28 April 2008 @ 12:18 am

dame. dame. dame. dame. dame. dame.  

 I can't believe I'm still laughing at it.

and I just screencapped it. I think I will make johnny icons after the exams. I have a mountain of jrock ones to give away already. they're almost all ready to go. plus I have a whole stash of johnny scans that I refuse to do anything with. I don't make icons out of them, don't make headers out of them, I don't even use them for display pictures. so perhaps some icons would render those scans of some use. especially since they take up so much space on my computer. plus if I actually continue screencapping pvs, I can only make icons. none of these pvs are high quality enough to make decent headers. really dame.

gah they released pv dvd but nothing from there?! there is a lack of t&t love in jpopsuki. how annoying. I've just stashed my request on the forum I hope somebody hears it.

in fact I should stash a request on 2wenty_2wo as well.

actually I think I should sleep.

 

 

 

surrender

27 April 2008 @ 01:30 am

impending disaster.  

or at least, so it seems. the exams start on wednesday and I don't feel like they're coming. I'm so glad my folder and website is done, but I forget that I need to put them all together and throw it into the nm department. I intend to do that by wednesday.

furthermore, I am still laughing at tackey and tsubasa. I suppose I'm not really spazzing as in I am not going OMG THEY ARE SO HOT SO CUTE SQUAH SOMEBODY SAVE ME FROM THIS I AM DYING NOSE BLEED IS SHOT DEAD.

I'm laughing.

because it's hilarious. I still don't know what rubbish dance x~dame is, but it's hilarious. the song is downright stupid (lyrics wise) but the music is good. yes it's true according to my sister (yes nore she found out) that they don't have particularly special or lovely songs in that sense, but I like this style. it's still dancey and fun but somehow it's not the arashi type of happy. arashi's happy is waiting to be slapped in the face.

and tsubasa should keep his hair short. takki's right.

and I should go to sleep. my first paper is a morning paper. and it is officially half past one in the morning. oh and I'm off yume monogatari already, since I transferred the entire best album into the player.

however I have 4 versions of venus inside, and I totally regret playing the t&t playlist on its own.

my player played 3 venuses in a row.

like what the.

i shall go sleep. seriously it's late.

 

 

 

surrender

25 April 2008 @ 03:46 pm

やっぱりなぁ。  

closet JE fan. 

and I have found the t&t lj comm so I have also found with it some working links. perhaps the best album is enough. unless there's some hidden things inside their albums. I'm lazy with the singles. because then I'll get a pile of maxi singles which include the main title track, 2 weird c/ws and all their minus one tracks. like for what. 

and let's see how long yume monogatari can last. I know venus lasted a few days. but I think the record still stands for either gackt's vanilla or dir en grey's the pledge. almost a month. I must be mad, I suppose. it drives my sister up the wall when she comes into the room to hear one song, and then comes into the room again the next day only to find me listening to the same song AGAIN. hahaha

and the ultimate episode of hey hey hey is done. I shall see if it opens correctly. rae should have the right codec. because I can't install anything on this computer like GRAH.

what to do.

okay great the files are freaking big. the whole thing is adding up to nearly a gig. I tell you my 2gb thumbdrive is the best best best thing I've ever bought this year. seriously. I can't imagine if I had to do 3217 on my puny 128mb friend. that survived for a while but it wouldn't endure 3217. I'd have to lug my hdd around. of course, by the time I realise it can't store so much I'd probably buy a bigger thumbdrive anyway. 

君が愛の罠　僕が恋の罠

it's stuck. stuck. stuck. 

on a silly note, when I typed boku ga koi no wana, 'koi' came out as 故意.

HAHAHAHA. and 3217 DONE DONE DONE. it's just to fix a few bugs, print a few pages, burn the cd and throw it all together. this is fantastic. YAY.

 

 

 

surrender

25 April 2008 @ 12:38 am

I will be brave.  

and I will ask. because I fail at access to jpop.

rin nore jinx anybody.

