. and I told myself that I'll make livejournal icons. but I guess I hate that system too much. don't like it. in any case, I need to revamp my homepage. perhaps I should do it now. inspiration anywhere? I don't know. but the thing is that I'm so bored, but tv's boring, I'm not concentrating enough to plonk the ivory keys, my table is half cleared and now I'm too tired to carry on, the usual blogs/sites/mail have been read, I don't feel like playing online games.

and I woke up too late to have an afternoon nap! WAIL. oh whatever. just too tired. I'm quite zombiefied today, and I barely know why. ah well. some days are just like that.

sigh. that's it then. this is a lousy update, but oh what the heck. at least something gets on, right?

oh and just wished to comment that the song on maril's blog reminds me of this super old sunday school song. I don't know if she's heard of it.

my God is so BIG
so STRONG and so MIGHTY
there's nothing my God cannot do (for you)
the mountains are His
the rivers are His
the stars are His handiwork too
my God is so BIG
so STRONG and so MIGHTY
there's nothing my God cannot do

right. this may or may not be a long entry, because I need to sleep earlier and report back at camp orion.

no more camp orion. pretty sad though. anyways, just an update, because I've been away so long. welcome to my new layout, I need to tweak the html a little because I suddenly realised that the scrollbars are going to come out as the wrong colour. oh and speaking of html, is gwen going to reopen her blog? since maril's is alive and well, but gwen's remains

literally. that's what it says on the freaking page. alright enough of my nonsense. it's freaking impossible to tell you everything that happened from the 30th of november right to the 3rd of december at camp so I'll summarise. and you know how good I am at that.

basically, the camp was pure madness. even though I really do travel light enough, this was crazy. okay, basically their idea is for all of us to play amazing race. yeah bags and all. so if you're like certain people who carry like 14 sets of clothes to a 3 days camp, have loads of fun. yeah so we carried our bags and ran all over singapore to do all sorts of crazy things at different stations. and my group went from city hall to woodlands to tampines to queenstown to boonlay to yio chu kang over 1.5 days.

and it didn't help that there were two crazily hyperactive and overly enthusiastic girls in my group. but I must say that they helped to add to our mood a lot. seriously. we were a load of craps. my group was one of those who were super enthu, running from place to place and screaming our heads off and laughing at absolutely anything.

sounds absolutely not like me, right? but I guess when there's a whole lot of 'on' people, you just end up rara-ing with the whole bunch of them. and they were like all sec 3/4, so yeah I'm like freaking old. cheryl!!! only cher is 17. so at least a little nearer? ahaha.

and other than cher and yvonne, they were all new people. so I guess it was more fun that way in that sense. oh and then because we didn't stay in one particular campsite, we thought the amazing race would continue to our 3rd campsite. so yeah the amazing race DID continue, but with a little twist (a fat one actually).

so YES my dearest darlings who know that my fitness level is like....what fitness level? this is great information and greater inspiration to those whose fitness is just like mine or perhaps slightly better (I truly believe mine is the most terok).

yepperz you didn't read that wrongly. we walked 16km WITH our freaking bags, from yio chu kang, cutting through the pierce reservoirs' nature reserve (sheesh all those logs and branches and mud and bleagh) through all the way to BUKIT PANJANG (bet you people have like never been there) and finally took an LRT (first time!) to some weirdo primary school that I've never heard of in my entire life here on earth.

and thus my final comment is, my foot is very pain. and thanks to cher's great idea, my butt hurts like anything too.

wah really pain man. the camp had 5 Ps. the perspective, purpose, people, price and pain of the gospel. it's too long to tell you here, so interested folks can call me or something. I'll get my camp booklet. if you want to experience the 16km walk PAIN, also can. I'll get you to join the second batch that's going for camp orion next week, which is tomorrow. they're walking on wednesday. any takers?

and then I finally reached home on saturday, body nearly dead, mind still pretty active. we were supposed to meet tracy at 5 to clear up the retreat planning stuff, but I woke up at 5. so I was disgustingly late. then after that we met up with a whole lot of people to celebrate ian's birthday.

it was such a good laugh. there were so many of us, we had absolutely no idea where in orchard (what a bad place to go on a saturday night!!) would accomodate us. if there were only 4 people, it would be fine. but there were freaking 11 of us, and then jairus was due to come later, so that would have made 12. gosh. where to find any space?! luckily for us we managed to find this long long long table at nydc that was willing to take us all.

and man were we noisy. and samantha bought flowers for ian. lovely sunflowers, but we were like sam, couldn't you think of anything better...and we had laughs over the cheese, the water, and I swear the waitress must have hated us. we drank water like we hadn't drunk any for the past 3 days. well sam and candice are water barrels, and terrence was sick. and then jairus came from rugby training, and all of us were laughing like anything. so what do we all need? WATER. the waitress always filled like 5-6 glasses and then the pitcher would run out of water. and wenyong insisted that nydc's water was addictive. *handhead*

and then finally it is today. and soon it will be tomorrow. I need to settle the 15 general knowledge questions. I think I should settle them today, otherwise tomorrow there would be no time, and it's so silly to do it on tuesday itself when I can do it now.

oh dear, I'm getting sleepy already. and I realised that I've a big problem at hand! I just made this oh so BEAUTIFUL layout picture just this afternoon, and I realised that the picture is actually 318kb. not big, right? so, the problem?

I am terribly upset. let's see if those imageshack thingies are alright with 318kb. okay they're definitely alright. otherwise the lj communities would DIE. well if my layouts in the future come to a point where the pictures just get bigger and bigger, either hardworking me will slice the pictures, or lazy me will simply move again. but I hate to move, and I keep moving, which really sucks. but I guess traffic here ain't that heavy, so I suppose my dear photobucket should do fine.

okies. just a little update on my favourite topic, layouts. here's the next months' plans.

okay. that's it for my first entry in december! tomorrow I have to wake up super early again, so better sleep!