I wants takki ando tsubasa no discography.

ahahahahaha

yume monogatari broke my brain.

that and the undeniable fact all these years that those two are very funny together.

but I must say that tackey pissed me off for a few years of his life and my sis and I though 'tackey' was fantastic name. fantastic way of spelling it too. hahaha

but I loves tsubasa. yes I has small stash of pics in computer they growing.

(and we must mention that it is because of tsubasa's first solo performance on music station that I remembered kat-tun okay.)

and actually I want the discography mostly because it's more or less written by the same guy. haba hitoshi has been writing non stop for these two children. plus haba has also written quite a few songs for kinki kids. and I liketh kinki kids. so since I was addicted to venus, stuck on yume monogatari now, and thinks ho summer is a joke and samurai is actually quite nice, I think I don't mind the whole pile. it's not very much, right? or so I think.

and nore it's all your fault I keep hearing 'koi no hana' as 'kohii no hana'.

but one thing I've marveled at all these years is how these whole bunches of people can sing in sync. I mean, sometimes the melodies aren't so straight and clear cut but they hit the same note at the same time. band vocalists have the liberty to change any part they wish, sing the verse in a completely different manner if they so wish (it's happened) and so this is quite...remarkable.

whatever. I need to sleep. sheesh.

 

 

 

8 prisoners | surrender

24 April 2008 @ 01:23 am

confession.  

I am stuck on yet another tackey and tsubasa song.

yet another, because venus was a killer. venus was their 5th single. I'm stuck on their 2nd single.

yume monogatari. *points in one direction, points in the other, and shakes accordingly*

I am a gone case. *all because nore chose that for karaoke today*

and I am really gone case, because the first thing when I signed in I demanded the mp3 from nore. then I watched tsubasa perform it with arashi on 24hr terebi. then we watched the pv, because colourful coats and powerful feather boas plus retro sunglasses totally pwns.

and believe it or not, I'm taking the pv off veoh.

(suddenly the veoh downloader is of great use.)

I think I'm too stressed. something wrong has happened. I caught a bad johnny bug from an overdose at karaoke today. huge overdose. you know I learn new songs everytime I sing with these johnny fans. there's only one reason why I know

1. that tegomass song. whatever it's called.
2. yorokobi no uta and keep the faith. (do not kill me.)
3. osaka sukkiyanen (like WHY.)
4. sorafune (the chorus gets stuck easily)
5. KIMI DAKE NI. totally NAZE.
6. samurai love attack (sheesh I can be a junior for junno)
7. love so sweet and we can make it (although I can't)

I think there are a few more I probably can chip in an extra chorus or two, oh and I heard bokura no machi de for the first time today. haha believe it or not.

PV DONE. I told nore I suddenly have an urge to wear a sleeveless top, jeans, leopard print coat and black feather boa to her party. oh plus the retro sunglasses! hahaha can't see the shoes. ooh they look like pointy shoes. the usual. haha

what am I doing. go to bed. the lyrics are dumb lah. haha

BEYOND yume monogatari, the betwo clothes suddenly sprung up out of nowhere. just when rin was telling me about her spree stuff. the betwo spree was completely silent after she placed the final orders, and then tada, they're here in singapore, packed and ready to be sent out. like wha-? and anyway the sprees are clearing. okay not really, but at least it's left with the normal stuff and they're mostly via meetups. I can't have anymore things come in through the mail for a while.

it's 2am. I am going to listen to yume monogatari to school and smile to myself on the bus. I think arashi songs don't make me happy -- tackey and tsubasa songs do. they freaking make me laugh. HAHA. so er, here's ending off with the pv! learn the dance if you want. hahaha

I'm mad.


Online Videos by Veoh.com

 

 

 

2 prisoners | surrender

23 April 2008 @ 01:20 am

incomprehensible sounds.  

I haven't any idea how to express this. in sounds, is the best, I suppose.

because the scans of the pulse wriggling to black 2008 final tour are out.

and OMG THEY LOOK SO GOOD.

ruki in a silver suit, uruha back to sleeveless, aoi looking frail and vulnerable, reita with a RED sleeveless coat, kai with super classy hair and new makeup.

I can't take it.

it's been a long time since I squee-ed so hard over scans. so long.

but these are really good.

go gazette. I love you to pieces.

*is shot*

 

 

 

21 April 2008 @ 11:04 pm

we learn something new everyday II.  

indeed we do. today I learnt that

1. I really suck at using tables. HAHA. as stupid as it sounds, I still believe in layers. but I can't seem to find anything that says 'add layer' in dreamweaver cs3. that, sucks. but whatever. I'm told to use tables, and I'm getting there. whatever that's required of me for the website is more or less done anyway. yay.

2. the cnm lab closes at 1800h. naze. the old lab back at as7 used to close at 9pm. well okay they start to give weird stares by like 2030h and shut down all the computers around us by then. but I suppose they want to go home too. well at least it's open, and it's freaking empty. I expected it to be full by lunch time or so. but nooo it was still nice and empty. and I could hear the 3208 people around me. haha

3. gackt's dog was a long haired miniature dachshund. cute little bell. I think she died at 9 years of age. if I don't remember wrongly. sister was looking for the exact species, because my mother saw one on tv and insisted it was a spaniel. like sorry mummy but no dachshund is a dachshund. spaniel is a spaniel.

4. in our quest to find the species, and more pictures of the species, we ran into this old news that totally made us laugh. because apparently the taiwan boyband typhoon (the one that toro from energy ran away to) has totally ripped off gackt's vanilla. it's a total rip, because it's terribly obvious that it's more like a vanilla cover than anything else when you hear it. but the problem is apparently typhoon did not ask for reproduction/cover rights, and in fact toro is claiming that he single handedly wrote the entire song. there's some argument about the song sounding like vanilla because the guy who arranged it did it like that. (which is rubbishy, in my opinion.)

so for all who know the song vanilla, or you're just bored, here's vanilla:



and then here's typhoon's version. it's called 狂爱战队.



which is a total joke. I bet gackt was laughing his toes off when he heard about this. oh gackt released vanilla in 1999, and this bunch of jokers released this in 2005. did they think they'd get away with this, knowing the amazing fanbase gackt has in taiwan? HAHA. I am so amused. this is funnier than pi and toma.

oops.

off to try to fix a few hitches in my website and then to bed I go. tomorrow I'm going to go full steam brochure. I don't care, I'm going to finish it tomorrow. hopefully I can. at most I'll go back one more day.

YOSSHA. I can do this. =)

and vicks is looking up. not bad. there is still that slight dullness but then again, I don't expect her to swing back to be exactly the same as before anyway. one must grow up, and look ahead, and understand that life has thorns. but I don't want her to live in thorns forever.

and my buddy too.

 

 

 

3 prisoners | surrender

19 April 2008 @ 03:57 pm

the young ones.  

you know in 2209 tutorials my tutor is constantly going on about how different my generation is, because we grew up half our lives with the internet, having our own mobile devices and digital technology at hand. thus we view many things differently and developed different norms for communicating with one another.

but I realise that besides being a jrock hag (well it's true after all) and being pretty apprehensive about the new generation of jrock lovers who get everything off the net, I'm quite wide-eyed about the young punks selling cloth on the internet.

bored as I was, I decided to go on a tagboard hopping session. so I go to one blogshop, look for their advertisement tagboard, and click away at anything that catches my fancy, which usually means clicking on another 3-4 blogshop links, then the cycle goes on. and besides trying to get through idiotic internet language (which jinx and I utterly fail at, as a tagboard experiment some time ago proved), I realised part of the reason why the blogshop itself is so

1. badly organised (it's just picture after picture don't know what is what)
2. full of unnecessary items (like get rid of those blinking heart shapes will you)
3. poorly coloured (hello do you mind choosing a better colour)

(and add on everything that irritates on the internet, from luminous colours to lousy toggle fonts to anything), is a lot due to the age of these blogshop owners. I don't have much problems with buying from somebody younger than myself. not that I'm all that young myself anyway. but sometimes by looking at the shop itself, I get really apprehensive about these 12-15 year olds selling clothes. you know if you thought the yahoo! taiwan auction sites looked cluttered and poorly organised, hello try these. and you know the sellers on yahoo tw are generally polite people with proper channels available online for feedback, questions, queries etc. these children I've been hopping about can be such a bunch of...ah lians. yes go ahead and blacklist and ban people, tell people that some rules are a lot more important than others, but there are nice ways of doing things okay.

although it's not fair really, to completely condemn them all. after all, I've seen 20+ year olds set up similar layouts.

but beyond the layouts, it's just something somehow disturbing that these young ones have started setting their shops, contacting the same supplier again and again (I smell things off bugis street/chinatown/city plaza), snapping pictures of these clothes either laid flat on the bed/floor/table or worn, with their lovely smiles, handphone numbers, the area they live in, their full names, their schools, all on the damn site.

so at the end of the 'how to protect yourself on the internet' ideas that adults have been trying to put into our heads, it all comes straight out of the other ear, because the sheltered, cushioned, fearless next generation of this little island obviously, do not care.

I could go on my little essay but I shan't anymore, because it will deviate further. but I do hope somebody freaking cleans up their designs. because actually sometimes it's not too bad an idea to buy from these children -- after all, they're honest. in that er, odd sense.

 

 

 

4 prisoners | surrender

19 April 2008 @ 12:34 am

the day has come.  

for me to do nothing but nm3217.

no the day for me to go full steam mugging is not here yet. the day when my deadlines clear is not anywhere in sight either, now that they've pushed it back for no good apparent reason.

but then the day has come when I can sleep and wake up at a more decent time. no more 3am nights, and no more 6am mornings. no more. no more 10pm dinners. what the heck. I can't believe I'm almost done with this semester, which I was oh so apprehensive about.

I has to kick myself about the resume. gene says it might be a problem but I'll try mica anyway. nore I don't care if you don't seem to have one but I need someone to see my resume. because I simply have no idea how to write one.

and we ate expensively in the end. hahaha. that was one hiroshimayaki, half dozen takoyaki, and a pile of sashimi. okay not very expensively but still. it was the pile of sashimi, obviously. but hello FIVE BUCKS for an entire ika. we were both o_O at it. and as usual we met with the same solemn looking guy who stuck his hand out from behind the sashimi counter and ordered, "come give me that tray I'll lower the price for you."

you know while we go yamtarou style by waiting till they slash the prices and we go grab the best stuff possible, the stuff we decide to grab ain't cheap to begin with man. oh and we decided to try the soymilk we've always seen at the tofu section.

and what the hell. *glares at rin*

I felt like shouting "SHOU IF THIS IS THE SORT OF SOYMILK JAPANESE DRINK, PLEASE COME HERE AND WE'LL SHOW YOU WHAT SOYMILK REALLY SHOULD BE LIKE."

*is shot*

BUT seriously. that was 1 part soybean paste and 20 parts water. never mind the fact that there is no sugar/syrup whatever. I'm fine with that. but it was freaking diluted. so diluted I couldn't stand it. all four of us drank it and our faces changed similarly.

(jinx will kill me for this but) yanqing and I went for sado in the end. I finished my project early and so we stormed the room at about 3. and I really suck at making tea foam. it foamed alright, but somehow kinda slow considering the water was boiling hot. and I mean boiling hot (I think weng was all out to steam all of us alive). and these two guys from singapore poly's japanese cultural club came to visit. goodness knows why (I didn't ask) but they know some sado but they studied from another school of sado, and so we were like watching each other fold fukusas and chakins and wipe chawans.

and it's not fair that they use flowerless fukusas (for the guys only though) and shoumen-less bowls.

plus you know our lovely window at the side of the room? the one that overlooks the path from lt8 to as7? there's a little parapet there yeah. you know after they're done with washing the bowls and cutlery in the basin of hot water,

they freaking throw the water out THERE.

the parapet, that is. not the path. path too far. like what on earth. I was like HUH SERIOUS JUST THROW THERE and weng said yah and proceeded to wash the parapet. he said that's why got moss growing there. hahahaha

bleagh so sleepy. should sleep. plan 3217 tomorrow! I insist on finishing it real fast. INSIST.

osashiminasai.

 

 

 

16 prisoners | surrender

17 April 2008 @ 11:52 pm

I just want to say this.  

 blind man after blind man.

will jrockers stop wearing sunglasses that make them look like blind men?

I decided on a whim that I wanted to listen to luna sea, so instead of stashing period into my media player list, I opened the christmas eve live at tokyo dome they had recently. fastforwarded the front fanciful video, and loveless started.

and I found myself staring at another blind man.

my sister and I were laughing recently at the x japan reunion concert, because we watched a few clips from youtube and couldn't stop laughing at how toshi looked er, blind. and it didn't help when we opened the say anything clip, because say anything was sung accoustic, with heath quietly on the bass, pata picking solemnly at his guitar on the other side, and toshi our blind man vocalist strumming the guitar, seated in between, singing say anything, as if he were a busker.

gackt and hyde wear their fair share of sunglasses too.

and I have typed this till providence has been performed and done. I just wanted to say all that anyway.

with a little of personal life: oral sucked, universe test was rubbish, and I'm so glad they're over. I doubt any of us are turning up for sado tomorrow. okonomiyama tomorrow! perhaps with sashimi. nore and I are fatal. we are money black holes. money's escape speed isn't high enough.

daddy asked about my latest package. and he said, "ah ah somebody a lot of money ah, I don't give you money already ah." *cries*

on a side note. sometimes there are too many definitions of life we take for granted. but we need to sit down and seek each one out, to see what we really see in each word that we use so simply everyday. what each word really means and why it means so. like where we understood that word from, then only will we understand why we think we have it, or not have it, or why we want to achieve it, or how to attain it.

and I don't know what weird luna sea song this is. hahaha

 

 

 

7 prisoners | surrender

16 April 2008 @ 04:32 pm

I wonder.  

I am sitting in the as7 computer lab in a half failed attempt to do 3880. half failed, because I managed to kick myself and got it started with 2 paragraphs to my name presently. I have only 1000 words to type and yet I'm making it such a difficult thing to do. 

and I sit here listening to an imeem playlist set up by a 14 year old thai girl. there are days I wonder what's going to become of these young jrock fans who are absolute fangirls of these dysfunctional men and the amount of information and media they are able to lay their hands on. 

personally I wasn't too old myself when I first dwelved into the world of jrock. but back then getting anything jrock was rare, difficult, expensive. what magazine scans? my sister had to buy the damn magazine itself. what cd rips? we had to settle for cheap taiwan/hongkong pirated versions. my modem crawled at 28.8-33.4kbps, and 40mb music videos were a pain. total pain. 

livejournal itself was a joke.

I remember my friends setting up lj accounts when I was 13. that was also when I set up my first fansite. it was a total mess and I never want to see it again. I was proud of my hyde gallery that hit nearly 100 pictures back then. 

but then two years later I downloaded a zip file of miyavi pictures that contained more than 300 pictures of him. oh dear. then give it another 2 years later and I took a similar zip file of dir en grey pictures that contained a tonne of pictures. I have no idea how many. probably about 200 per member or so. terrible amount to sieve through.

then the torrents came alive again. and I have 4 gb of ayumi pictures.

in fact I have a tonne of things. tonnes and tonnes that would never have appeared when I first began my jrock obsession. there was no such thing as 250gb hard drives man. my previous computer only had 40gb. it died a natural death of er, overwork. it was literally 無理をした. utterly overworked, overused, driven to a point where it gave up, probably because the ram didn't wish to move anymore. what a horrible death to die. my motherboard burnt. I'm so glad it didn't explode/catch fire/whatever though. heh.

but disturbingly enough, yaoi fanfiction at 12 years of age was FUNNY. I suppose we failed to seriously reach some form of puberty in our same-sex school. perhaps. 

it is almost 5. what am I doing.

plus the idiot department sent another few companies to intern for. MICA's one of them. nore, dou suru? applications are due 25th april. I actually have time to do this. DOU SURU. 

wail. 3880, I return to you.

(what a song to listen to at this moment.) 

EDIT: I see the computer lab emptying out. and I think fried food is my comfort food after all. macs, you've done a splendid job. no sashimi isn't comfort food because actually that's my indulgence. edamame isn't either, because that's my obsession. 

maybe I should sit with my mp3 player and stone in the library for 2 hours like somebody I know. I think that's the ultimate form of escapism/procrastination/enjoyment/relaxation ever.

 

 

 

6 prisoners | surrender

16 April 2008 @ 12:25 am

just because.  

so here I am, blogging because I think I should. after all I spent an entire day out. shouldn't I talk about it?

but I'm not accountable to anyone on earth. in the heavens, yes. but not on earth. so why do people trumpet their days about on the internet for the world to see? I'm still puzzled about it till today. I was asked in a random 2209 tutorial why I blog. sometimes I think I have a purpose, then shortly after I lose sight of it.

like why I study laj. after a while I seriously think it's more because of the people than anything else. the classes are fun, I've made like the best friends in uni out of laj, and it's just a break from the usual expectations of university.

although sometimes I want my life back. right back.

give me back my normal modules. no they don't merely exist in 1101e. they lurk in the darkness amidst the evil work piling modules. they are THERE.

you know actually my eyes are falling out already. I don't know why I'm here.

I'm still stuck about the internship thing. I know it's good for me but somehow looking at all the stuff they've got out there, I suddenly realise that I don't want to do all those things. besides like one little slot that would like me to have done 2209, the rest want 2208, 2219 and 2220.

AND BLOODY HELL I DIDN'T FANCY THOSE MODULES. oh that was loud. 2208 was fun but not something I want to do as a job per se (I won't make it anyway, because it's a simple hobby of mine to tinker photoshop). 2219 was a well done module because it was mere theory, no practice, and kok leong pushed us along. 2220 was absolute HATE. what was that. indeed I didn't expect myself to dislike news writing. but then again, what was I thinking? I hate the newspapers to begin with. what is this.

sigh. oh and some also prefer 3217. which is half killing me NOW.

speaking of 3217. the strange people at the department decided to extend my deadline by one more week. whatever for. as if it makes a difference. I'm still going to work on it like it's due on the 25th anyway. I mean, if my first exam was on the 26th, and my next on the 8th, then yes I would appreciate that extension. but my exams aren't working out that way so no way is this extension helping. in fact if I adhere to that new extension the burden will be so large I will break down and cry.

a small bunch at the table during dinner today was asking how come I'm out with them for dinner. danny said most of his friends were stuck half mugging and dying under readings and deadlines. but honestly if I don't come out once in a while, I'll probably go crazy. it's my bid to keep my sanity. that's why I take time to eat with my friends. go out with family. come online and chit chat.

or maybe I'm just escapist.

 

7 prisoners | surrender

15 April 2008 @ 01:54 am

okane.  

here it comes. once more.

I'm more blessed than I think I am.

I'm hungry.

I liked the egg omelette at nore's house. nore you help me tell your mum her egg rocks okay. and so does the soup, by the way. without the alcohol thanks.

had my edamame fix. feeling like a pea pod now.

ta tomorrow. I don't know if it'll be okay. it's not that I don't remember my lines anymore. it's the situation.

I like my armband thingy. it's cooler (and easier to do) than I imagined.

it's 2am.

SLEEP.

indeed, the nights I don't sleep.

 

 

 

surrender

13 April 2008 @ 01:19 am

nemui.  

got my bag today. YAY. (I realised that with every spree item I receive, there's more relief than excitement. because it's one item off my bookmarks, and one item off my excel file.) the thing is, it's smaller than I thought it to be (I thought it would be the same size as my bag presently but it seems to fall short a little), and the opening is kind of small. but other than that it does fit a4 and it is presently impossible to overload my bag when I have a file inside. muahaha. therefore the bag abuse will decrease. the black and gold reminds me of crystal's bag though. maybe I should have taken the coffee one instead. but I can't take care of suede, so forget it. and it comes with a dust bag so that makes keeping easier. PLUS the leather's goood. goooood. (yes it didn't cost me very little so it had better be goooood.)

nore has edamame at her house. GAH. I want. (but don't cheat me with kuromame. wait I keeeel you.)

watched the laruku performance of drink it down on the music station 3 hour spring special. I think hyde was drunk. he was twirling about as if he was on a live stage (their live stages usually stretch across the length of the performing hall) but then the stage was way too small. too little space for him to twirl. and because of his excessive twirling, sometimes he didn't quite hit the note right. which is bad. hyde is getting more heck care about his singing. it irritates.

and honestly I don't think 5 people sharing a present is a bad number. I suppose because wk is a close friend she thought it more appropriate to spend a little more. but er, unless you're willing to pay the balance that we can't afford, 5 people sharing a present is really okay. not as if we paid 5 bucks per person.

eyes falling out. the reality that I have no more hyojun mondaishu to do is beginning to strike.

yanqing tells me our essay has come up to 1900 words. I can't believe we wrote 1900 words of physics. shinjirarenai. about masses of gas and dust rotating by themselves, orbiting a central object that also continuously rotates, with some satellite objects that spin on their own and orbit the rotating gas and dust balls. I'm so dizzy.

tomorrow I must study 3217. my goodness. and must start muttering my project script.

mutter mutter mutter. next week is pure hell.

monday: 3217 exam, 2209 due, 1520 due
tuesday: ta project presentation
wednesday: breatheee.
thursday: laj oral, 1520 test 2
friday: 3880 due

what is this. I want my hyojun mondaishu back.

(goes to bed.)

 

 

 

1 prisoner | surrender

12 April 2008 @ 12:10 am

tsu. ka. re. ta.  

so tired. my poor feet. dropping off. breaking off. oremasu. zettai.

so are my sentences.

I don't know why I'm updating. not much reason. supposed to do 1520.

I wonder why I live such a stress free life. as in I know the stress is there but I'm not bothered.

I live a bo chap life.

no good. ikenai. demo tsuzuku.

there are days I want time to myself. all to myself. with absolutely nothing to do.

but then I know I will begin a strange journey the opposite of descartes. and what an awful journey that is.

awful.

hidoi.

1520. finish the damn thing already will you.

procrastinator.

 

 

 

surrender

10 April 2008 @ 01:36 pm

dozing green  

 

surrender

08 April 2008 @ 11:42 pm

we learn something new everyday.  

1. I can really eat one pack of edamame by myself. I must be mad. I will morph into an edamame one fine day. nore you morph into a double chocolate chip cookie and then we'll conquer the world okay. I am mad.

2. jinx doesn't like edamame. I explained what it was to her today and she was like eeeeee. like WHY. NAZE. I love edamame. (starts thinking of how to turn jinxie imo chan into shochuuuu.)

3. D named their 10th indie single after a PHYSICIST. my goodness. that's right, the unpronunciable Schwarzschild was really, a physicist. he found a way of determining how small a radius anything in outer space needs to condense into given its present mass to turn into a black hole. fantastic. like what the hell. as I always say, I learn the strangest things from the world of jrock.

4. makoto is back. my goodness. I never expected that. after /\ucifer totally disbanded, they all just disappeared. then suddenly a pile of magazine scans come in to tell me that he's releasing his first solo album in september. another good thing about magazine scans. hahaha

5. yamapi didn't just get mobbed, he got mugged. his bag was taken, but at least nothing important inside. and some idiot fans wanted to pass him presents, so they threw them at his head ala hyde in hurry xmas' pv.

I should stop procrastinating. I want to finish 2209. then must start 1520, because 500 words of social psych is too little, and 2500 words of physics is too painful.

 

 

 

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06 April 2008 @ 10:55 pm

edamame.  

I WANT TO EAT EDAMAME.

for some strange reason. I think if I ever get gout (touchwood) I will be very very very upset. so upset you wouldn't even understand. except maybe nore, who's as mad over edamame as myself. we are doomed together, really. and now we face another semester together, completely uncurbed. this is road to poverty. we shall watch yamtaro during the holidays and learn more from him.

I wanted to talk a little about the yoshiki fake fainting controversy but then decided against it. I'm too lazy to scribble it all out anyway. just that some people thought that his final crash upon the drumset towards the end of art of life on the first night of the reunion concert might have been faked. it could go two ways. whatever.

and I haven't seen anything on the next two nights. maybe because I'm not looking out for them.

I'm dying looking at universe articles. I wish stars and society had something to do with one another. there should be a module, like stars and you, or the universe and society. something like that. guh I'm hating the maths that the articles churn out. math math math math. reminds me of that disturbing video we watched at fuzzy's house but never mind about that now.

but I've found my 2209 article and I think it's not bad. at least it looks like something I can write about. the universe ones look like something I may be able to (may be only) describe, but impossible to discuss.

and speaking of stars, I think I've gone mad. I spotted a starry skirt at baimomo and I'm getting it. I insist.

twinkle twinkle how I wonder how you are.

I could find out, but somehow I'm not anymore. but that star continues to occupy my mind. there is no rest, and I haven't ventured near to the reason why. there is no rest, and I know it is self inflicted. there is no rest, unless I choose to give it some.

there is no rest.

I want to eat edamame.

 

 

 

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05 April 2008 @ 12:48 am

oh the pain.  

I had so much determination today to finish the entire sado routine, my feet nearly broke. and I want to know how tall people pour the water out, because if I'm supposed to be as straight as zibin insists I should, then I swear the water is going to freaking SPLASH out.

and I doubt I remember all the steps. I need to write them down in order and put in the japanese phrases. my goodness I don't remember anything I said. at all. I fail at listening like this. I can't even remember phonetics.

and I totally fail at the vigourous foaming of tea. IT DID NOT FOAM. grahhh. mel said it was partly due to the fact that the water had gone cold and so the tea wouldn't foam as well. man.

there's a strange gnawing in my stomach. I refuse to believe I'm hungry.

my feet hurt. it's from pressing my feet down till the bones from my knee to my toes are all in one straight line parallel to the floor. I wanted to try the cheat way, but somehow it didn't seem to happen. it was more comfortable in that feet breaking position. just that after that I don't feel my feet, and standing is like impossible.

and for some reason my index finger has some skin peeling and it hurts. I haven't had something like that in years, I believe. guh. but at least that huge ulcer on the inside of my lower lip has gone down a lot. and I mean a lot.

tomorrow must do work. a lot of it. as much as possible. it's time to brainwash myself. DO WORK STOP PROCRASTINATING.

*clutches head and tries hard to brainwash*

conclusion: I shall go to bed. I'm so tired. must sleep. don't want to fall sick. because I sense it coming and I'm going to drive it awayyyyyy.

 

 

 

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